mmm...apples

I am eating one of the most delicious apples in quite a small patch of time.

It's nummy!!

I think I am having one of those weeks when I get little to nothing done besides playing catch up with sleep.

I mean, the kits did tire me out big time the first week I had them, but
now they are sweetly adjusting to our sleeping patterns.

It's cute, when they are ready for bed, they get soooo sleepy, but they stay awake until we
are ready for bed. Kinda the same way my friend Val's kit waits for her, but they don't meow at the fact that
they are being kept awake.

I should make a little list of things to accomplish today.

1.) Nap

Well, i got that one out of the way!!:-p

2.)Exercise and stretch

15 minutes of stairstepping love and 10 of strength training/stretching
I'm actually going to do this one in about 20 mins cuz then i reward myself with...

3.)Take a shower and get the stanky bo banky smell off and become SQUEAKY clean

4.)Straighten up the bedroom

a.)make bed

b.)clear dishes

c.)wipe up any messes

d.)sweep floor

5.) I am really wanting to read more of Potter(Half-Blood Prince), cuz I been severely lacking a good read
and want to know what will happen next.

6.)Make a list of things to purchase for friends coming over later this weekend

7.)Work on a song and hope that logic express doesnt produce another one of those
"spinning balls of death"

Don't know why the program is being all buggy on me.

*cue sad face*

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I am going to set myself up with a goal to finish a song, cuz when im not in the mood or dont
feel inspired or in the right frame of mind, i get all lazy and relaxed but then I cant really
enjoy my relaxation period because i feel like i need to accomplish something.

Sometimes I believe that its more of my dad's voice and will inside me that wants to accomplish and sometimes I
wonder what my world would be like if i didnt aspire to be something greater than myself...
when really i should appreciate myself and who i am now...

Do you ever wonder why you find yourself at particular points in your life?

One day, you think the world is great
but then the next second,
the second you let some negative thought or worry in the door,
that it seems to ruin the whole essence of "the world is wonderful" feeling...
and it's HARD for you to compare the bad feeling and to see it as a way to
make the good feeling higher on the pedestal cuz YOU KNOW you are worth
better thoughts, but you fight that?

Hope you all followed that.

This is often my state of mind.

Questioning when something good happens
and then setting itself up to fail with backward negative thinking?

:-S I guess its like one of those things you realize after many many years that
other people seemed to have picked up earlier on in life.

Going back to the happiest moments in my life....

Honestly, i know it sounds sappy, but when Jassen and I realized our feelings for one another
was sincerely one of the happiest days and times of my life.

There was electricity in the air or something on that day.

I had been wanting to go to Stonehenge and what better day than the summer solstice.

It look a car ride to get there and Jassen's dad was nice enough to drive us there. Reuben also came along,
although he was suppose to go to school. So, here we were driving to some ancient rocks, but not before we could stop at this temple that Jassen's dad wanted us to go to.

It was beautifully structured and made of marble that was made in India and then shipped over by the tons. We were walking around without shoes and had men and women sections to store them. I was sooo afraid that someone was going to take off with my shoes, but that wasnt the case.

We were then separated, so sexist, the men up front and the women and children behind. I talked with a girl who was 20 years old but I forgot where from. I was wearing some jeans that im sure were giving people a show of my crack o'delight, so i hope that was enjoyed. :-p

We then went up front to walk near these statues that were guarded and then walked about the gardens outside after. I have a cheesy picture somewhere of me vanna white-ing some flowers. Jassen and I posed for pictures in front of the temple and also at some gate looking areas.

***I will provide pictures so that it can be more visually interpretated***

So, then we might have had McD at this point, but im not too certain. Jassen will have to intervene cuz im sure he'll know.:-)

During either car ride there or back or both...my memory is shite!!:-p....i decided to tickle him, cuz i felt like being touchy.

When i did, Jassen grabbed my hand and tried to push me away, in a playful manner of course, cuz he is uber ticklish! He then attempted doing the same and this went on for quite sometime. Playful brushing and touching of the hands and tickling.

What i found strangely arousing was the fact that I could feel his energy radiating off of him, so i started playing with his hands by making circles with my fingers in the palm of his hands.

I know this is a sensitive spot cuz this is where a minor chakra is on the body. I then softly touched his wrists and made a to and fro movement up and down his arm and he did the same to me. SENSITIVE!!! And when it came to the eye contact, it had me blushing. Our faces were slowly edging closer and closer to one another in the anticipation of a kiss, but that would have been a bit weird to kiss while in the car with not only his father but his little brother that kept on saying...J! J! J! Trying to get his attention, but not looking in the backseat at all,but Jassen's focus happened to be on something or rather on someone else.:-p

But the warmth that I felt in my heart and how so much i longed to be in that moment for as long as possible, it was a wonderful realization of both of us being sensitive to each other's energies and actually feel the channeling of it.

You may all now think im talking crazies, but im sure if you are in a relationship, you feel that closeness, kinship, and love of the other person in some form of energy and thoughts. It's a really special thing. And when you have that, it makes a relationship that much better, cuz its like having a secret power of the universe and you allow that love to flow into it.

Anywho...i need to exercise the demons and, well...EXERCISE!!

Ta.