I was searching myspace under my name and found these.
I did a review and it was e-published!
http://travel.yahoo.com/p-reviews-3154184-prod-travelguide-action-read-ratings_and_reviews-i;_ylt=Aqb84F4D2HrEDXiIKuiOjCJoFmoL#122
It was a simple mistake. My boyfriend and I were a bit lost in trying to find Randolph Street Station walking back from Navy Pier. But this miscalculation in direction proved to be a cool twist of fate called Millenium Park!
As we quickly marched towards what seemed to be our destination, we were puzzled and awe-struck by what seemed to be a diamond in the rough.
Not only was Millenium Park a perfect blend for the city of Chicago, the atmosphere there had the innate ability to set ones troubles aside and make you appreciate the finer qualities in life.
The park is symbolistic of its city's nature. It is there to be discovered, if one chooses to seek it as well as encapsulating the very idea that even in a city where life is seen faster paced, that life really is about enjoying the small and most wonderful things that seem to stumble into your life when you least expect it.
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Barnes and Noblers Montage!
This is the other Jen that I work with. Yay! Jennifer names are awesome, btw. She isnt quite the picture taking kind of person(so she says), but I do have to say this one turned out alright!
This is Jeannette. Ive known Jeannette for a bit and swore that she used to live near me, but I might be wrong. We both are from Portage, so yea...Jeannette is sweet and sarcastic and funny and this is a totally hot piccie of her!
This is Barb and Linda. Barb is the one that runs the whole show. Yup, da store manager. Barb is awesome, and no, I didn't just say that for "suck-up" points, it's true. Linda is not too shabby herself. I love her personality.:-)
This is Kelly. Kelly is 17 years old and is a part of the Jen is awesome fan club. Just kidding. If there was such a thing, Im sure she would be the first to sign up, cuz im awesome like that. haha..really, enough about me. Kelly is a cool chickadee that is TOTALLY going to miss me being around, cuz she told me so. I love you too, Kelly *e-hugs*
This is Lori and she works in the cafe at B&N. Lori heard or read somewhere that it is impossible to look sexy while sipping from a straw, hence the photograph. Lori is very comical and fun to be around!
This is Joe. Joe is new to Barnes and Noble in the cafe. As you can see, he is pretending to be "the thinker" or deep in thought...Do you think he pulled it off??
:-p
This is Ed. I believe, and somebody correct me if I am wrong, Ed is a retired professor.[Time goes on, corrected by Mike, cue dry ice effect, cut to present scene] Ed is actually a retired high school geometry teacher that Mike also attended as a high schooler! Ed is a pretty cool dude that enjoys working at Barnes and Noble.:-)
This is Patrice. Everyone say helllllo!! I havent really worked with Patrice much, but tonight, so it was nice getting to know her a little better.
Talk about the Ultimate Pam Sandwich*Pamwich*!! From Left to right is Pam, then Mike, then Pam M.! Pam on the left is planning to travel to Europe in June, which is awesome, Mike does air force reserves once a month(i believe) and Pam M. is a pretty hip chick to chat with!
This is Matt. He is into composing music and is a pretty quirky guy. He knows alot of weird facts and jokes.:-S
Meet Sue B. She works in the kids department along with the other two Sues. She is also a librarian at a K-8 school! I really didn't get to properly talk with Sue B. but she is super sweet and gives hugs!;-)
This is Andrew. He likes to make fun of the "keytar" that my dad plays and thinks that i only wanted a picture of him in order to take out a "hit" on him. First off, I dont have the money for that, second off, one too many episodes of mafia flicks, eh?
Meet Virginia! She is a bit soft spoken but a wonderful person to work with!
This is Adam. Adam(works in the cafe) is a really cool guy. He is really philosophical when you get to know him!
This is Kyle. Kyle works in the cafe and is originally from Belgium(i believe). He happened to be at Barnes visiting, but not working, so I was fortunate to get a pic!
This is Julie! She is a bookwormin' machine! Her main area in the store is dealing with magazines and she is quite a master at it! Always giggling, she is a positive person to be around.:-)
Hello Everyone! This lovely lady is Taryn. She is 4 weeks away from having her kid and probably cant wait to have the bebe out!
This is the lovely Emalee. She is still in high school and her and I did our Barnes and Noble training reading courses on the same day. She is in the cafe(as im sure you can already deduce from her choice in garb) and loves it!
This is Karen. Karen works it in the cafe and has two lovely little girls. Yes folks, she is holding a banana. You'll notice the fruit trend throughout.
Let me introduce you to two lovely peeps. The one closest to the camera is Shelli. Oh shoot, is it with an optional e at the end? Damn, im having a Dan Quale moment. Oh dang it! I don't know if I spelt his name right!...*mumbles incoherently* Anywho, Shelli is one of my assistant managers at da Barnes and also graduated from VU. Kathy is the girl next to her. She is pretty sweet and loves Madagascar. What good employees, reading the bible...or are they [hint: look closely] :-p
Hey Everyone! Meet Debby. She rocks! For real, not for fake, but fo real my nizzle! And yes, those are lop-sided oranges in her hands!
Another addition to this montage, is Zahra. She is the cafe queen! Currently, she is 4 months preggers. Uber exciting!!!
This is Holly. Holly is great! She has a 5 year(if I stand corrected)boy and is awesome. Sarcastic by nature. Love it!
This is Sherri. She is a department manager at Barnes. She is uber nice but so is everyone else at work.:-p
This is Sue...well, one of the three that I work with. Sue works in the kids section of the store and has quite the youthful glow, if I can say so. Sue is sweet!
This is me and Gwen. Not the most flattering piccies of us, but it does help to demonstrate that we are both freaks. Gwen loves me and I love her. She is my funny buddy.
This is me and Lindsay. Lindsay is preggers and is planning to have her kid around my birthday. I am starting a campaign and its called Push for the 30th of May, Lindsaaaay! Lindsay is a smartass and that is one of her best qualities!*hugs*
This is Charles. Chuck for Short. He is a funny dude. He is a bit of a comic relief at work, so that's nice. Thumbs up, Chuck!
These are all the piccies of people that I have currently, but I will make my rounds over the next few shifts and try to get as many peeps as possible. Until then...ill be adios-in!
Can she make it?
Alrightee...I have about 3/4th a tank of gas left,
4 working shifts left,
equating to 2 ways each,
equalling 8 times,
times about 15 miles,
which adds up to about 120 miles
give or take 20 miles for randomness..
it might be possible, and i wont have to spend any more on gas.
I hate paying for gas.
:-p
Today, I am working on shelving. What I have a head of me is 4.5 hours of organizing bliss. Tis early in the morning, but somebody's gottsa do it!
Ive been having straaange dreams. Dont really want to go into so much detail, but there was one point when i do recall being surrounded by the ocean and it looked soooo freakin real...It was nice.
:-/
Alrightee! Im off!
x
4 working shifts left,
equating to 2 ways each,
equalling 8 times,
times about 15 miles,
which adds up to about 120 miles
give or take 20 miles for randomness..
it might be possible, and i wont have to spend any more on gas.
I hate paying for gas.
:-p
Today, I am working on shelving. What I have a head of me is 4.5 hours of organizing bliss. Tis early in the morning, but somebody's gottsa do it!
Ive been having straaange dreams. Dont really want to go into so much detail, but there was one point when i do recall being surrounded by the ocean and it looked soooo freakin real...It was nice.
:-/
Alrightee! Im off!
x
Monday, January 30, 2006
Monday Bluuuuues...
it's monday...WAH!
Today is a day off from the Barnes and I do have to say I must enjoy working. Right now, i feel like a lump on a rock and I need to be a bit more useful to myself before I CRRRACK!!
I haven't had brekkie yet but eggs and such sound pretty delish at the mo.
My dad is leaving for Norway this morning. So, what that means is that I won't be seeing him for over 6 months, being as I am leaving for London next month. Kinda sad and strange, but life....must go on!
So, what are you guys planning for Valentines Day? Our plans involve Mcds and kfc*for the ice cream*...:-P Last year, it was Burger King...we are goofs...ahhhh well...
x
Today is a day off from the Barnes and I do have to say I must enjoy working. Right now, i feel like a lump on a rock and I need to be a bit more useful to myself before I CRRRACK!!
I haven't had brekkie yet but eggs and such sound pretty delish at the mo.
My dad is leaving for Norway this morning. So, what that means is that I won't be seeing him for over 6 months, being as I am leaving for London next month. Kinda sad and strange, but life....must go on!
So, what are you guys planning for Valentines Day? Our plans involve Mcds and kfc*for the ice cream*...:-P Last year, it was Burger King...we are goofs...ahhhh well...
x
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Just another day...
or is it?
It's strange....driving through cities like Chicago...the amount of people that go about their lives...It makes you wonder...are we really that small? Insignificant? Or is it the total opposite and we just dont realize?
I mean, i could blend in with the crowds if i wanted to. Maybe that is the challenge...the blend and enjoying what is right in front of you...not to reach so far, as so to stretch yourself out*for example, trying to become famous* and for what purpose? What are you/we trying to prove? That was exist and LOOK AT ME!!*writes name in stone*
Why does society pressure us for a career? forces us to think that we are happy with a work choice? Im not really into that sort of game.:-S
There was an interesting article in the magazine FAST COMPANY and it gaves my generation a few names....Generation Y...etc...I like to be known as YIPPIE. Not a yuppie, but a yippie. It is an individual that doesnt place importance in a career choice, but is very nomadic when it comes to the working scene. That want fun and excitement in their lives and they are not afraid to travel and seek happiness. THAT'S ME!!
x
It's strange....driving through cities like Chicago...the amount of people that go about their lives...It makes you wonder...are we really that small? Insignificant? Or is it the total opposite and we just dont realize?
I mean, i could blend in with the crowds if i wanted to. Maybe that is the challenge...the blend and enjoying what is right in front of you...not to reach so far, as so to stretch yourself out*for example, trying to become famous* and for what purpose? What are you/we trying to prove? That was exist and LOOK AT ME!!*writes name in stone*
Why does society pressure us for a career? forces us to think that we are happy with a work choice? Im not really into that sort of game.:-S
There was an interesting article in the magazine FAST COMPANY and it gaves my generation a few names....Generation Y...etc...I like to be known as YIPPIE. Not a yuppie, but a yippie. It is an individual that doesnt place importance in a career choice, but is very nomadic when it comes to the working scene. That want fun and excitement in their lives and they are not afraid to travel and seek happiness. THAT'S ME!!
x
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Ah CRAP!
ive been tagged by vishwa...
grr....
8 qualities in a perfect lover:
*puts on thinking cap*
1. Love--yea, kinda general, but has the ability to sense love in both the giving and receiving variety, affectionate.
2. Honesty and stability---having the ability to be as honest as possible, not only to myself but to themselves as well. Stability as in levelheaded-cuz i lack that and need a role model.
3.There for me, when im weak and not feeling great.
4. Sense of humour, cuz without...no fun and no future.
5. Considerate--realizing actions and consequence of actions, etc.
6.Ambitious--sees a future in self, willingness to change for the better, has goals and aspirations.
7. Sensitive and open with feelings--kinda goes hand in hand with honesty to self. Not ashamed to cry and feel.
8.A teacher/student--sees life as a way to learn not only about self, but others, personal growth,...offers lessons to me as well...no. 1 thing in relationship(LOVE and trust)
NOW...
**** The last rule which i've added is this--- List out eight qualities your perfect lover would want to see in you.(Qualities which you may have or are yet to develop)
The rules of answering this tag are****
1. Loves self and others, giving and receiving and knowing that my love affects people in a great way.
2. Honest---learning to be honest with what i want out of life, knowing that I can love, be in love, be happy, and throwing the what ifs out the window, when need not apply.
3. Faith---in myself, cuz i do lack this, but its a quest that im on in self discovery.
4. Knowing my own beauty, and what i can give the world.
5. Confidence--in self and others around me, peace of mind
6. Giving what I got, cuz its all ill ever have, at that very moment, and life is not a practice run.
7. Positive outlook on life, not taking things so seriously
8. Learning about myself always, from my lover, friends, and evolving my soul to a higher frequency, all the while being as considerate as possible.
I will tag other people!!
these are the rules:
The rules of answering this tag are:
1) List down eight qualities you'd love in your perfect lover.
2) Tag four other bloggers and inform them about this on their blog.
3) List out eight qualities your perfect lover would want to see in you.(Qualities which you may have or are yet to develop)
grr....
8 qualities in a perfect lover:
*puts on thinking cap*
1. Love--yea, kinda general, but has the ability to sense love in both the giving and receiving variety, affectionate.
2. Honesty and stability---having the ability to be as honest as possible, not only to myself but to themselves as well. Stability as in levelheaded-cuz i lack that and need a role model.
3.There for me, when im weak and not feeling great.
4. Sense of humour, cuz without...no fun and no future.
5. Considerate--realizing actions and consequence of actions, etc.
6.Ambitious--sees a future in self, willingness to change for the better, has goals and aspirations.
7. Sensitive and open with feelings--kinda goes hand in hand with honesty to self. Not ashamed to cry and feel.
8.A teacher/student--sees life as a way to learn not only about self, but others, personal growth,...offers lessons to me as well...no. 1 thing in relationship(LOVE and trust)
NOW...
**** The last rule which i've added is this--- List out eight qualities your perfect lover would want to see in you.(Qualities which you may have or are yet to develop)
The rules of answering this tag are****
1. Loves self and others, giving and receiving and knowing that my love affects people in a great way.
2. Honest---learning to be honest with what i want out of life, knowing that I can love, be in love, be happy, and throwing the what ifs out the window, when need not apply.
3. Faith---in myself, cuz i do lack this, but its a quest that im on in self discovery.
4. Knowing my own beauty, and what i can give the world.
5. Confidence--in self and others around me, peace of mind
6. Giving what I got, cuz its all ill ever have, at that very moment, and life is not a practice run.
7. Positive outlook on life, not taking things so seriously
8. Learning about myself always, from my lover, friends, and evolving my soul to a higher frequency, all the while being as considerate as possible.
I will tag other people!!
these are the rules:
The rules of answering this tag are:
1) List down eight qualities you'd love in your perfect lover.
2) Tag four other bloggers and inform them about this on their blog.
3) List out eight qualities your perfect lover would want to see in you.(Qualities which you may have or are yet to develop)
Argh-ness
It's morning and I totally want more rest.
It has been about the same deal the last two morning...gotten up at an ungodly hour, readying myself for the work day ahead...I hope things at work will run smooth.
Today is my second training shift at the cafe, which Im not particularly enjoying, so i hope that the conversation and flow is good with my co-workers
*but really there is no worry for that, cuz people are cool*
I work 8 in the morning(which is considered opening) so I will be learning those ropes today and then tomorrow is 3-cl, in which I will master the art of closing.
And I think that will be enough cafe shifts before I head to the land of Eng.
I work friday 7am to 3pm...im on register, so it has me wondering if this is in part a shelving shift or not. If not, what would the project be ahead of me?? Im off saturday, so that will be nice to have a lie down until sunday when i work early again and then tues. Neverending cycle...but that will soon end for a time.:-p
Hope all is well with youz!
x
It has been about the same deal the last two morning...gotten up at an ungodly hour, readying myself for the work day ahead...I hope things at work will run smooth.
Today is my second training shift at the cafe, which Im not particularly enjoying, so i hope that the conversation and flow is good with my co-workers
*but really there is no worry for that, cuz people are cool*
I work 8 in the morning(which is considered opening) so I will be learning those ropes today and then tomorrow is 3-cl, in which I will master the art of closing.
And I think that will be enough cafe shifts before I head to the land of Eng.
I work friday 7am to 3pm...im on register, so it has me wondering if this is in part a shelving shift or not. If not, what would the project be ahead of me?? Im off saturday, so that will be nice to have a lie down until sunday when i work early again and then tues. Neverending cycle...but that will soon end for a time.:-p
Hope all is well with youz!
x
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Glass of milk
calcium for my bones
relaxation hit me!
I am training tomorrow at B&N on shelving books from 7-1130am, so its gonna be an early start. In fact, i should be in bed right about now, being as the clock is set for 545am, just so i can get up on time, dressed, and pumped with the usual coffee.
I was suppose to hang out with a friend Michael later on in the day, but as it turns out, it is set for Wednesday evening instead. Should be nice to hang out with a friend that I havent hung out with in over...*lets see* nearing a year, me thinks. Dang! That is weird to think about out loud.
Overall, the day off has been a bit drab and the only things that I ended up accomplishing were activating my debit card, grabbing a bite to eat from bk, nearly finishing a drawing Jassen and have been straightening up and organizing things in my room.
I was trying to efile taxes tonight, but i think there is an issue with me working outside of the country, so my parents and I are going to have to find out how to go about filing...and soon on my part. I hope that i get some money *shrugs*
I am so anticipating change, its not even funny. My horoscope today was along those lines...that i am wanting any kind of change being as i have an overall feeling of being stagnant,....so change is in the air, but i can only taste it like a slight breeze on a hot summer's evening.
I'm in the market to buy some art books and possibly some kind of french dictionary thing for when i visit France with Jassen(possibly next month sometime).
IN order to lull myself into a nice sleep, i think i will try to finish one of the last stories in a Roahl Daul book that has the Wonderful story of Henry sugar and six other stories. This was recommended by Jassen, being as he enjoyed it when he was younger. I think i might have read it before sometime down the road and they are nice little stories to read...things you might just have thought about as a child...or maybe as an adult.
Strange to think that ill be 25 this year...im an adult....but I sure dont feel it.:-/ Ah well.
GNight ALL!
x
relaxation hit me!
I am training tomorrow at B&N on shelving books from 7-1130am, so its gonna be an early start. In fact, i should be in bed right about now, being as the clock is set for 545am, just so i can get up on time, dressed, and pumped with the usual coffee.
I was suppose to hang out with a friend Michael later on in the day, but as it turns out, it is set for Wednesday evening instead. Should be nice to hang out with a friend that I havent hung out with in over...*lets see* nearing a year, me thinks. Dang! That is weird to think about out loud.
Overall, the day off has been a bit drab and the only things that I ended up accomplishing were activating my debit card, grabbing a bite to eat from bk, nearly finishing a drawing Jassen and have been straightening up and organizing things in my room.
I was trying to efile taxes tonight, but i think there is an issue with me working outside of the country, so my parents and I are going to have to find out how to go about filing...and soon on my part. I hope that i get some money *shrugs*
I am so anticipating change, its not even funny. My horoscope today was along those lines...that i am wanting any kind of change being as i have an overall feeling of being stagnant,....so change is in the air, but i can only taste it like a slight breeze on a hot summer's evening.
I'm in the market to buy some art books and possibly some kind of french dictionary thing for when i visit France with Jassen(possibly next month sometime).
IN order to lull myself into a nice sleep, i think i will try to finish one of the last stories in a Roahl Daul book that has the Wonderful story of Henry sugar and six other stories. This was recommended by Jassen, being as he enjoyed it when he was younger. I think i might have read it before sometime down the road and they are nice little stories to read...things you might just have thought about as a child...or maybe as an adult.
Strange to think that ill be 25 this year...im an adult....but I sure dont feel it.:-/ Ah well.
GNight ALL!
x
Monday, January 23, 2006
Kama Su..
jk..
:p
I am in the process of a few drawings so I will post them when I get the chance to slap it on the computer. I got a power adapter for my phone being as the prongs in the other won decided to get buried in the mechanism and made me dig into it, trying to get it to pop out (lost cause)!
I sold my pignose amp, so I will be getting a little bit more money soon. I am anticipating the change that is about to happen in my life...I look forward to it...Im nervous, but its better to be nervous than cocky about it!
So, according to some kind of study, today is suppose to be the most depressing day of the year...Ill have to find the link, but I think its rather funny, cuz Ive been feeling a bit better than usual, so maybe this doesnt apply to moi!
Studies are funny, and the amount of books, magazines, and media that is out...People saying...OH, this is the way to do things...no no...THIS is!...it's just funny that people think they have things down. Really it is a relative thing and should go that far beyond. I mean, there isnt one genre of music that EVERYONE will ever like...it's just not possible...AH well...
Happy Monday ALL!!
:p
I am in the process of a few drawings so I will post them when I get the chance to slap it on the computer. I got a power adapter for my phone being as the prongs in the other won decided to get buried in the mechanism and made me dig into it, trying to get it to pop out (lost cause)!
I sold my pignose amp, so I will be getting a little bit more money soon. I am anticipating the change that is about to happen in my life...I look forward to it...Im nervous, but its better to be nervous than cocky about it!
So, according to some kind of study, today is suppose to be the most depressing day of the year...Ill have to find the link, but I think its rather funny, cuz Ive been feeling a bit better than usual, so maybe this doesnt apply to moi!
Studies are funny, and the amount of books, magazines, and media that is out...People saying...OH, this is the way to do things...no no...THIS is!...it's just funny that people think they have things down. Really it is a relative thing and should go that far beyond. I mean, there isnt one genre of music that EVERYONE will ever like...it's just not possible...AH well...
Happy Monday ALL!!
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Blaaaaaug!
Listening to Radiohead...
it's sunday...
I work at 2....
have monday off....
will hang out with a friend, more than likely, on tuesday...
need to hang out with my sister before I go!
Need to pack more...
drink more water...
im back at my weight prior to the holidays...
go jen..
the end.
it's sunday...
I work at 2....
have monday off....
will hang out with a friend, more than likely, on tuesday...
need to hang out with my sister before I go!
Need to pack more...
drink more water...
im back at my weight prior to the holidays...
go jen..
the end.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Smile...
and no, I'm not talking about Mr. Brian Wilson.
It strange...the apathy on his face when he performs is so unlike what
comes out whilst playing...Strangeness.
I was chatting with my sister last night on the phone(and she was SUPPOSE to give me a call back, but ya know how that goes) and she suggest that I give myself a reality check.
What inspired this line of thought was when she was watching Rodman getting interviewed in a program. He said that in major transitions in his life, he stops and thinks the lessons offered, life in the now, and just basically checks to see if his head is in the right place, and transitions last only so long.
Jassen said something similar to me the other day. Transitions; realize that you get through em and come out on the other side. You are never stuck in the same place forever unless you decide to be. And yes Jassen, please add any other 2cents you may come up with.
I am realizing that I am letting fears shape and mold my outlook on life. This is not fair to and for myself. I have the bad habit to think too far in a future that I have no control over, but the reason I do this is the fact that I want some kind of permenance. I mean, Nicole said it great that I really should compare myself to a ping pong ball. Ive been in transition alot over a course of nearly 2 years.
+ I graduated from college
+ I went over to England
+ Fell in love with a wonderful person!<3
+ Came back, alone and unknowing about my immediate future
+ Went back to England for a few weeks in August
+ Came back to the states, working at the theater, not liking the distance between me and a loved one
+ Jassen visits in October for a few weeks
+ After, which Im left in a bigger depression, wondering the next step
+ Researched and found a program in december time that allows me 6 months working permit in England.
+ Christmas Night, spend the night at family friends house for next day flight
+ Stay in London for 5 months, whilst working, making friends and connections along the way
+ Slightly begin to worry about what the coming months will bring
+ Come home to the states for birthday, etc with Jassen
+ Go back for a second year of Glasto fun and to work on music
+ Learn Logic Express to create
+ Start adding art to portfolio
+ Exercise 4-6 times a week
+ Write alot, start this blog in July to vent out my cluttered head
+ Gain weight from big meals, too much popcorn and ice blasts:-p
+ Get 2 kittens in August, Salt and Pepper
+ Depression hits hard, not wanting to go back
+ Created about 12-15 ideas for songs, only 1-2 semi complete
+ Leave in tears near the end of October
+ Get home, chill, and research where I would like to work
+ Lose about 13 pounds
+ Apply to about 10 places, get 2 interviews; One at Kohls(which i really didnt want to hear from) and Barnes and Noble
+ Work both for a short amount of time and quit Kohls the middle of December
+ Still working at Barnes and they keep on training me up for all sorts of stuff, I think they might see potential, which is sweet.
+ Jassen visits for 2 1/2 weeks, gain christmas 5 pounds
+ Lose 5 pounds(at 162, with aim of 140...i know, i dont look 162, but trust me, it's there)*Drinks up on the water*
+ Get plane ticket for 6 months in England, heading back, cuz it messes up my brain not being with Jassen
+ Fear of future molding around the positives in my life
+ Need meditation in my life, *reads a bit on Siddhartha*
See, now my mind feels like it is always on the go, even when i just want to chill, so i need to flex my former muscle of control, cuz muscle remembers. I use to be a very spiritual person, but somewhere along the way, ive turned into a bit of a cynical individual that goes beyond just being sarcastic.
My outlook on life has narrowed all in the name of fear, the lights are lowering, and my sense of self is being put on trial..
The realization of life, the ups and downs is a bit wearing, but let me take a closer look...see the lesson in it all, cuz thats one of the biggest things that I've forgotten to do....
*gets oatmeal*
~ I am the only person in my shoes, I am the only person that will ever be in my shoes, there is no point in worrying over matters that you have no control over.
~ Jen, the transitions make you stronger, make you able to take on change, to adapt, which is a little bit of an issue for you. You fear that you arent facing the right lessons, when the lessons are blantantly staring you in the face.
~ It is for me to either take the lessons on harshly, making them hard to absorb and learn, or for me to open up my book and expectations on life, wipe em clean, and seize the day that I have the ability to learn and grow as an individual*evolution of my soul*
~ I love and I must realize this action. It may be the biggest if not the biggest thing I ever do! I fear that I can't love, when that is never the case, cuz if Im worried that i can't, there is concern for something that might not be there, when everything I have is in front of me. It's for me to better myself, to elevate myself, I am in control.
*hums* yur in control is there anywhere you wanna go...
~ Life may knock me around, but I shouldnt let that get me down. At every given turn, there is a lesson. For me, it is to be positive with myself and people around, cuz much too often that I see people not happy with themselves, its written on their faces and attitudes.
~I do make differences in people's lives...heck, i exist, so that's one given
~ I love Jassen and want to be with him for as long as humanly and unhumanly possible. He is my rock, fo sure, my sense of sanity, my love personified, my compliment shouting aloud, my reality check, my everything, and I love you. Thank you for allowing me to test myself, even when its the hardest thing for me to do and thank you for loving me...I wouldnt want to be loved by anyone other than you*throws what ifs out the window*
~ This is my life to live. Fear does have its purpose....it is really motivation in disguise, maybe even god in disguise, or maybe me in disguise challenging myself. Love needs a challenge, just so to prove itself even more.
~Life is easy, it's us that makes it difficult. We are given the paints and brushes, the canvas is set; Memories are times when we reflect upon our art; Death is when we've appreciated enough to move on to the next work of art.:-)
Why not cry with laughter?
Laughter shouldnt make us cry
who we want to be
is who we want to defy
Works of art in motion
slowing down only at the bends
what is the beginning of one matter
will eventually find the means of its ends
Everyone have a fab day and thanks for reading!
It strange...the apathy on his face when he performs is so unlike what
comes out whilst playing...Strangeness.
I was chatting with my sister last night on the phone(and she was SUPPOSE to give me a call back, but ya know how that goes) and she suggest that I give myself a reality check.
What inspired this line of thought was when she was watching Rodman getting interviewed in a program. He said that in major transitions in his life, he stops and thinks the lessons offered, life in the now, and just basically checks to see if his head is in the right place, and transitions last only so long.
Jassen said something similar to me the other day. Transitions; realize that you get through em and come out on the other side. You are never stuck in the same place forever unless you decide to be. And yes Jassen, please add any other 2cents you may come up with.
I am realizing that I am letting fears shape and mold my outlook on life. This is not fair to and for myself. I have the bad habit to think too far in a future that I have no control over, but the reason I do this is the fact that I want some kind of permenance. I mean, Nicole said it great that I really should compare myself to a ping pong ball. Ive been in transition alot over a course of nearly 2 years.
+ I graduated from college
+ I went over to England
+ Fell in love with a wonderful person!<3
+ Came back, alone and unknowing about my immediate future
+ Went back to England for a few weeks in August
+ Came back to the states, working at the theater, not liking the distance between me and a loved one
+ Jassen visits in October for a few weeks
+ After, which Im left in a bigger depression, wondering the next step
+ Researched and found a program in december time that allows me 6 months working permit in England.
+ Christmas Night, spend the night at family friends house for next day flight
+ Stay in London for 5 months, whilst working, making friends and connections along the way
+ Slightly begin to worry about what the coming months will bring
+ Come home to the states for birthday, etc with Jassen
+ Go back for a second year of Glasto fun and to work on music
+ Learn Logic Express to create
+ Start adding art to portfolio
+ Exercise 4-6 times a week
+ Write alot, start this blog in July to vent out my cluttered head
+ Gain weight from big meals, too much popcorn and ice blasts:-p
+ Get 2 kittens in August, Salt and Pepper
+ Depression hits hard, not wanting to go back
+ Created about 12-15 ideas for songs, only 1-2 semi complete
+ Leave in tears near the end of October
+ Get home, chill, and research where I would like to work
+ Lose about 13 pounds
+ Apply to about 10 places, get 2 interviews; One at Kohls(which i really didnt want to hear from) and Barnes and Noble
+ Work both for a short amount of time and quit Kohls the middle of December
+ Still working at Barnes and they keep on training me up for all sorts of stuff, I think they might see potential, which is sweet.
+ Jassen visits for 2 1/2 weeks, gain christmas 5 pounds
+ Lose 5 pounds(at 162, with aim of 140...i know, i dont look 162, but trust me, it's there)*Drinks up on the water*
+ Get plane ticket for 6 months in England, heading back, cuz it messes up my brain not being with Jassen
+ Fear of future molding around the positives in my life
+ Need meditation in my life, *reads a bit on Siddhartha*
See, now my mind feels like it is always on the go, even when i just want to chill, so i need to flex my former muscle of control, cuz muscle remembers. I use to be a very spiritual person, but somewhere along the way, ive turned into a bit of a cynical individual that goes beyond just being sarcastic.
My outlook on life has narrowed all in the name of fear, the lights are lowering, and my sense of self is being put on trial..
The realization of life, the ups and downs is a bit wearing, but let me take a closer look...see the lesson in it all, cuz thats one of the biggest things that I've forgotten to do....
*gets oatmeal*
~ I am the only person in my shoes, I am the only person that will ever be in my shoes, there is no point in worrying over matters that you have no control over.
~ Jen, the transitions make you stronger, make you able to take on change, to adapt, which is a little bit of an issue for you. You fear that you arent facing the right lessons, when the lessons are blantantly staring you in the face.
~ It is for me to either take the lessons on harshly, making them hard to absorb and learn, or for me to open up my book and expectations on life, wipe em clean, and seize the day that I have the ability to learn and grow as an individual*evolution of my soul*
~ I love and I must realize this action. It may be the biggest if not the biggest thing I ever do! I fear that I can't love, when that is never the case, cuz if Im worried that i can't, there is concern for something that might not be there, when everything I have is in front of me. It's for me to better myself, to elevate myself, I am in control.
*hums* yur in control is there anywhere you wanna go...
~ Life may knock me around, but I shouldnt let that get me down. At every given turn, there is a lesson. For me, it is to be positive with myself and people around, cuz much too often that I see people not happy with themselves, its written on their faces and attitudes.
~I do make differences in people's lives...heck, i exist, so that's one given
~ I love Jassen and want to be with him for as long as humanly and unhumanly possible. He is my rock, fo sure, my sense of sanity, my love personified, my compliment shouting aloud, my reality check, my everything, and I love you. Thank you for allowing me to test myself, even when its the hardest thing for me to do and thank you for loving me...I wouldnt want to be loved by anyone other than you*throws what ifs out the window*
~ This is my life to live. Fear does have its purpose....it is really motivation in disguise, maybe even god in disguise, or maybe me in disguise challenging myself. Love needs a challenge, just so to prove itself even more.
~Life is easy, it's us that makes it difficult. We are given the paints and brushes, the canvas is set; Memories are times when we reflect upon our art; Death is when we've appreciated enough to move on to the next work of art.:-)
Why not cry with laughter?
Laughter shouldnt make us cry
who we want to be
is who we want to defy
Works of art in motion
slowing down only at the bends
what is the beginning of one matter
will eventually find the means of its ends
Everyone have a fab day and thanks for reading!
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Yayness! Ode to a response.
I got a response from the editor of Remix magazine and this was her response!
>Hi Jennifer,
>
>Thanks so much for the kind words. You read the Feb. issue already? That's so funny, 'cause I haven't gotten a copy yet! Hopefully I'll get mine tonight.
>
>Anyway, best of luck to you in all that you do. Time does fly, so enjoy it.
>
>Also, mind if we print your letter? It's so nice to hear from the ladies. There are a lot of men in this industry, and it's refreshing to hear from other women!
>
>Kylee
It is funny that she has yet to get a copy of her own writings.:-p I am also excited of the prospect of voicing a women's perspective of the music biz, etc. I'm glad I was refreshing to hear from, my horoscope via email did insist upon the fact that my words, people do listen to. So, in this case, my 'scope has proven to be quite true!
Last night was fun at work. I love talking to the people that I work with, love talking and exchanging war stories with customers. I think my managers like that quality about me, the ability I have in communicating and listening to people. It is something I thrive off of, the exchange of information and experience. I mean, isnt that what life is all about?
Today, I think I will bell up the Hansell twins and see if I can hang with them as well as life draw them in order to bulk up my art porfolio.
Hope all is well with everyone!
x
>Hi Jennifer,
>
>Thanks so much for the kind words. You read the Feb. issue already? That's so funny, 'cause I haven't gotten a copy yet! Hopefully I'll get mine tonight.
>
>Anyway, best of luck to you in all that you do. Time does fly, so enjoy it.
>
>Also, mind if we print your letter? It's so nice to hear from the ladies. There are a lot of men in this industry, and it's refreshing to hear from other women!
>
>Kylee
It is funny that she has yet to get a copy of her own writings.:-p I am also excited of the prospect of voicing a women's perspective of the music biz, etc. I'm glad I was refreshing to hear from, my horoscope via email did insist upon the fact that my words, people do listen to. So, in this case, my 'scope has proven to be quite true!
Last night was fun at work. I love talking to the people that I work with, love talking and exchanging war stories with customers. I think my managers like that quality about me, the ability I have in communicating and listening to people. It is something I thrive off of, the exchange of information and experience. I mean, isnt that what life is all about?
Today, I think I will bell up the Hansell twins and see if I can hang with them as well as life draw them in order to bulk up my art porfolio.
Hope all is well with everyone!
x
E-mail to REMIX editor:
There was a good editor's note in remix magazine, so i decided to send an email.
Ill see if I can find a link for it, if it exists at all...
Hey there Kylee!
I just wanted to comment on how much I enjoyed reading the editor's note of the remix magazine. It had a wonderful flow about it while reading, so it didn't take much for the words and points to pull me in.
I agree with the whole "focusing so much on one thing", because life is a balance and too much or little of something isn't ALWAYS the best of things.(And sure, there are exceptions to this rule.)
Kudos to you in doing what you love best(or so it seems)because the adage is true-- that time flies whilst having fun.
Nowadays, it does seem that there is alot of recycled music out there. The intent for most groups is to emulate other groups already out there, because for the time being that formula seems to work. Now, this is a issue that is close to my heart, being as I too strive to be unique and offer something so different, shiny and new to the world, but the conflict is there has to be a common connection, some ickle thing for music lovers to relate to(in order to grab their attention).
It kinda makes me think of the downfall of MTV. I mean, in the beginning, it was new, zesty, and happening. It had a very unique quality about it, but then slowly, it started appealing to the demographics, and then by doing so, letting the viewers shape the programming so much, when the viewer is really clueless as to what they really like, thus MTV is found on the opposite side of the spectrum from its original starting point, to be different and unique, et cetera. I even did a research paper and report on this in college.:-p
It just seems that alot(not all) of musicians feel the need to express their art in words, which makes it a bit modest, don't you think?(picture starving "artist")
Alrighty. You have yourself a wonderful night/day and keep on doing what you do, cuz it's refreshing to read.
Thanks Again!
Jen Abbott
Ill see if I can find a link for it, if it exists at all...
Hey there Kylee!
I just wanted to comment on how much I enjoyed reading the editor's note of the remix magazine. It had a wonderful flow about it while reading, so it didn't take much for the words and points to pull me in.
I agree with the whole "focusing so much on one thing", because life is a balance and too much or little of something isn't ALWAYS the best of things.(And sure, there are exceptions to this rule.)
Kudos to you in doing what you love best(or so it seems)because the adage is true-- that time flies whilst having fun.
Nowadays, it does seem that there is alot of recycled music out there. The intent for most groups is to emulate other groups already out there, because for the time being that formula seems to work. Now, this is a issue that is close to my heart, being as I too strive to be unique and offer something so different, shiny and new to the world, but the conflict is there has to be a common connection, some ickle thing for music lovers to relate to(in order to grab their attention).
It kinda makes me think of the downfall of MTV. I mean, in the beginning, it was new, zesty, and happening. It had a very unique quality about it, but then slowly, it started appealing to the demographics, and then by doing so, letting the viewers shape the programming so much, when the viewer is really clueless as to what they really like, thus MTV is found on the opposite side of the spectrum from its original starting point, to be different and unique, et cetera. I even did a research paper and report on this in college.:-p
It just seems that alot(not all) of musicians feel the need to express their art in words, which makes it a bit modest, don't you think?(picture starving "artist")
Alrighty. You have yourself a wonderful night/day and keep on doing what you do, cuz it's refreshing to read.
Thanks Again!
Jen Abbott
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Disciple of Love
am I
I am learning the ways to be
to give and to heed
The ins and out
the rights and wrongs
its all or nothing
when im a disciple of love
your love
and my love
Blossoming in and out season
the winds blow on us harshly
but only because its the seeds of love
it wants to spread
You and me
what a beautiful thing
falling in and out of love
testing and living its meaning
coming back to one another
a haven
you are
this disciple of love
Love is stronger than any force
it can bring together and tear apart
all in the name of itself
I love your expression of love
it's a vision im learning to see
as we grow within and of each other
what ever will be
will be
I love you Jassen
you make me better
and stronger
thank you for the lessons
your rhymes and reasons
methods of madness and sanity
you burst my bubble, but in a good way
life is harshly beautiful
thanks for holding my hand.
I am learning the ways to be
to give and to heed
The ins and out
the rights and wrongs
its all or nothing
when im a disciple of love
your love
and my love
Blossoming in and out season
the winds blow on us harshly
but only because its the seeds of love
it wants to spread
You and me
what a beautiful thing
falling in and out of love
testing and living its meaning
coming back to one another
a haven
you are
this disciple of love
Love is stronger than any force
it can bring together and tear apart
all in the name of itself
I love your expression of love
it's a vision im learning to see
as we grow within and of each other
what ever will be
will be
I love you Jassen
you make me better
and stronger
thank you for the lessons
your rhymes and reasons
methods of madness and sanity
you burst my bubble, but in a good way
life is harshly beautiful
thanks for holding my hand.
Confidence with Coffee
I feel like this sometimes.
When I have the sensation of coffee in my veins, I feel empowered, awake, more like myself..and the dependancy scares me a bit.
It might be something with the fact that in college I was heavily dependant on it in order to get me through the day, through the weeks, and months, the study sessions(which i would study 8-10 in a row)and the coffee shops I would visit with friends and family.
I just hope that this dependancy will not shorten my life too much. Heck old peeps live long drinking coffee in the mornings...I guess it just depends on my health and genetics, etc..In that case, I need to watch out for cholestrol and eating less greasy foods, cuz those are issues on my mom and dad's side.
Im listening to Pilate pronounced pilot. They are a good band. I recommend, Melt in the walls and travel song.
Confidence with coffee
and outlet for myself
to feed on the energies before me
stuff of me
usually left untold
until the first sip
that lingers on my lips
its bittersweet
the taste and the texture
it makes me feel somewhat complete
and as it trickles down into my soul's hunger pit
I realize the power of the bean
to manipulate emotions and moods
and why on earth does it exist?
Is it for pleasure that then turns to pain
or is it all a matter of perception and whether or not
it is chosen to be shown in a particular light?
I love coffee
but the crash is hard
if one becomes too high..
pace my coffee intake
riding the fine lines of pleasure
coming back down to earth to appreciate
what is my coffee high.
Ode to coffee
DRINK!
Hehe
When I have the sensation of coffee in my veins, I feel empowered, awake, more like myself..and the dependancy scares me a bit.
It might be something with the fact that in college I was heavily dependant on it in order to get me through the day, through the weeks, and months, the study sessions(which i would study 8-10 in a row)and the coffee shops I would visit with friends and family.
I just hope that this dependancy will not shorten my life too much. Heck old peeps live long drinking coffee in the mornings...I guess it just depends on my health and genetics, etc..In that case, I need to watch out for cholestrol and eating less greasy foods, cuz those are issues on my mom and dad's side.
Im listening to Pilate pronounced pilot. They are a good band. I recommend, Melt in the walls and travel song.
Confidence with coffee
and outlet for myself
to feed on the energies before me
stuff of me
usually left untold
until the first sip
that lingers on my lips
its bittersweet
the taste and the texture
it makes me feel somewhat complete
and as it trickles down into my soul's hunger pit
I realize the power of the bean
to manipulate emotions and moods
and why on earth does it exist?
Is it for pleasure that then turns to pain
or is it all a matter of perception and whether or not
it is chosen to be shown in a particular light?
I love coffee
but the crash is hard
if one becomes too high..
pace my coffee intake
riding the fine lines of pleasure
coming back down to earth to appreciate
what is my coffee high.
Ode to coffee
DRINK!
Hehe
At least
I had some sleep this morning.
Twice this week, Ive been having difficulty when it comes to sleeping.
Ya know when you wake up when you turn over at night? Well, Ive been doing that...every time I turn over, so i didnt get much rest the night before and then 3 nights ago.
I think its some weird anxiety thing. But i actually slept about 5.5 hours straight and look forward to a bit more.:-)
So, i went to Disc replay to make some money on cds, but they only accepted about 9 or so of them which gave me a total of 23 bucks. Kinda sucks, so maybe I might pawn them off. The kid that worked there, after I asked if they buy posters, said that the store doesnt do that but the people at work might like to buy them personally..So, I will think about composing a list so that I might get rid of some posters that way. We shall see.
I then went over to target and got some bare essentials, like underwear, makeup such as coverup and eyeliner. I also got some caramel kisses for my bf's brother's family, cuz i heard that they liked em alot!
Right..I hope everyone has a nice day ahead...the weather was in the 50s yesterday, but I hear that snow is in the forecast, which sucks.
WInter GO AWAY!! :-p
Twice this week, Ive been having difficulty when it comes to sleeping.
Ya know when you wake up when you turn over at night? Well, Ive been doing that...every time I turn over, so i didnt get much rest the night before and then 3 nights ago.
I think its some weird anxiety thing. But i actually slept about 5.5 hours straight and look forward to a bit more.:-)
So, i went to Disc replay to make some money on cds, but they only accepted about 9 or so of them which gave me a total of 23 bucks. Kinda sucks, so maybe I might pawn them off. The kid that worked there, after I asked if they buy posters, said that the store doesnt do that but the people at work might like to buy them personally..So, I will think about composing a list so that I might get rid of some posters that way. We shall see.
I then went over to target and got some bare essentials, like underwear, makeup such as coverup and eyeliner. I also got some caramel kisses for my bf's brother's family, cuz i heard that they liked em alot!
Right..I hope everyone has a nice day ahead...the weather was in the 50s yesterday, but I hear that snow is in the forecast, which sucks.
WInter GO AWAY!! :-p
Monday, January 16, 2006
Listening to...
a perfect circle.
Ive actually seen them live, it was with an ex, his little bro and father. It was a bit strange, with the father being religious, and the ex not so much, or more or less confused with things, and listening to perfect circle...hmm
nm.
Ive been in such a negative stitch and I am to the point where I like being at work cuz it gives me an outlet to be positive, connect with people, and try not to think about how I lack motivation in most things, and that my bf is nearly 4,000miles away. I know and I realize that I am heading back, but days like these, it makes me feel like that day will never get here fast enough....the day when I double check to see I have everything I am taking with me, checking the weight of the bags, taking a bus to Ohare...waiting for a few hours to board the flight, flying over night to London, all the while trying to rest up so Im not so dead tired when I arrive and then seeing Jassen and his bright and smiling face.
I feel so unsettled...like I am constantly on the go, having to go through so many freakin transitions, and not having the ability to stay shorter some where and longer elsewhere.
I do feel stagnant with things...like even the goals that I try and set up to achieve, that after I achieve them, whats then next?? Whats the point to things? That sort of negative point of view....a view that I have grown accustom with seeing from,...I want to shake it....it leaves me feeling scared to live....scared to appreciate what I have in front of me, the special moments, and the wonderful people in my life...
maybe im just experiencing seasonal depression or something....need my sun...really i do.
Ive actually seen them live, it was with an ex, his little bro and father. It was a bit strange, with the father being religious, and the ex not so much, or more or less confused with things, and listening to perfect circle...hmm
nm.
Ive been in such a negative stitch and I am to the point where I like being at work cuz it gives me an outlet to be positive, connect with people, and try not to think about how I lack motivation in most things, and that my bf is nearly 4,000miles away. I know and I realize that I am heading back, but days like these, it makes me feel like that day will never get here fast enough....the day when I double check to see I have everything I am taking with me, checking the weight of the bags, taking a bus to Ohare...waiting for a few hours to board the flight, flying over night to London, all the while trying to rest up so Im not so dead tired when I arrive and then seeing Jassen and his bright and smiling face.
I feel so unsettled...like I am constantly on the go, having to go through so many freakin transitions, and not having the ability to stay shorter some where and longer elsewhere.
I do feel stagnant with things...like even the goals that I try and set up to achieve, that after I achieve them, whats then next?? Whats the point to things? That sort of negative point of view....a view that I have grown accustom with seeing from,...I want to shake it....it leaves me feeling scared to live....scared to appreciate what I have in front of me, the special moments, and the wonderful people in my life...
maybe im just experiencing seasonal depression or something....need my sun...really i do.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
It's 930, on a...
Saturday night.
Oh the highlights.
Listening to Frou frou and Im thinking about hunting down my Imogen Heap album to chill to some of her cool tunes.
Got my new Platinum card in the mail today, my other card hasnt worked for 2 days*thumbs down to cc company* and now waiting for new debit card so that both dont expire while overseas.
Will be notifying Barnes and Noble of my 2 weeks on the 26th. I'm nervous cuz I really dont want any negative flack from my manager/co-workers for this, but she looooves England, so hopefully she will be able to sympathesize with the fact. After I let the proverbial cat out of the bag, I will commence with taking pictures of my workmates and probably draw them, post them on this blog and all that fun stuff.
I am looking forward to projects on photoshop as well as AI. I was recommended another program called...shoot i forgot...it will come back to me, but it was something comparable to photoshop. It will come back to me, I swear.
I have a huge cd collection and about 200 or so cds with slip covers, but not the original garb for the cases. I am hoping to sell them for anywhere around 2-5 bucks. I hope that will fly with one of the nearby shops. If not, I dont know.
I am thinking about parting ways with a pignose amp, so hopefully I can make maybe 40-50 bucks from it, added on to about the 200 I will make from the sale of my bass after all the paypal shit.
My life
swimming up and downs in waves
like sound waves
hitting the walls of my head
only to bounce back
forever
and ever
and evermore
It's my decision
to tune it in
or tune it out
to turn it in
or turn it without the need of scrutiny
my love
is love
whether I shine the light on it or not
either I recognize my own beauty in things that I put beauty in
or not
I am
I am
whether I want to believe in myself or not
thats the unique thing about things
I can believe myself out of existance
but I am my biggest contradiction
cuz whether I am
or not, even though I am
I am...
something.
I believe in my own existance.
Do you in yours?
Oh the highlights.
Listening to Frou frou and Im thinking about hunting down my Imogen Heap album to chill to some of her cool tunes.
Got my new Platinum card in the mail today, my other card hasnt worked for 2 days*thumbs down to cc company* and now waiting for new debit card so that both dont expire while overseas.
Will be notifying Barnes and Noble of my 2 weeks on the 26th. I'm nervous cuz I really dont want any negative flack from my manager/co-workers for this, but she looooves England, so hopefully she will be able to sympathesize with the fact. After I let the proverbial cat out of the bag, I will commence with taking pictures of my workmates and probably draw them, post them on this blog and all that fun stuff.
I am looking forward to projects on photoshop as well as AI. I was recommended another program called...shoot i forgot...it will come back to me, but it was something comparable to photoshop. It will come back to me, I swear.
I have a huge cd collection and about 200 or so cds with slip covers, but not the original garb for the cases. I am hoping to sell them for anywhere around 2-5 bucks. I hope that will fly with one of the nearby shops. If not, I dont know.
I am thinking about parting ways with a pignose amp, so hopefully I can make maybe 40-50 bucks from it, added on to about the 200 I will make from the sale of my bass after all the paypal shit.
My life
swimming up and downs in waves
like sound waves
hitting the walls of my head
only to bounce back
forever
and ever
and evermore
It's my decision
to tune it in
or tune it out
to turn it in
or turn it without the need of scrutiny
my love
is love
whether I shine the light on it or not
either I recognize my own beauty in things that I put beauty in
or not
I am
I am
whether I want to believe in myself or not
thats the unique thing about things
I can believe myself out of existance
but I am my biggest contradiction
cuz whether I am
or not, even though I am
I am...
something.
I believe in my own existance.
Do you in yours?
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Try THIS for KIXX!!!
Pick the MONTH that you were born & color of your eyes and put it on the SUBJECT LINE. Then re-post it AS YOUR OWN BULLETIN. Your friends might understand you better
blue eyes - people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make new friends. will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care or love for, repost this if you have blue eyes, and you will find the one that you are ment to be with within the next 7 days.
brown eyes - people with brown eyes last the longest in relationships. they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards. if you repost this if you have brown eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days.
green eyes - people with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. you will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.
hazel eyes - people with hazel eyes have the most unusual relationships. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. if you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your new favorite technique of catching someone special!
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JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MOST HORNY OUT OF THEM ALL.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. GREAT KISSER will take you to the moon. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
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APRIL:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. hott but has brains.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. YOu have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - heck, youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitely more metal than anyone born in February.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
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SEPTEMBER:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
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DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize
blue eyes - people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make new friends. will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care or love for, repost this if you have blue eyes, and you will find the one that you are ment to be with within the next 7 days.
brown eyes - people with brown eyes last the longest in relationships. they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards. if you repost this if you have brown eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days.
green eyes - people with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. you will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.
hazel eyes - people with hazel eyes have the most unusual relationships. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. if you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your new favorite technique of catching someone special!
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JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MOST HORNY OUT OF THEM ALL.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. GREAT KISSER will take you to the moon. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.
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APRIL:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. hott but has brains.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. YOu have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - heck, youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitely more metal than anyone born in February.
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
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SEPTEMBER:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
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DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize
Did somebody say crack????
yup....on a caramel frappucino high!!!
And i gotz me a best buy gift card for 30 buckaroos compliments of the Roser family!
THANKS!!!
:-p
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
I'm...
getting in the mindset of going to work.
I get anxious and nervous, but i think its the part excitement of going to work, not knowing what to expect totally...
Here I am, drinking the rest of what was once hot chai tea, packing somethings in anticipation of getting the heck out of dodge in less than 29 days....and thus, the countdown begins...:-p
*goes to make messy bed up*
*and then gets ready for work*
*and then comes back*
bye!!
I get anxious and nervous, but i think its the part excitement of going to work, not knowing what to expect totally...
Here I am, drinking the rest of what was once hot chai tea, packing somethings in anticipation of getting the heck out of dodge in less than 29 days....and thus, the countdown begins...:-p
*goes to make messy bed up*
*and then gets ready for work*
*and then comes back*
bye!!
staples and ink wells
My day at work was a bit crap, but I wont go into details too much.
It's one of those aunt flo, headache-induced, lack of good sleep, don't want to be there kind of days. I was glad when 430 rolled around.
There was a time in the morning when I arrived at work and realized that I could not find my phone. It was either in the car, on the driveway at home, or in my house. So, i attacked the worst case scenario first by calling my dad and asking if he saw anything in the driveway. Nada. When I came home, I had my mom call my phone and i found it in the jeep I was driving in the back. *exhales*
Tomorrow, I work a pseudo-closing shift from 1pm to 9pm as bookseller(me thinks) so hopefully time flies by for Thursday. Thursday is when Valerie is going to come down from Michigan, pick my ass up, and we will be going to a dinner party for her work. Not only do i get free grub, but free travel, as well as a place to stay overnight. Im excited for the change of scenery! BRING IT ON!! I will then come back the next day and go to work from 11-530 and then again on saturday. On the days off, I will be ebaying it up!
I have one thing up for sale, my danelectro bass and so far, its going for 120. I am hoping for more than that, so all in good time. Next on my list to get rid of is an amp, if the time presents itself, and other little trinkets.
I was having a discussion with Jassen and I posed an interesting question.
What materialistic things could you not do without, when it came down to the bare minimum?
For me, it would be Berry(teddy bear from birth), La Mutt(toy dog from birth), and my baby blanket with cartoon children on it.
How about you guys?
Lay it on me.
;-)
It's one of those aunt flo, headache-induced, lack of good sleep, don't want to be there kind of days. I was glad when 430 rolled around.
There was a time in the morning when I arrived at work and realized that I could not find my phone. It was either in the car, on the driveway at home, or in my house. So, i attacked the worst case scenario first by calling my dad and asking if he saw anything in the driveway. Nada. When I came home, I had my mom call my phone and i found it in the jeep I was driving in the back. *exhales*
Tomorrow, I work a pseudo-closing shift from 1pm to 9pm as bookseller(me thinks) so hopefully time flies by for Thursday. Thursday is when Valerie is going to come down from Michigan, pick my ass up, and we will be going to a dinner party for her work. Not only do i get free grub, but free travel, as well as a place to stay overnight. Im excited for the change of scenery! BRING IT ON!! I will then come back the next day and go to work from 11-530 and then again on saturday. On the days off, I will be ebaying it up!
I have one thing up for sale, my danelectro bass and so far, its going for 120. I am hoping for more than that, so all in good time. Next on my list to get rid of is an amp, if the time presents itself, and other little trinkets.
I was having a discussion with Jassen and I posed an interesting question.
What materialistic things could you not do without, when it came down to the bare minimum?
For me, it would be Berry(teddy bear from birth), La Mutt(toy dog from birth), and my baby blanket with cartoon children on it.
How about you guys?
Lay it on me.
;-)
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
It's official...
I am going to be heading to London on the 9th of February for 6 months!!
I wonder how Barnes and Noble will take this? I like them, but do they like me enough to consider me either when I return or when seasonal rolls around once more? Should be interesting.
I worked in the cafe on friday and I do have to say that I really didnt care for it. In fact, all of the coffee that I was surrounded with, i swear entered into my pours and I got a caffeine headache from it!! No joke.
At the moment, I am convincing my sister to come visit the UK for a week in march. It would be so awesome and I am pushing her to also get a passport, cuz she is one of the 90% of americans without a passport.
I really dont feel so tired, but I do feel tired enough to try and sleep off this headache I have. There was more that I was going to blog about, but I leave that for when im more conscious.
Oh, i had a crazy dream, but Ill get back to that later!!
I wonder how Barnes and Noble will take this? I like them, but do they like me enough to consider me either when I return or when seasonal rolls around once more? Should be interesting.
I worked in the cafe on friday and I do have to say that I really didnt care for it. In fact, all of the coffee that I was surrounded with, i swear entered into my pours and I got a caffeine headache from it!! No joke.
At the moment, I am convincing my sister to come visit the UK for a week in march. It would be so awesome and I am pushing her to also get a passport, cuz she is one of the 90% of americans without a passport.
I really dont feel so tired, but I do feel tired enough to try and sleep off this headache I have. There was more that I was going to blog about, but I leave that for when im more conscious.
Oh, i had a crazy dream, but Ill get back to that later!!
Friday, January 06, 2006
And yes...
I smell good too!!
:-p
Here is todays Horrorscope!
"If you work in a helping profession, such as psychotherapy, you are probably breaking quite a few rules and protocols right about now, Jennifer. You may even be going against theories that you were a fundamental part of your education. Do not be troubled by your rebelliousness. It is important that the status quo be challenged from time to time. It is people like you who create advances in the field."
Hmm....interesting.:-)
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Disenchanted
by the distance
I am my biggest resistance
for happiness is under my sleeve
whether it is taken
or leaved
I am the choices I make
but I am not the choices I make
I am the transition to all things good and bad
a collander in the mix
I am the fruition of life and death
I am god on a holiday
I am a poor girl that has no family
but I have got the love of all of the families in the world
Its my choice
I am the ego
that will look above people
but I would be the one that people run to in order
to scrape off some advice
Life
I am
Death
I am
Choice
I am
or am I?
I am my biggest resistance
for happiness is under my sleeve
whether it is taken
or leaved
I am the choices I make
but I am not the choices I make
I am the transition to all things good and bad
a collander in the mix
I am the fruition of life and death
I am god on a holiday
I am a poor girl that has no family
but I have got the love of all of the families in the world
Its my choice
I am the ego
that will look above people
but I would be the one that people run to in order
to scrape off some advice
Life
I am
Death
I am
Choice
I am
or am I?
Good morning!
*Yawnz*
The time is now 722am.
I feel a bit more awake and refreshed as compared to the past few days. It's poo-ish when I dont get enough sleep and then the world becomes my enemy. *Growls*
I have decided to try a new thing and see how I feel over the next few weeks.
What it is...I am drinking more water, trying to refrain from so much caffeine and unnecessary sugars, taking apple cider vinegar tablets in the morning and around dinner time, eating more veggies and fruits, as well as stretching and meditation before sleep.
I was pretty good yesterday at doing this, so Ill try to keep it up and see if there is a change in my wellbeing/and/or attitude.
The reason why I am wanting to take on this little adventure, cuz I've come to the crossroads of the realization that I dwell too much in the negative, have a low self image of myself, and I want to make a choice or choices in my life that make my life a more positive one.
I have the tendency to sabotage relationships around me and honestly, that is not what I want to be about or known for. There is this weird feeling of fear that wells and swells inside, that from the inside out, it makes my skin feel on edge and almost sick like. It also feels like a weird case of being paralyzed, like I believe there to be some force inside, stopping me from growing as a person and learning more about myself and life, et cetera, and so on.
I really don't want to fear life because I have this weird sense of wanting to control things a little. When I was younger and even a bit today, I loved to organize and clean. This is all due to flushing out negativity that might have built up in the area, or for me to study and feel better about my environment, or to appease to my friends and family and get some kind of pat on the back for the accomplishment.
Its like bringing order to chaos, but I know, that that only lasts for so long, cuz chaos is the push, it's one of the biggest factors in life being the way it is.
How, i believe, will help me accept chaos more into my life, is by building myself up from the ground up. I feel floaty for the most part, kinda out there, and a bit ungrounded. Its not the nicest of feelings. So, in order to take on the world, I need to build faith into my bones, into myself. And I know this can be done, cuz I have been there once, and not so long ago.
I know I have it in me to be happy, cuz there really is no other way I should be. This is life. One time baby. Gotta make the best of it.
The time is now 722am.
I feel a bit more awake and refreshed as compared to the past few days. It's poo-ish when I dont get enough sleep and then the world becomes my enemy. *Growls*
I have decided to try a new thing and see how I feel over the next few weeks.
What it is...I am drinking more water, trying to refrain from so much caffeine and unnecessary sugars, taking apple cider vinegar tablets in the morning and around dinner time, eating more veggies and fruits, as well as stretching and meditation before sleep.
I was pretty good yesterday at doing this, so Ill try to keep it up and see if there is a change in my wellbeing/and/or attitude.
The reason why I am wanting to take on this little adventure, cuz I've come to the crossroads of the realization that I dwell too much in the negative, have a low self image of myself, and I want to make a choice or choices in my life that make my life a more positive one.
I have the tendency to sabotage relationships around me and honestly, that is not what I want to be about or known for. There is this weird feeling of fear that wells and swells inside, that from the inside out, it makes my skin feel on edge and almost sick like. It also feels like a weird case of being paralyzed, like I believe there to be some force inside, stopping me from growing as a person and learning more about myself and life, et cetera, and so on.
I really don't want to fear life because I have this weird sense of wanting to control things a little. When I was younger and even a bit today, I loved to organize and clean. This is all due to flushing out negativity that might have built up in the area, or for me to study and feel better about my environment, or to appease to my friends and family and get some kind of pat on the back for the accomplishment.
Its like bringing order to chaos, but I know, that that only lasts for so long, cuz chaos is the push, it's one of the biggest factors in life being the way it is.
How, i believe, will help me accept chaos more into my life, is by building myself up from the ground up. I feel floaty for the most part, kinda out there, and a bit ungrounded. Its not the nicest of feelings. So, in order to take on the world, I need to build faith into my bones, into myself. And I know this can be done, cuz I have been there once, and not so long ago.
I know I have it in me to be happy, cuz there really is no other way I should be. This is life. One time baby. Gotta make the best of it.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Just cuz...
I like to gross people out by public displays of affection...here ya goes!!
Oh my sweetie!! *sighs*
He is already back in the UK and has to get up for work in a matter of hours. I hope that it isnt too strenuous or on the opposite side of the spectrum (aka boring)!
Its been called to my attention at Barnes and Noble a full time position that involves 35 hours + and so far 2 people have approached me on it. One being an assistant manager and another being a co-worker. Both believe that I am qualified for the position and I would be good in it. No doubt that I would be, but I believe that with or without attempting for the position, it would only allow me a week to go to the UK to visit my honey, and frankly, one week is like having diarrhea, it all moves WAY too fast.
I would expect minimum of 2 weeks and if I got hired in under the Lead position, that would give me no chance or time off to even visit, and that is something I am not willing to put first before being with my honey, ya know? Don't get me wrong, Barnes and Noble is a nice place to work at, very positive et cetera, the co workers are fun to be around and all of that good stuff, but no offense, I put who and what I love first and foremost. Heck, in the state of INdiana, there is the hire/fire policy that allows people to quit when they want as well as get fired with no reason.
I am thinking that once February rolls around, that is when I will notify them of my 2 weeks, hope that they will consider me for seasonal at the end of the year again, and see if I can swindle a letter of recommendation, when it comes to when I will then again properly be allowed to work in the UK(when Jassen and I get hitched and I have a marriage visa that allows me to work)which wont be for AT LEAST a year and half. Eek! That is coming up isnt it?
*says in head* Jennifer Payen....Mrs.? Jennifer Payen? Haha...its kinda funny that Both Jassen and I would have similar intials...but I actually have a middle name, Leigh....Maybe he can pull a John and Yoko
ex.
John Ono Lennon
Yoko Ono Lennon
and even
Sean Ono Lennon
Har har..:-S
Or how about Jennifer Leigh Abbott-Payen
how funny it would be to have a hyphen in my name or maybe Jassen can have
Jassen Abbott-Payen(JAP)
Haha...I need to stop. I feel like im in elementary school, writing a notebook about my future last name. Anywho...yea...I think I am going to grab some high quality H20....water is the new caffeine...Jump on the bandwagon kiddies!!!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
HAPPY 2006!!
It's the new year!!
Cr8-Zness!!
Jassen, my mom, dad, and I brought in the new year by celebrating at home. Watched a bit of John Mayer and Train and even the New York ball droppin' with Dick Clark, poor guy!:-S
We had cheeses and crackers as well as fresh boiled shrimp with cocktail sauce, choice in beverages, and sparkling white grape juice to toast the new year.
I hope all of you have a happy and safe new beginnings of the year!!
x
Cr8-Zness!!
Jassen, my mom, dad, and I brought in the new year by celebrating at home. Watched a bit of John Mayer and Train and even the New York ball droppin' with Dick Clark, poor guy!:-S
We had cheeses and crackers as well as fresh boiled shrimp with cocktail sauce, choice in beverages, and sparkling white grape juice to toast the new year.
I hope all of you have a happy and safe new beginnings of the year!!
x
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