Do you ever...

feel like today is the last day of the world??

I seem to do that alot.

It's not a bad thing, i mean you cant stop the end of the world if its to come, ya know?

I just have a omnious feeling about things, maybe it is more or less death of the day that we see, not the end of the world.

*shrugs*

I had a strange dream.....i guess as i usually do, nowadays.

I was looking out my back window of my house in the states and I was indoors with the family. The crappy bit about looking out the window was the fact that there was an army from 1020, waiting to attack at any time. The only people that were fighting this army was the four of us; Mom, Dad, Nicole, and Moi, at least from what I can recall from the dream.

I was fishing around in the silverwarew drawer, trying to find a weapon, otherwise I would have nothing to fight with. I had some major issues with his and only could find a very small knife to defend myself as well as my family. So, we started to see the approach of this army and thats when the scene changed.

I then found myself in the backyard and it was less busy but there were still loads of people chilling out. I then jumped up to grab the basketball hoop and started singing a song called Why in order to free Jassen. I kept on repeating over and over..I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!! And was trying to free him from where ever is lay captive.

There was then this black woman that was hassling me and then i woke up.

I seriously have dream issues. I was thinking this morning that i wished that i just had a nice little dream, no hassles and positive, so that i can wake up refreshed and be like...ah, that was nice and smile about it...

but no.

I woke up at about 230 in the morning and have a very strong sense of paranoia. I swear to gosh that I dont do drugs, but it felt like that sense of paranoia. I was hearing noises around the house and it seems like someone was up. I then had an urge to use the bathroom and Pepper followed me, purring the whole way and i was thinking, shhhh.....BE QUIET so i can HEAR!! But her purrs just seem to get louder after that. I then came back to bed and tried curling up with Jassen cuz i was freaking out a bit, went online for a short time and then crawled back into bed and lulled myself into a sleep by stroking Jassen's chest hairs...haha...strange way to relax but it worked.

I think today, i would like to accomplish a few things.

1. Exercise and shower
2. Read CoS(Harry Potter)
3. Finish the Emma drawing
4. Email A Starbucks app. to my dad, so i might have a job when i come back from the UK
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