Irritated....

yep.

That is the state im in..

I hate when there are bouts of just numbness in my life....like im hanging on the sides of a whirlpool that will inevitably suck me dry. Maybe I stink and the fumes are getting to me?

Well, I watched the Majestic with Jim Carrey and it was a good old movie, kinda like one back in the 1940s/50s. I would recommend it if you ever have the time to watch a movie. Basically, it is about a screenwriter that ends up being blacklisted back in the day as being communist and ends up losing his memory after a car incident. He then is found on a beach and found by a dog and a man that then mistaken him to be a MIA soldier and takes him back to the town of Lawson.

It is a good movie and a different feel of a movie starring Jim Carrey. I am guessing that there was not much publicity on the movie because it was a much different genre of movie for Carrey to be in, but some of the crowd from the Truman show probably managed to watch it or any hard-core fan of Jimmy Boy.

So, here is when the point of irritation walked into the room....literally.

Reuben walks into the room, starts chatting away with Jassen about getting some kind of table from the garden. I wasnt really thinking too much on the fact that he was asking for the lawn furniture table that has a umbrella sticking out of it. I was thinking that it was a table that use to be in the living room since moved. So, Reuben is going on and on how he needs Jassen's help to move the table in the living room. Now, first off, that aint gonna happen.

Here is the reason why i got so irritated at this. I first like to let people know that Ive spent alot of time and effort straightening up the house, feng shui-in it up, and making it more visitor friendly. I am very particular about how things are arrange, etc. In other words, im a bit of a neat freak, plus i like a clean environment cuz it makes me feel more at peace and I can think less about the state of it and more on what matters. If that makes sense.

All in all, Ive majorly cleaned up Jassen's bedroom, cleaned up the loft(attic) to make it more of a cozy bedroom, ive straightened downstairs into a more spacious living area and better vibes can be felt in this. Put together a tv stand that took a few hours to do to make the tv and 4 games systems look very nice. Ive straightened up the kitchen a wee bit as well as put together LAWN furniture that was not being used cuz of it taking time and effort to put together(i did this on my own accord).

So, needless to say, i get a bit bitchy and frustrated when people dont clean up after themselves when ive put so much effort into things being nice on the eyes.

What does R do? He thinks that he is going to put and mixing console and 2 sets of turntables in the living room next to the tv...I.....DONT....THINK.....SO!! What an eye sore that is and terrible spot if that. What if people are wanting to watch the tv, a movie, or wanting to play video games??

It makes no sense...GAWD!! I hate teenagers...i hated being one myself.

Then he has the audacity to say that he was going to use the lawntable as his music area and im like...HELL NO! It's for the garden, for the enjoyment of guest, and where the hell am I to go when i just want to escape the clutches of the house?? It just wouldnt be comfortable outside plus i am not getting the respect of putting it together and make the garden rather nice.

So, maybe...just maybe you would see my frustrations....i wasnt just mean about it...i offered other ideas, rather than the table.

I know its not my house, but im staying here and the only one that appreciates my efforts really is my boo and maybe J's dad, besides that, nobody gives a flying leap, except me. :-S

here lies frustation....*grumbles*