"It's been a long---time---coming"

I'm trying to think of the song title of the above, but its not coming to me.


Question:

How come your voice deepens when you wake up in the morning??

I think that's google-worthy!

Google has been around for 7 years. Imagine that.

I've been using the net since about 1994. Crazy to think that its been already 11 years. I know that my dad was on the WWW or whatever when it was a baby, so that might have been late 80s, but then when you think about it, internet has been around since about the 60s. At least what we are lead to believe it being created.

When you think about it, it was said about 10 years ago, or from what i remember my dad saying, is that technology that we are playing around with now in our homes, etc. That its actually old technology that had been around for at least 5 years. I think now, that might be a different story and probably a shorter grap in time, since everyone is pushing for technology.

Something that i noticed while watching movies as of late, it is hard for me to follow all the action and i feel like the receptors in my brain are starting to slow down. I actually feel it. Is there something wrong with me? Or is this just a natural thing that happens when you reach your middle 20s? I asked Jassen about this and he agreed.

*screams like chicken little*
My brain cells are dying! My brain cells are dying!!!

Hmm...what is on my mind....LETS PLAY 17 THOUGHTS on Jen's mind!!!

1.) Need to exercise and take a shower later
2.) organize my half of the closet(at the top)
3.) organize the dresser
4.) do something creative
5.) what to take when i go back to the states in 24 days
6.) I'm sad/yet excited about change
7.) I'm not going to be with Jassen from October 24th-December 15th.
****really its only a month and a half and it will be nice to get back in the routine of doing kinda my own thang, but at the same time, the aspect of it, and not being around a person that you love, kinda dampens the situation, so i will have to keep myself busy with work/play
8.) Life goes faster than i ever thought it would. It's as though in childhood, teenage-dom, and college years, you are in a waiting line....waiting for something big to happen...but when you get up to the head of the line and on the ride of your life, you realize that the biggest undertaking IS living your life and managing to do it your way, making compromises you never thought you would, and learning how to be in the moment.
9.) Why is salt being all lovely dovey all of a sudden...he is up to something
10.) I want to make a book list/dvd list/movie list but that might take me forever to do.
11.) I would love to get a job at the local Starbucks and not have to worry about insurance or going broke paying for coffee or driving to work, cuz i live about 1.5 mins by car and about a 10-15 min walk out of my subdivision from one. PEEERRRRFECT!
12.) **THinks PosITive**
13.) I wish for a PROPER thunderstorm
14.) I love the fall, but not as much as spring and summer and winter can go take a holiday together.
15.) I want to hug Jassen
16.) I want to hug my mom and my dad and my sister
17.) What is gonna happen next?

Are we who we want to be...

wrapped up in someone other's necessity
Waiting for another moment to know
should we stay and become mold.

Your dreams are screaming out to you
Make me breathe
Make me true

And then you are left to wonder why
a cursed and missed opportunity,
is nothing
but
a
s.......i........g......h.

HEEEEYA!

*Sighs*

It's been a loooong wednesday.

I exercised as usual and then cleaned for hours on end. The strange bit is that things are all relatively clean for me, but i feel the need to organize to the nth degree and make lists. I feel like George's Mom from Dead like Me. Ace show. Too bad it did bad ratings-wise. It was a smart show and the dvd sales have proved it more worthy than what the ratings ever showed. The mom was an organizing freak that loved to make lists....as do i......as.......do i. :-S

Jassen and I then partook in an orange wednesday, which allows orange mobile phone customers the opportunity for two-for-one cinema tickets every wednesday..

We decided to see Howl's Moving Castle, which was decent! It was a cartoon/japanimation with the voices of Christian Bale, Billy Crystal, Lauren Bacale(spelling?), Blythe Danner(Paltrow's mum) and i think a few other peeps. The story line is a bit odd, but thats to be expected if any of youz have seen Spirited Away, i believe its the same director.

Well, I am off to beddie-bye.

Night folks!

x

Take 2

Salt the sweet!!

For some reason, the last blog entry wasnt allowing me to upload piccies. I wonder if Picasa is being greedy. 

Isn't he just the sweetest!!

Ah...so, sweet my salt is!

:-)

Ok, it's the end of the world...

and you and your significant other or person of opposite sex are left on the planet.

With it only being the two of you, would you choose to procreate?

Would it be fair for your offspring?

What if there was only one kid? Wouldn't it be lonely after the passing of its parents?

What if there were siblings..would they procreate??

Yeah, im weird.

 


This is my attempt with Picasa, which is an awesome organizer for not only music and movies, but mp3s, and pictures.

It's so easy and i recommend it.

x 

Unproductive...

day.

But heck, its sunday. To me, sundays usually are a bit crap. Dont know why, cuz when you think about it, time is man-made. A month is man-made as well as clocks, as well as days, etc. SO, why do i paint sundays in such a negative way??

I havent been sleeping that well for a small while now, but my spirits are up. This morning, woke up...not rested, so now there is a sheet on top of the thin curtains, so that HOPEFULLY will do the trick. :-S

Watched to Kill a Mockingbird, Family Guy Movie, as well as Forrest Gump. Ive seen the Gumper before, but its always nice to re-watched good movies.

Tomorrow is another day, so until then...

x

Top Secret Mission

at H&M

Case:

Kate Moss and the disappearing contracts

:-p

I LOVE MY BOO...

soooooo much!


You are wonderful and then some! I love when you talk and bring me out of my self-inflicted numbness towards life. You have the ability to put a smile on my face with the least amount of effort and I appreciate you so much and love you with my bleeming little heart!

Mwahzies!

There is nothing wrong with me

There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is NotHING wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothin wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me

Wrong nothing is with me
Wrong is nothing with in me
Wrong isnt how its meant to be
there is nothing wrong with me

The problem is that there is no problem
There is nothing wrong with me
Conflict is not the state to be
There is nothing nothing nothing wrong with me

What i am feeling is not how i want to be
how to live
I am worth more being happy
There is no reason to be sad

Im living no?
That's better than not
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me

I mean, we all have issues
but there is nothing wrong with me
COnflict is stupity

There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
There is nothing wrong with me
This isnt how life is suppose to be
living in worry confusion and dishonesty
at least to myself

When do we start lying to ourselves in life?
I think it starts in school.

Entertaining Da Crystal

This is for Crystal who is on pins and needles in regards to the idea that Harry Potter and Hermione Granger might be long-lost siblings.

Lots of people dont agree and many believe that if this was true, it would make Potter more star wars, but i hope it to be true cuz it makes sense to me.

Alot of these ideas i picked up along the way but support and some i added.

Here goes..

Hermione Granger's patronus is an otter.
Patronus Otter
P/otter

Hermione is hardly ever seen with her dentist parents. One time I can recall was in Diagon Alley when she was getting books and both of her parents are muggles. Honestly, how many muggles get into Hogwarts.

Hermione is 10.5 months older than Harry, making it possible to be an older sister. She was born in September of 1979 and Harry was July 31,1980.

Hermiones last name was suppose to be Purgles, or something of that nature, forgot what it was exactly. With that idea scraped her intials would have been the name as Harry's HJP(Harry James Potter)
HermioneHJP (Hermione Jane P...)

In the rough draft, after the Potters get killed in Godric's Hollow, Mr. Granger supposedly took a boat over to see what happened. Perfect if he was going to adopt Hermione, if she was there.

Hermione rarely visits her parents even on holidays. Most of the books, she spends with Harry and Ron and her excuse is that "her parents understand"

Very understanding parents if you ask me!!

Hermione is very overprotective from the beginning. How they end up meeting was on the train as she was trying to find Neville's toad, if Hermione knew that Potter was her brother, this might have been an excuse to meet.

Hermione supposedly only knew she was a witch for a few weeks, when you turn 11 you get sent an invitation to hogwarts. Now, Hermione was already 12 by that time. kinda strange dont you think? Plus she had lots of knowledge of wizardy as well as Harry Potter(she read a few books).

Minerva McGonagall also has the official book, when a child is born. their name is written if they are fit to be wizards. Hermione is kinda tight with McGonagall in a way like Harry is to Dumbledore. So, if Harry ever gets the chance to read it, since now its in Dumbledore's old office, it might list Hermione Jane Potter.

Hermione is not shy about hugging Harry, they are best friends and there is no sexual tension. Ginny confides in Hermione when she has a crush on Harry.

When facing the Boggarts in class, Hermione faces hers later and not in front of everyone. Would her image be Voldie? and happy feeling her parents??

Rita Skeeter questions Hermione about the relationship between her and Potter and she laughs it off and is not seen as embarassed.

Harry and Hermione seem to be on the same wavelength as one another and complete each other sentences, brother and sister kinda thang.

When Hagrid talks about his brother and that blood is important, Hermione doesnt seem to take it well. as though she could relate in some way.

If it comes to the fact that Harry becomes curious about the veil that Sirius went under, the only thing holding him back would be Hermione, if she is blood.

Hermione also might be Harry's saving grace and because she is blood, she might serve him as a kind of protection, like his mother was. After he turned 17, he was no longer seen as protected by the dursleys, but hermione might be able.

When they are at the ministry of magic. Harry was going to harm the death eater with the baby's head. Hermione then stopped Harry and said, YOU CANT HURT A BABY, HARRY!! Correct me if im wrong, didnt she then get hurt by that death eater? Parallel to Harry and his mom.

There is more, but thats what i can think of at the moment..
ENJOY!

My kits!

Sexy Salt!!

Cat-essentials
Sex: Male
Age: 3 months and 1 week
Sign: Gemini

Hobbies:
Loves Cotton Swabs, digging in plant pots, sleeping, purring on special occasions, food(any and all!), is an observer, silent type, works for CIA, hahaha, not really, just checking to see if you are still reading, and chasing own tail.


Pretty Pepper!!

Cat-essentials
Sex-Female, purrrr
Age: 3 months and 1 week
Sign: Gemini

Hobbies:
Loves hiding in dark spaces, sleeping above mom and dad's heads, purring ALOT. eating, chasing things, meowing, pissing off her brother, in the cat-mafia, loves getting picture taken(poser).

I love my kits!!

.

. marks the end of things
but what about the beginning?

A beginning just simply begins
It is marked by nothing but itself.

Where is the transition?
We see the end, but what about the beginning?

It represents nothing but itself.

Is it that god or whomever is the beginning so everything else is middle and end?

We are the colours that paint over a scene of black and white
we are the ones that create
wrongs and rights
we are given choice
and above it all
it is us that decides
what is big and what is small

Life, so complex in its simplicity
What IS the difference between you and me?

Recommended Movies...

by me.

Oh yea...movies that I recommend to watch before one dies

American Beauty
Garden State
Dancer in the Dark(starring Bjork)
Schlinder's List
Vanilla Sky
Crouching Tiger/Hidden Dragon
What Dreams May Come
Meet Joe Black
My Life(w/Keaton)
Forrest Gump
THe Ghost and Mrs. Muir(1947)

and other movies that are in-depth and concentrate on appreciating life cuz death is a definite.
I think about more later.

-Jen

Do you ever...

feel like today is the last day of the world??

I seem to do that alot.

It's not a bad thing, i mean you cant stop the end of the world if its to come, ya know?

I just have a omnious feeling about things, maybe it is more or less death of the day that we see, not the end of the world.

*shrugs*

I had a strange dream.....i guess as i usually do, nowadays.

I was looking out my back window of my house in the states and I was indoors with the family. The crappy bit about looking out the window was the fact that there was an army from 1020, waiting to attack at any time. The only people that were fighting this army was the four of us; Mom, Dad, Nicole, and Moi, at least from what I can recall from the dream.

I was fishing around in the silverwarew drawer, trying to find a weapon, otherwise I would have nothing to fight with. I had some major issues with his and only could find a very small knife to defend myself as well as my family. So, we started to see the approach of this army and thats when the scene changed.

I then found myself in the backyard and it was less busy but there were still loads of people chilling out. I then jumped up to grab the basketball hoop and started singing a song called Why in order to free Jassen. I kept on repeating over and over..I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! And was trying to free him from where ever is lay captive.

There was then this black woman that was hassling me and then i woke up.

I seriously have dream issues. I was thinking this morning that i wished that i just had a nice little dream, no hassles and positive, so that i can wake up refreshed and be like...ah, that was nice and smile about it...

but no.

I woke up at about 230 in the morning and have a very strong sense of paranoia. I swear to gosh that I dont do drugs, but it felt like that sense of paranoia. I was hearing noises around the house and it seems like someone was up. I then had an urge to use the bathroom and Pepper followed me, purring the whole way and i was thinking, shhhh.....BE QUIET so i can HEAR!! But her purrs just seem to get louder after that. I then came back to bed and tried curling up with Jassen cuz i was freaking out a bit, went online for a short time and then crawled back into bed and lulled myself into a sleep by stroking Jassen's chest hairs...haha...strange way to relax but it worked.

I think today, i would like to accomplish a few things.

1. Exercise and shower
2. Read CoS(Harry Potter)
3. Finish the Emma drawing
4. Email A Starbucks app. to my dad, so i might have a job when i come back from the UK
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S.T.R.A.N.G.E.

*Big Sighs*

So, i had a bit of an odd dream, but i think I know what it meant to me after it was over.

It took place back in the states at my home.

I was with not only my sister, but my mom and dad. The whole immediate family was there with me. For some reason, there was a lot of things going on outside of the house and I felt the rush and bussle of the day. I really couldnt see what was going on, I more or less thought that there was alot of activity, not only in the household but outside with the neigbours.

All of a sudden, I look out my parents old bedroom window towards the sky and I notice a funnel cloud. The top half of the configuration was bent and to the right and then it bent towards the left and straight the rest of the way down. So, in other words, it looked like a lightning bolt, but not cuz it was a tornado.

I felt it coming towards us and we were all trying to prepare. Instead of heading into the house to hide, we decided to go hide out in a car in the drive way. I was still on the inside of the house and was closing some doors. I run to the outside and I saw my mom and sis as well as dad in the car with sheets of clothes put on the outer part of the vehicle.

We all climbed in, I was in the passenger seat and my sister in the driver's seat, and then my parents were found in the back, my mom behind me and my dad behind Nicole. So, as the winds increased and doom was more in the cards, like getting the old maid, I said, "Ok.....if we die, let's all meet up back here, alright??" And then there was a group YES and the car started to swirl. I could feel the car moving and there was a sound along with it and maybe some background music. I tried to open my eyes, but it was a blur and the only thing i could see was me hugging my sister and she hugging me back and my parents crouched in the back as we swirled for about 45 seconds.

We then came down, i still had my eyes closed and I asked, "Are we dead?" And my sister responded by saying, "Well? Im not alive, so i was like,...."Oh, okay..MOM? DAD? And we all had ended up dying but didnt feel the effects of our death, so it was painless.

My dream then changed with me walking around Chicago and crossing the street a few times near this place that was some type of schooling. I saw a few people, but they didnt look like people i knew, but they felt like it might have been them, I then walked by the classroom and there were students in there waiting but no professor. I then walked by an office, and this is all from the perspective of being outside of a building, in which a sign was placed and said that the professor was at a bachelor party even though there was a test to be administered.

I walked into a section of the building in which the students had found themselves in order to take a test and i too was copying the test questions so that i could be quizzed. Then from the outside, even though it looked like night, i heard the professor say, so you thought that i really wasnt around?? And came in to administer the test and i think that was about the time that i woke up.

ALRIGHT!!

My analyzation of the first part of the dream is this. I havent seen my family in months, but upon my return we will all discover how much we have changed individually as well as remained the same. The dream was demonstrating the change that will have to be accepted.

The second part of my dream was a bit wack, so yeah...Ill leave that for another time.

:-p

Jassen and I ended up watching the Prophesy, which i hope he liked and it had Christopher Walken in it, who i think is FAB!!!
There is a second part so someday that will be watched as well.

Today, J and I are going to do a little spiritual cleansing with the house, since there is a build up of negative energy. THanks mom for sending that John Edward excerpt. Do you have any more?

We are going to wash and scrub down the walls and polish and vacuum and visualize the negative crap going out the door. One thing that i noticed is that ever since that i switched around the living room etc. , Jassen mom hasnt been around as well as getting the kits. Cats are known to absorb negative energies in the house so that humans dont have to take it. How sweet. I love my kits and they are growing sooo fast. *sighs*

So, thats my plan of attack.

The end.

:-p

Pee Wee Herman

I think im going to draw him and then edit this post and put him here.

*watch this space*

:-p

First attempt..

Baby Jessica

What ever happened to her?

:-p

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Offense Taken...

Okay.

I managed to subscribe to a Harry Potter Forum in order to discuss on why I believe that Harry and Hermione are actually siblings and some clues that help to back it up.

In one of the threads that I posted in I said, " I believe!!"

And this was a comment from one of the prefects or whatever:



Hiya, Starliteprism!

Could you please take a few minutes to read through the forum rules? You can find the link in my signature. One-liners are not allowed, as there's not much you can add to a discussion in one line. Please elaborate more in the future.

If you need anything, Mods and Prefects are here to help, so PM any of us.

Cheers

My response, "Sorry."

What the F! One liners can provide discussion. I feel a bit offended because of this. I have commented before in this thread and I think that this "Rule" is rather stupid.

*Sighs*

Vent! Vent! Vent!!

Do you ever get that weird twitch in your eye? Like a nerve in your eye is participating in a dance marathon?? *Rubs eye*

I've been getting that this morning, so its really no fun, as well as a thumping in my ear, which probably means that i have some water in it.

:-S

Just one of those days.

Today, I will complete those drawings that I've been working on; Sarah and Hermione. I will probably start on another in order to add to my some what of a "portfolio in progress".

One of Jassen's friends, who is a big name animation dude in North London commented on my work and said that I should get into the field. Now, he is not one to offer compliments out of his butt left and right, so that was nice of him to say.

I've always had this fear, even though I wanted to be an animator when i was younger,like 7-8 years old, that if i worked for a company, that they would be hard ass and I would sooner or later get sick of drawing, so i decided not to go in that route. Instead, later in life, I went to Uni, got a degree in Broadcast Meteorology with a minor in Ancient Classical Studies(Greek concentration and individualized), and havent done a craps worth with it.

:-S

I guess im a self proclaimed Yippity-doo-da!

Yippie-Young Individuals that upon graduating university, decisively make no rush or push into a particular career.

Yip. That's me, alright,...Ms. I will gooo to England to gain more of a periphel view and perspective of the world before i am force to succumb to the working life, since I really dont know what i would like to do with it.

*sighs*

off to draw...ta!

Cartooning it up

In order to give a demonstration on drawing, i decided to draw Goku from Dragonball for my bf's younger brother.

It's early in the morn!!

Had an interesting night, last night.

After Jassen came home from work, i was sorta expecting to watch a few episodes of the first season of family guy, but a friend of his, Raf, took a driving test, didnt pass, and needed some comfort....


So we went to a pub.:-p

*side note* me kits are eating my apple...:-S

Jassen and I then went to Wood Green to Wetherspoons, met up with Raf and his older brother Rup(Rup was tired from work so then he went home at about the same time) and then walked to Ally Pally(Alexandra Palace), which is where tons of gigs are. It probably took about 25 mins to walk there from Wood Green and then did the same on the way back. This walk was pretty much an uphill battle on the way there, so i was looking forward to sitting down and drinking my beverage

We went to the Phoenix Bar and thats where i got two Bailey's Glides, which is basically alcoholic chocolate, so ya cant go wrong there!!++

Below is an aerial photo of Ally Pally as well as what the inside of the Phoenix Bar looks like.






We bumped into one of Raf's friends Audrey( a french girl) and the main topic of the night was the likes of brainwashed extremists and amsterdam. There might be the off-chance that in 2 weeks, there will be a group of us to go out to Amsterdam. Most of the proposed group have already gone out to Amsterdam, but Im really excited about seeing how nice the people are there and i heard its beautiful as well as a good night life.

One of the weird things was that we happened to go on a night in which trailers for the MOBO awards were being filmed. MOBO is Music of Black Origin, i believe and the guy that directed Earth Girls are Easy and was in National Lampoon European vacation was there as well. I forgot what his name is so hopefully Jassen will read this blog entry soon and let me know.:-)

*Sighs*

I hope that everyone is having a good Tuesday and have a wonderful week as well.

Talk Lata.

;-)

Choice.

I was on the coldplay message board and one of the boardies were discussing choices.

So here was what i put.

What makes us human is our ability to make choice....


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what would life be without the capability of choice?

No sense of ego, first and foremost.

No qualms...

how f-n boring is that?

How do we learn?

How do we grow?

without choice...

its just not so.



You may learn that life is about maintaining a delicate balance with choice. Life does happen to those that dont want the responsibilty of choice and then bitch about it soon after and life happens to all the rest that understand that choice is the paddle in the rowboat of life you travel in.

*humms* "Dont like the direction you are going to"-Josh Rouse

Extremes are okay too, but you know what is said about too much of a good or bad thing!!

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Kathy---of course life is full of choice. but choise doesn't have to be so concrete. choice doesn't have to be about one thing versus another. i think choice is best when it is an unconscious decision, when it's not fucking analyzed to death. when it just happens. fuck it, i'm not making any sense, i'm making a fucking conscious choice to go to bed.


Moi- I disagree a weeeee bit!



I think conscious choices are nice as well.

Like if you are wanting to get either a video game or go to the movies and its your choice. IN the end, its still a positive choice is you dont have the expectation of getting both and being greedy in that sense, when sooner or later, you can do the other.

Example...I choose to respond to your thread. I didnt have to but i felt that my interjection in this conversation would give you some newer insight to things that you question. The other option was I could have just lurked and watched from the side lines. But i didnt...and here is my choice in action.

Hi.


_________________



StarlitePrism wrote:(Thats ME!!)


No sense of ego, first and foremost.



K-explain.


Moi-Do you really think that if choice wasnt an action that gets the ball rolling, that people would still have the same sense about them?

Think of the idea of the BORG, if you ever watched Star Trek. The creatures that all functioned under one "brain" in a sense.

Like i said, life does happen but we are the ultimate transitioners in life. It's like a little kid pointing at a hill and saying, HEY MOM!! I WANT TO GO THERE!! And the mom is like either OKAY! LET"S GO! And they travel to the top of the hill. OR...the mom could be like, NO! NOT TODAY! IT LOOKS LIKE RAIN SO WE SHOULD GO INDOORS!

And that was her choice. Sometimes choices dont all meet up and compromise....hence ego........and conflict, if both parties cant agree..like the little kid crying MOM!! WAHH!!! because the choice wasnt seen.

If we had no choices....the ego would either be severely repressed or it wouldnt exist and life would be much different, blander, and not really worth living.
_________________
K-but why is that necessarily a conscious choice? and i'm being completely honest here, i didn't actually CHOOSE to make this thread in the way you're defining choice. it just happened. outside of my own will, if that makes any kind of sense at all. obviously it's still a choice, but not in the traditional sense, at least not as i understand it. basically i'm saying people should just let life happen to them and not think about everything they say and do. overanalyze it, i suppose.


Moi--Ah...so the plot thickens

*takes finger and dips into batter for tasting*

So, you felt the inclination to make a thread about choice and it really wasnt your will.....it was some other source that pushed you to do so...

and by that, you label that as life happening to you.

I believe that you are still the transitioner that allows that to be made possible...Even if it was an outside source, maybe god, maybe life representing god, maybe angels, or demons, or guides(if you believe in that, which i do)

You are then seen as a median for other things....representing life...I still believe it to be at least a subconscious choice as to whether or not you will see it to the day of light.

But then you must also see that you are being a bit hypocritical on your stance of saying that you dont like the idea of people overanalyzing life, when in fact, in order for you to reach your opinion and choice of perception on the matter, you too had to overanalyze to make your point seen by those that do the overanalyzing. You had to go to the level in order to be understood.....talk the talk and walk the language.


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And this is all that there is at this point.
Any comments??

W.I.P.(Work in Progress No. 2)

Here is my Sarah Mclachlan pic in progress....:-)

The Weekend

Yea...its the weekend. Even though i change out of my pj's to face the day on the weekends, mentally I still feel like im in them.

So laaaaaazy....

Last night, Jassen and I went out to the movies to watch The Longest Yard with Adam Sandler. There were alot of WWF or WWE as they now call it people, well like 2-3, but that was alot! Im not a fan of wrestling, but the actors that come from it can be funny sometimes. :-p

Basically, the movie is about football with some humour in it. Chris Rock makes an appearance as well. On a rating scale, from 1 to 10, i would give the movie 6.5, mostly because it was predictable. I guess its hard to have something original in the movie industry cuz it will either be recieved poorly by the critics and viewers or it will become a cult classis or it will be come to unfathomably popular, kinda like harry potter or star wars or forrest gump. Oh, i want to watch that movie!!!

All of last week, Jassen and I rewatched the Harry Potter series, and i was trying to scout clues that might give more evidence of Hermione being Harry's long lost sis. Ive gone on Potter message boards, but TONS of people are against it cuz its "too Star Wars"...No, i dont believe that Voldemort is Harry's father, but I think James Potter probably got up to no good and had to pay for it with the life of his wife and his own.

Later on in the night, J and I watched Hellboy but i fell asleep 3/4th thru the movie, so ill have to see the rest some other time.

Oh, also re-watched run lola run. The first time i saw it was with my friend Val. It's a rather short movie of about 83 mins, but cool for what it is.:-)

I am in the process of completing the hermione drawing and i need to complete a Sarah McLachlan drawing as well, so fun stuff!!

Talk soon!

Heaven is for the ignorant...

overly optimistic(as my bf added in)
and for those that like to use this excuse not to do anything with their lives that just sit on their bums all day...waiting for their entry into the kingdom of god.


Life.....is here.

Oh and here is a work in progress...

Scary stories of the spine-chilling kind..

Oh....where to begin.

I was impressed with Liza's blog entry today, which only encouraged me to share my own experiences of the supernatural variety.

I dont recall writing this story on my blog yet and if i have, my apologies in advance!

It was sometime in the fall.

I was into ghost hunting about 3-4 years back and this was at the height of it all. I even was involved in ghosthunting group that consisted mainly of a friend and work mate Matt, who had a crush on me, and i felt like 'hey why not,ill pursue it?' but it was doomed doomed DOOMED from the start. It wasnt merely because he had the knack of overexaggerating the truth of things and wasnt really that good looking. :-p He just wasnt my type, but we had fun ghosthunting.

Anywho, there was this one time when it was just my sister, our friend Julie at the time, and this other girl Tiffany that was trying to force Nicole to smoke pot. I really dont know the entire story on that, so i wont delve into it much more. So,....we were in a graveyard that was either based in Merrillville or Scherrilville. I am guessing that is was the one in the latter city, but i might be wrong.

One night, we were wandering around the stones and I had a funky feeling like there was indeed something around. I felt the presence of a lady and a man. My sister told me later that she felt the presence of a little boy(but not until i witness something interesting for myself). We had sage in the car cuz its a good device in warding off unwanted spirits. We even put some in front of the doorway outside of our house, for protection. So, on the way home, things were cool. The four of us just chatting away about the night and so on. Nicole and I get home and sooner or later head to bed. I had my own room at this time, actually thinking about it, i have had my room about 6 years at that point. I was laying down to go to sleep, when something suddenly caught my eye.

As i peered over to my closet, which was opened, due to the doors not working properly, i noticed something very odd.
On top of my hamper, i kid you not, i could see something sitting on it sideways. I blinked my eyes and then realized that it was a transparent little boy(5-6 years old, clothes from earlier this century or late 1800s). That wasnt just it. As i looked at him, he was facing sideways and then slooooowly but surely turned his head in my direction to look blankly into my eyes. This was about 8 feet away from my bed, so rather close. At the same time of him turning his head towards me, he was kicking his feet up and down on the hamper as he sat on it. I closed my eyes SUPER tight at this point and thought to myself that maybe I was just seeing things.

Nope. That wasnt the case here. It was as though the tape had rewind and the same thing happened again, just to prove its basis in its existance in my head. I closed my eyes and either fell asleep or scurried off into my sister's room. She later then told me that she had a similar thing happen with her, but in this case, we believe it to have been the child's mother. She was in my sisters room at the same time that the little boy was in mind and she then said outloud for the spirit to please go to the light and not bother us in our home. It then disappeared.

Ill have to ask my sister the story again just to get the facts right, but it was just as mindboggling as mine. The funny thing is that i didnt tell my sister or anyone about what i felt in the graveyard exactly, so it was a bit bizarre that this all happened, which proves it to be true from 2 different angles, both my story and my sis's.

All i can say is if you want spirits to follow you home or not, they will.

My babies

Drawings

Here is an attempt at drawing Emma Watson from Potter movies.

:-p

Jenote(Jen/quote) No. 1

One day, if man ever learns to conquer/destroy the idea of space, time is all theirs.

I want a frosty!!!

Mmm....Wendy's....with dipping french fries!!!

Okay...messed up dream time!!

IN my dream, it was the end of the world.

I was on the ground, working on something like a mess of metal wires or mechanical.
I am at Jassen's feet and I see Reuben come up from the left. He stares off into the right and I guess that tons and tons of people are on the run.

I look up at Jassen and he sloooowly pulls me upward so that we could step on the hot foot.
All of a sudden, I am in room in which I am gathering up some belongings. Jassen then says that I really shouldnt pack too much, cuz since it was the end of the world, that there wouldnt be a point, but he didnt say that, i more or less felt that.

I then think or say, well....id rather take the off-chance that things will work out or ill survive. I am looking under a bed and i see a horde of my childhood toys and i grab berry, my lil bear that has been around longing than me that was given to me by a family friend name Bruce(cool dude/is borrowing my season 1 dead like me).

Oh...cant wait to get season 2(the last season cuz ratings sucked but dvd sales skyrocketed...strange)....but yea..

I grab my teddy bear, a few other essentials, as well as cat snacks, and the kittens and POOF im in a car.

I am sitting on the right side in the back seat. Jassen is suppose to be to my left and i think both of my parents are so how in the front seat as well as my sister. She actually has a pet as well, and its a little black and white dog, still a puppy.

FOr some reason, it is sitting in the front seat by itself, just chillin'. We are going towards my high school and then for some reason, were then going the other way, without my sister. All of a sudden, her dog turns into a bird, that then have the privelage of see dancing in a mardi gras parade. It was very much like a cartoon. I was then afraid that the bird would attack the kits, so i was not cool with that.

I then am teleported back to my house in the states and low and behold, my dad has a secret room behind the cabinets in the back hallway. It was just a small little room, but enough to set in. I felt like i was at a reception hall and my parents owned it. There was a guy that was my dad was talking with. He was trying to get a bargain, cuz he had dealt with this dude 2 other times that day. Apparently the guy didnt want to make a sale or just wanted to piss my dad off. My dad then threw his credits cards and paper at the guy, it missed and fell to the ground behind the man. It was like he was dealing with someone near a clothes rack all the while a mardi gras parade was going on. There was a lady who had a revealing dress that had the j-lo strip all the way to the ground, if you get my drift. It was a blue and silver outfit.:-S

There were then issues with my folks as i looked at a picture that had rings around it that continued into infinity. I believe my dad was trying to get more of those rings, cuz it had something to do with immortality.

I then recall being in a car, in which my mom was driving. She was driving, BRITISH STYLE, on the right hand side of the car, but on the right side. We turned right onto a hill and struggled to get up it.

Now, here is a really really graphic part of the dream. I forewarn you and put up the disclaimer that this is graphic and the fact that I am not a lesbian. Thank you.

I was sitting on the ground when all of a sudden, my cats disappeared and were replaced by half cats/half human. Then one creature spreads eagle and i went towards the private parts and rubbed, but it was a flat surface. All of a sudden, the looked at the privates area and it looked like a square shaped cup that was filling up with fluids. It was a yellow-ish/red-ish mixture that was filling and it was grossing me out. I then said, "This is grossing me out" and i heard my parents laugh near by. I then wanted to wake up, so i did.

I told Jassen this part and asked what he thought it meant, and he thought that it had something to do with pleasing the kits but not getting the right response that i would want from them.:-S

I wonder why i have alot of dreams about the end of the world. I guess there is imminent change in the air and there is no way around it, so i am trying to register that idea. My life is going to change again towards the end of next month and i dont know how to ready myself or prepare for it.

Kinda like Hermione, i like to read up and be prepared to give the right answers to things, but if you do that all the time, you miss the life in front of you.

I am doing that, because i am fearing what is to come and it ruins the time that i have left here, this time around. I get upset faster, more emotional, and dwell most of the day being negative or some form of it. I dont like that.

Life...the ever changing rollercoaster.

Here is a philosophy i see about life..

Shakespeare and other people have once said that life is a stage and people are the players, well people play roles, but dont necessary know their lines.

Oh, and i am jumping on the idea that Harry and Hermione are brother and sister and that will be the heart of Book 7 when it is released. Oh please please please....:-)

Sinus is taking over...

MY MIND!!!

Argh. I feel like a big stinky poo.

Being sickly like this, gives me strange ass dreams.

I was talking with my boo online and he is having sinus issues, is super tired, and had to deal with breaking the door handle to his dads room to unlock him. Bad Carpenter-ship going on, so it was what woke us up at 2 in the morning.

I was out in la-la land when all of a sudden, I heard the door being shaken. It wasnt our bedroom door, but another one. I semi-punched/startled Jassen awake and he and his lil bro worked on a door for a half hour, trying to get it open.

I think it kept the kits awake as well, since they were soooo tired in the morning.

I feel a bit like death.

Ive been thinking alot about breathing lately. I feel as though I am not breathing in deeply enough or that suddenly i might die from not being able to breathe.

Maybe in a past life, i drowned so maybe at the same time in my life, that is what happened and im having tragic flashbacks...


Hey...ya never know.

:-p

Jassen is going to be getting me a nice sketch book, so i can start drawing again.

Honestly, im not half bad, so all in due time, ill share.

What Ive Accomplished...

Thus far...

I've had an interesting morning.

Had a messed up sort of dream.

I was in a swimming pool that involved there being dead people,but they seemed very much alive.
It was a bit of a transition point, i believe. There were 3 levels of the swimming pool, one on top of another. When a person was at the bottom of the pool, they had to go through all three in order to get to the top. I mean, it was like one body of water but somehow i thought of it being divided in 3. You would get from the bottom level to the middle, expecting that you could breathe, but you wouldnt be allowed.

There were alot of older people at this joint.

One of the things that Ive been thinking alot about lately is a weird but noticable separation of self.

Think about this.

When you think about yourself, can you feel that through it all, there is a sense that everything will be okay, even in the grimest of times?? Like you can never truly be sad.

From experience, I ve gotten to the point of depression in which ive felt sooo sad, but never could be so extreme for a long amount of time. It was as though there was not a force not letting me so.

Deep down, i knew that inside of me was myself letting me not get that low.

Maybe some people see it as god stepping in, a helping hand,when you feel at your lowest point.

That might just be, but i believe that its your soul thats swirled in that mix-up.

I can honestly say that i can separate my brain from my mind(soul). They are two different things, but can they operate with out one another??

Okay...think about this. You are in a world of pain, you skinned yur knee after falling off a bicycle. Your mind is working when all of a sudden, you feel kinda lightheaded and out of body. You realize that you can see yourself about the pain and that its a mere passing phase like many things in life. Maybe endorphins shouldnt be included in this example.

If you are sitting down on the computer just typing, do you ever feel like you think faster than what your brain does? Like maybe your brain is trying to find a connection in making a point that can be realistically acted upon?

Ah well....ill explain the pt more later.

I finished reading Half-Blood Prince.

AHHHHH!!!!!!!

I want the 7th book to come out!!
Soooo sad.

I wont say much more about it, but if you havent read it or other Potter books...

DO!!

It's good.

:-)

I guess..

Ive sorta been on a blog-downer.

Ive been more out and about, sorta.

I am a few hundred pages away from the end of Half-Blood Prince, and its getting really good and im being sucked into the W.O.W.(World of Wizards)...*sighs* good stuff.

Went to the movies to see the 40 year-old virgin.

Loved the ending.:-)

I havent really been recording music, due to my program giving me big hassles, but i will approach the subject and try to get a few songs done when I can and feel up to it.

If im not inspired, i dont work...that's my mentality.

Maybe ill do some hypnosis cd listening tomorrow, sometime when i wake to greet the day.

I think I'll make a little to-do list right now for tomorrow.

1. Wake Up
2. Eat breakfast
3. Fed kits
4. Hypnosis cd
5. Write
6. Exercise
7. Figure out what book I would like to read next.
8. Clean up bedroom
9. Shower sometime
10.Work on music
11.Take Kits to Vet for vaccination shots(for rabies, i believe)
12.Maybe watch Hellboy, if not today, then tomorrow

Yay!! I love lists!!

So...

I went out into London today

What i accomplished:

~Purchased airticket

~Ate BK

~Bused and Tubed around

Then after, came back home and sooner or later watched House of Flying Daggers.

It really wasnt as good as I was hoping, so i need to work on not having high expectations for shite.
Oh yeah, on Thursday, Jassen and I watched The Notebook.

So sad.

*sighs*

There is no hidden beauty underneath

when people search above and beyond what is in front of them.

God or whomever didnt make life with a rabbit coming out of a hat.

For example, People that listen to certain types of music because it makes them seem deeper.

I had a few friends like that.

Thought they were above it all.

And for a time, i saw from that height as well.

But then i realized, as someone pushed me off that pedestal,
the adage that says the bigger someone is, the harder they fall.

All i would like to say to them now is,

there is no hidden beauty underneath.

having something and making a secret club out of it,

it just isnt the way to be.

things are meant to be cherish and enjoyed
cuz that's all we got...people can see it differently and in different degrees of love...

in the now.

not tomorrow, can we honestly enjoy a day too far away.

Strange Days

So many of them make up my life, so i really declare it the norm.

This morning, I woke up at about 430 and decided to start writing a book.
About what, you ask?

Well, a little bit of this and a dash of that.
Time will tell.

I went into the kitchen this morning to fix my self a little toast and tea, as well as finish off the last donut of the Krispy Kreme box, and yes folks it was with the coupon that i got from the complaint letter...or so i thought.

I thought i noticed something walking out of Krispy Kremes the other day. To me, it looked as though there was another coupon in the bag of donuts. I thought to myself, "Jen! It's just the side of the box"

Man, i was mistaken!

This morning, like i said, i was finishing off the last donut, took the box out of the bag, and underneath it, was the coupon.
The cashier didnt put it in her register and on top of that, i look at the receipt and nada boom bada, it isnt there either, so folks, Jassen and I are entitled to another dozen donuts...

mmm....sweetness.....but do i smell a conspiracy??
well, maybe just a little.

:-p

Happy Sep..

TEMBER!!!*echo echo echo*

I really can't believe that we are almost 3/4th through the year(tech. 8 complete months, so 2/3). Ammmmmazzzzing to think and scary.

Seriously, the older I get, the faster time goes. I can imagine being in my 50s, with grandkids. AHHH!!!

*old fart*

I actually watched a bit of news on the tele and I swear, the media portrays the world is coming to an end. So much crap going on all over the world.

While in the bathroom, since its a wonderful thinking place to be, until the fumes start getting to you, I thought about the idea of water and where it's been.

For instance, since the flood waters are taking over new orleans, people die, people are in water, some water plant takes that water, filters it(im sure there is still shit in it), some evaps into atmosphere, some gets made into lemonade, goes through people's system, goes into sewers, filtered...vicious cycle. And this water gets all over the world, so i wonder how soon I will be drinking new orleans water, being as that it is in the gulf of mexico/atlantic and there is the gulf stream from the gulf, over the atlantic that England should be happy to have(keeps england warmer than it would be without)...*inhales deeply*

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