Time...

its playing its tricks on me.

Im nearing a scene of my own crime...
an emotional wreck!!!

How does one say goodbye to their pets?
Ones that they wont see for 7-8 months??
Granted they will be with Jassen and that is a comforting thought,but still.

And yes, im one of those crazy owners that calls themselves their pet's mom!
They are my babies, my kits. I pretty much spend the majority of my waking and sleeping time with them, so yea...and they are uber smart! Im not being so biased really....but Jassen and I talk to our kits and they know how to open doors, with their paws, they know their names, for the most part they will come, if you call them or rattle some food around...and I run around with them in the house. It's one of their favourite games!! Pepper has her toy "doug the kit", and when she wants to play(which is more often than not), she will drag him down from upstairs and lay him before our feetsies....Salt does the same with little toys and mousies as well!

I love them. You look at their faces and they seem humanoid...and i think they understand us more than we realize, our habits, and body language...its a wonderful relationship!

I'll miss them to pieces.

And Jassen, it's so hard....and difficult to be apart. We are strong, but it still hurts. At the moment, I am numb with denial that Im leaving tomorrow. The weekend just zoomed on by! I was telling Jassen earlier that I feel like im on drugs or something and my emotions are dancing on a very fine line....I can fall at anytime into my own pool of tears and sorrow.

Speaking of this weekend,...we went out to Wood Green twice, did some last minute shopping for bits and pieces for me to take back to the states, had some burger king, went home, watched some Trek of Stars(Star Trek:TNG), and eventually went to sleep. Woke up sunday morning...moved around in slow motion, got out of the house around 12ish/1ish, headed to Wood Green, ate at Nando's, had some mild chicken with chips and wild herb sauce and garlic, walked around, got a few more bits and bobs, stopped into the movie theatre, just to get a large popcorn, ice blast(cherry), and pepsi, came home, watched Rat Race, and I did some more packing before we headed to sleep.

Both Jassen and I woke up around 3ish, but I went out like a light about 20 mins or so after that, and then woke up around 7ish, as Jassen was readying himself for work. I felt that he didnt want to leave, but must, plus,...you know when you lie next to your loved one, and then your body temperature is just about perfect and you just want to lay there for as long as it keeps? Yea...one of those days.

Its rainy out, which made me smile. I love the rain, but I heard that it is going to get to about 24-26C today, but still it isnt as bad as 32-34!!

Did my Pilates today, and will keep up with that program, since it is shaping up my legs and arms nicely!! Ive been doing pilates for something like 5-6 weeks and its paying off. Once I get back to the states, I will be walking everyday or biking as well as using the elliptical machine in my sister's old room.

Alrightee...maybe more updates later.
Take Care, peeps!
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