It seems...

as though these past few weeks have been mind-numbingly difficult.

I sleep, but its unfulfilling...
I dream, and yet i sense that satisfaction has taken a holiday on my dime, no where to be found.

At work, it is a form of escape from the mundane droggery(i made this word up, dreary and groggy, pronounced like frog) feelings currently pouring out of my veins. It's as though I am waiting for my purpose to show itself....to make itself known.

Dreams Id hope come true career-wise, now are just pipe dreams....
Life takes you down many twisted pathways as well as short and long-cuts.

I don't regret where I find myself, cuz honestly, I have found a few things along the way that make this ride called life worthwhile. I mean, I have Jassen in my life....and what ever happens in the future, and maybe in "death", I pray with every part of me, that love is forever and this will always be the case.

I have two BEAUTIFUL cats that I love like they were my children(since I dont have any at the moment) and I look forward to their company, many years to come!

My spirituality,....I am wanting to nurture once more....It's been some time....but I see the signs, the need for it to grow.....the more faith that I need in myself....I want to be more grounded, centered, and stable. I do crave some form of that, but also, like a kite, I want to sway in the breeze.

Life is good....and it's going to get better....ALOT better...soon.