me and progress, is my self.
I've come to a point in which I find that I am battling with myself....my lack of confidence in my skills and my ability to complete things. It has been 2 months since I left my job at the bookshop, and part of me kinda wishes I still had that job for money security purposes. Although, I wasn't mentally happy there, hence wanting a different kind of job.
I've signed up at an agency, have been with that agency for now a month and still they have yet to give me any sort of work. Tomorrow, I intend on doing a "sit-in" service, which isn't one that someone calls in and you automatically run to the job, but that if someone calls up for workers, and you fit the criteria they ask for, then it sets you up with working the following day, week, etc. *sighs*
Part of me just wants to give up, become a hermit, but I know that would eat me up on the inside. I look forward to the weekend. I kinda see it as a little oasis that doesn't last for too long, but it's enough for a breather and for me to forget the fact that I am jobless. I think by the end of this month, if I am not set up with a job, I will look for minor little whatever jobs just to get some money flowing a bit.
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I have a thing about HAVING to work. I don't think I could leave a job without having something full time and permenent set up if I could help it.
Well, I wasn't really expecting 2million people to be out of work, looking for work when I did leave. I just wasn't happy there, but yea....shite happens.
Mmmm, been there, seen that. And maybe I'll be there once again in the very near future :-). I tell myself that I'll be ready, I'll get the hell outta here, find my calling, become totally independent...and ground realities beg to differ.
The reborn optimist I've become off late, I'll wish the same optimism to you too. Stay cool. Things are gonna get better!
Thanks Vishwa!
I am seriously beginning to lose a bit of motivation, momentum, etc. but I think I am more optimistic than I give myself credit for. I think also exercising everyday helps to maintain my internal optimism.
Thank you for the well wishes. It's nice to hear.:-)
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