Sunday, July 31, 2005

Realization No. 1017

You can't pout the world away. It JUST doesn't work.

4 comments:

Jen said...

Yesterday was weird. I was hypocritical after I made that statement and it just affirmed the point more.

Its like you can never truly be down on yourself, cuz its hard to take yourself THAT serious..if that makes sense.

I remember being 14 and depressed, feeling so low to the ground, but i would never allow myself to be that depressed, which frustrated me. So, i think that is probably the same deal with alot of people; they are not so much depressed but frustrated that they cant feel as depressed as they want to be.

or maybe im just a big weirdo.:-S

Jen said...

Well, are you feeling up and up now??

That is....the question....da da da...*cue dramatic music*

It's weird...forcing yourself into better moods. I always think that when i do that, that i am not being honest with what i am feeling at the moment and it makes things worse off....but then some silly thing will happen in life to me, I then laugh it off and feel a littlle better....Its like you cant take things seriously..

For example, you are having a serious conversation with some friends of yours and then somebody farts or somebody makes a tangental comment that doesnt make since. Smiles then rise to the occasion in those instances and the conversation then takes root in a different manner.

Jen said...

PS...my spelling sucketh sometimes...*sense

Jen said...

I stand corrected..:-p

Ive done that before. Especially when I first came over to the UK to visit.

I knew that i was worth it and wanted to have a good time and as a result, i did, but then i became depressed and shite in july because i felt like i really didnt deserve to be that happy. What a mindfcuk!!