nothing.
I think I am one of those peeps...
and I don't like it.
Case and point:
Today is pancake day, here in the UK. Just as a reminder, it is Fat Tuesday in which everyone gourges themselves on food and then repent for their sins by giving up things like chocolate or meat for 47ish days until Easter. Kinda silly, but it's not a religion I subscribe to. And for those that practice it,...more power to ya.
Anywho, I was going to buy into the whole "let's make pancakes" deal since there is more than a boxful left from the bisquick I used to make chicken and dumplings for the Payen clan. I was going to wake up at 6(figuring that the latest would be 630 when Jassen got up). So, I'm somewhat coming out of sleep, I hear Jassen in the shower figuring that he got up a little early and then was going to wake me up. He walks in, shakes me a little, and I ask, 'What time is it?'. "7 o'clock." He replies.
I was disappointed, shocked, and annoyed that he had forgotten that I was wanting to make pancakes this morning, even though that was the very last thing we talked about last night.:-/ I turned over and covered my head with the pillow. Although there was still about 25-30 minutes left before he had to shoot off to work, I felt that the whole thing had been ruined. I had even woken up 4 in the morning, hoping that it was 6 am.
I guess the solution to this is to set my own alarm clock.
But my point is this.....I feel that I am an all or nothing kinda person, I don't care for it, and I wish that I was more open arms for the idea of things lying in the grey. I feel lately that I've been an angry Jen. Maybe it's due to the fact that I don't have much to do, I am not working...I am being productive in some ways, but not in the ways that I feel satified, like really and truly feeling satisfaction in my work. I do things, get them done, but I don't feel any connection to it.
I did end up managing to get a buttload done(wedding-wise) on the US side...and now, this is the time to get invites and things needed to the reception on this side.
*sighs*
I want to see the grey...
that starts now.
4 comments:
You probably just miss your MOM!
hahaha!
yup....you hit it on the head!
;-)p
You could have made 'em for dinner! Pancakes are just as good for dinner as breakfast, least in my opinion.
And Lent lasts for exactly 40 days. ;-)
As one who lives mostly in the "gray," there are times when I envy "all or nothing" folks. Coming from my "gray" side, may I say that eating pancakes need not be limited to breakfast. I've gourged on them at all times of the day. I matter of fact, here at almost 6:00 p.m., I am developing a pancake urge!
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