my time is consumed with working, traveling to work(which takes a nice 2+ hours out of my day, and cleaning up around the house(jobs such as general clean up, dishes, laundry, etc.), you think I would be able to enjoy time before a shift, or even a day off.
Of course, I do enjoy when I get 1 or 2 days in a row off just to chill and have less of a mindset on work, but when the end of the day rears it's face just to let me know of it's end, it's kinda depressing.
Maybe I will never come to totally understand time. Most occasions, it just seems foreign to me, the concept, the linear-ness of it all, how it just rolls...Sometimes you feel like there is no way out of it;trapped in the clutches of time. Other times, you don't know why time goes by so slow.
Is it just a matter of perspective? What life throws at you for a time? Or that maybe it effects us all in a similar way, all at once?
That's the strange thing with perspective. Is anyone ever truly looking at something or someone from the same angle, or if there are infinite amounts of one angle. Oy.:-/
Anywho, I am about 3 hours away from heading to work, but all I feel is uptight and anxious for the time just to appear, just so I can get the show on the road. I don't know why I put myself in such a perspective or feeling of unease. I enjoy work, so maybe it's just one of those things where I feel the need to be productive and put my mind into it, preparation and all!
Sometimes I feel like Im talking out of my arse. Hmmm.
I use to have some hobbies, or better yet, things I would obsess over. I use to listen to music allll day long, or obsess over the Beatles (for about 4 years straight and that waned somewhat over that time). I would draw when I felt like it, wrote or created songs, not obsessively but when it hit me in a way that I just HAD to.
Now, with working full time, the commute, having a house to keep in order, I really wonder how people do it, especially when kids get into the bigger picture. Don't get me wrong, I look very forward to my spawn reeking havoc---err, children existing to enjoy the fruits and vegetables of life, but it seems like ALOT of work(which Im sure I will understand, once I'm IN it).
So, looking from another perspective, which I have been in, when I wasn't working, and working on my hobbies, such as drawing and music, really it seemed like more of a chore or being at school, as I was teaching myself how to use programs to be creative, but it made me realize a bit....why hobbies are hobbies, not full time jobs.
So now, I really dont know what I would like to do with my life, career-wise. I mean, some people, like my dad, are born to be musicians, or electricians, or teachers, etc. but I don't know I have that certain spark to do just one thing for my whole life. I know it might sound non-committal of me, but I guess Im just the type of person that likes to try out different things, take that piece of the pie, then try something else. I guess I would just label myself as a career-flirt, or flirting with the idea of different jobs. *sighs*
But yes, I look in awe at people that can be happy in a job for 20-40 years of their lives. Maybe I will reach a similar plateau at some point. It would be nice, but I also like the idea of not being tied into something forever and that I am there on choice, and my own choice on top of that.
Okies...Im rambling.;-)
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
After watching a movie...
last night with Jassen, he was browsing his usual internet haunts when the news of Heath Ledger's passing moved to the foreground.
'What?' I declared.
What a shock. I mean, it would seem like people such as Ms. Spears would be the next to go, with the path of destruction she seemingly is choosing to go down in. Don't get me wrong, I like Britney, but even if its a media stunt, it's truly scary to watch, since she is in the London papers everyday.
Now, back to Heath. I was shocked, since I have watched movies, such as 10 things I Hate About You(Taming of the Shrew updated), A Knight's Tale, and others(although, I havent seen Brokeback). Solid actor and I rather enjoyed watching his acting. It's a shame.:-( There are reports that his death was accidental and that he wasnt the kind of person that would take his own life, but also it was said that he had pnemonia, which can take your life when you least expect it. I had a family friend some years back that got it and suddenly died.:-(
My thoughts are with him(where ever he may be) and his family. It's not fun losing someone you love, but the good memories of good times do remain.
'What?' I declared.
What a shock. I mean, it would seem like people such as Ms. Spears would be the next to go, with the path of destruction she seemingly is choosing to go down in. Don't get me wrong, I like Britney, but even if its a media stunt, it's truly scary to watch, since she is in the London papers everyday.
Now, back to Heath. I was shocked, since I have watched movies, such as 10 things I Hate About You(Taming of the Shrew updated), A Knight's Tale, and others(although, I havent seen Brokeback). Solid actor and I rather enjoyed watching his acting. It's a shame.:-( There are reports that his death was accidental and that he wasnt the kind of person that would take his own life, but also it was said that he had pnemonia, which can take your life when you least expect it. I had a family friend some years back that got it and suddenly died.:-(
My thoughts are with him(where ever he may be) and his family. It's not fun losing someone you love, but the good memories of good times do remain.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
So,...
I have been and gone to the states already.
It was a really nice time, spending it with family and a few friends, but a week in reality is too short!
As soon as I got home, it is a bit of a tradition that I clean up the house. It's just how I operate, plus I like straightening up things.
Maybe it's a bit feng shui of me, since I do appreciate a clean environment(my standards,which can be rather high!)
The first day back, we ended up going to KFC to pick up food. We were going to go to Santiagos, a mexican restaurant, which is in the Porter/Chesterton/Burns Harbor area, but we ended up doing that the next day. We went to Rosewood for Breakfast and then again, the last day we were there, with my mom.:-)
We did a bit of shopping and I managed to get 9 articles of clothing for under 80 bucks!! It was a steal of a deal, since the clothes were 75% off.:-) The cool part about the whole trip was the fact that not only did we get some christmas money from Jassen's family, but my family and some friends as well, so we really didnt have to spend much, if any of our money. That fact was nice.
Now, we have our kitties back from the cattery, so things are starting to get back to some normalcy. Of course, there is the fact of jet lag, but Id say it's not as bad as in past years. I go back to work tomorrow, so I look forward to seeing some familar faces.:-)
It was a really nice time, spending it with family and a few friends, but a week in reality is too short!
As soon as I got home, it is a bit of a tradition that I clean up the house. It's just how I operate, plus I like straightening up things.
Maybe it's a bit feng shui of me, since I do appreciate a clean environment(my standards,which can be rather high!)
The first day back, we ended up going to KFC to pick up food. We were going to go to Santiagos, a mexican restaurant, which is in the Porter/Chesterton/Burns Harbor area, but we ended up doing that the next day. We went to Rosewood for Breakfast and then again, the last day we were there, with my mom.:-)
We did a bit of shopping and I managed to get 9 articles of clothing for under 80 bucks!! It was a steal of a deal, since the clothes were 75% off.:-) The cool part about the whole trip was the fact that not only did we get some christmas money from Jassen's family, but my family and some friends as well, so we really didnt have to spend much, if any of our money. That fact was nice.
Now, we have our kitties back from the cattery, so things are starting to get back to some normalcy. Of course, there is the fact of jet lag, but Id say it's not as bad as in past years. I go back to work tomorrow, so I look forward to seeing some familar faces.:-)
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Got a few...
books from Waterstones.
One is called Cat Getting Out of a Bag by Jeffrey Brown, who is based out of Chicago, ironically enough, since I found this in Central London.
Here are a few pages from it, but sincerely it makes me smile, since my kits do things like this.:-)
Sorry it's abit small...:-p
Another book that I purchased was Tigger on the CouchThe neuroses, psychoses, disorders, and maladies of our favourite childhood characters, by Laura James
It goes over the issues that characters like Willy Wonka, Cinderella, and yes, even Tigger have, among others. Quite funny!
Getting ready and packed for the states. Crazy that I will be heading to the states in less than 22 hours!!!
:-)
One is called Cat Getting Out of a Bag by Jeffrey Brown, who is based out of Chicago, ironically enough, since I found this in Central London.
Here are a few pages from it, but sincerely it makes me smile, since my kits do things like this.:-)
Sorry it's abit small...:-p
Another book that I purchased was Tigger on the CouchThe neuroses, psychoses, disorders, and maladies of our favourite childhood characters, by Laura James
It goes over the issues that characters like Willy Wonka, Cinderella, and yes, even Tigger have, among others. Quite funny!
Getting ready and packed for the states. Crazy that I will be heading to the states in less than 22 hours!!!
:-)
Friday, January 04, 2008
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