Conspiracy Theory:New Orleans

This is my conspiracy theory.

Ive been reading things online and now it has gotten to the point that inmates of a prison have a family of 4-5 taken hostage.

I believe that maybe this really isnt the case and in fact, it is just the government being sneaky by indirectly deterring people away from New Orleans. Reason being, there are so many people coming back to their underwater homes, trying to salvage possessions and the risk of more flooding is in the works. So, instead, they have to use the media to trick people into thinking that things are worse off than what they really are.

I thought about this in the shower just now. Just wanted to share.

:-p

Bumps in the road...

are merely catapults to the greater unknown.

Now, its going to take sometime to believe myself. My mind is one of the most stubborn pieces of equipment I own.

I know, underneath or overneath it all, i am "one heck of a lot of" a positive person. For real, but giving my self a chance to seize that daylight is like darkness letting light take the reins.

Today, Jassen encouraged me to do a bit of drawing. I havent done drawing in quite some time, so with coaxing, i drew Salt sleeping. It's cute and when i showed him the piece, he staaaaared and then soon after took a liking to my 4B pencil.

Most probably, Jassen and I will be heading out to watch a flick at the theatre. Also, its suppose to be about 32 degrees C, so very hot today. Im starting to feel it now, and its nearing the 1130 mark.

The music program isnt cooperating with me like it should, so i think a reinstall is in order later on, when Jassen makes his way back from the work day. Luckily, the files are saved, so not all is lost.

I FELT like everything was lost...but then i started to hum "Everything's not lost" by Coldplay.

When i think about it, when i am deep into an issue(problem), it is only when i step outside myself that i can then come to a point of having sympathy for myself and then move on, but only at that pt.

Im going to head off into some hypnosis, so ta!

Conversations w/ my boo

[Me]"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:24:24)
*hugs*

[Jassen]Yo says: (10:25:28)
*huuuuuugs*

Yo says: (10:25:35)
how are you my lovely?

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:26:09)
do you ever wonder if we are cheating ourselves, thinking that there is more to us and by that, not enjoy what is in front of you?

Yo says: (10:26:49)
yes!

Yo says: (10:27:04)
thats a concept I think I've shared with you before...

Yo says: (10:27:19)
and something in part that forms the reality in which we live...

Yo says: (10:27:24)
because there is a balance

Yo says: (10:27:33)
and sometimes its easy to get lost in one extreme or the other

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:27:43)
yea...

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:27:49)
i think there is more to us

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:27:53)
but i dwell on that alot

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:28:08)
its like...seeing the sketches for a built house

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:28:25)
but we are merely laying down the bricks and foundation in reality

Yo says: (10:28:56)
yeah...at the same time, we should pay attention to the bricks and foundation, and not only let it be a thought or dream

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:29:37)
like...actuality making the mortar or cement that makes the up the bricks, which makes up the foundations

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:29:40)
of things

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:29:54)
it is the little things..

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:29:56)


Yo says: (10:30:29)
yesh

Yo says: (10:30:30)


"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:30:50)
im going to copy this convo and put it in the blog

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:30:52)
if you dont mind

Yo says: (10:32:39)
I dont mind  I think it'll look good up there...

"Oh, my life has changed in oh-so many ways.." says: (10:36:46)
ok

--------------------------
Here is something that i wrote in a coldplay thread in response to a dude that majorly is pushing PETA beliefs.


The beauty in life is the choices we make when believing in the reality around us...

in order for one to respect another's opinion is to respect the one's opinion as well....

it works both ways...when it comes to the instant of extremes, be it good or evil, it is a two sided coin but ultimately the same.

L.a.s.t. d.a.y.

before the last day of the month.

It's so freaky how time passes, kinda like what LiZa was saying in her blog

"Time keeps on slippin, slippin, slippin,...into the fuuuuture!"

A little Steve Miller for ya, or a slice of Seal, which ever you prefer.


Here I am, in the early a.m., sippin' on gin and juice...hahaha, not really.
Im drinking some of the mystic chai tea drink that i actually gave to Jassen's dad, but i dont think he cared for the taste too much, so its been up to me and Jassen using it up. There is another container to go, so im glad about that.

Lately, when i have nothing else better to do, i question my worth and matter to the world. Right now, im not feeling oh so great. I think it is because ive been trained to believe that being productive and getting things done is what matters in life, so when i am up to a whole lotta nothing, i get down on myself, but really all im trying to enjoy just relaxing.

Once again, its a balance.

I wonder what goes through animals minds.

I recently just found out that cats are more like humans than dogs are to humans, in the sense that cats have more of the emotional sense like humans than dogs. Who would have thought.

Sinuses

suck!

Ever since first coming to England, over a year ago, ive started to experience something that i never had issues with before.

And that is...sinus.

It sucks, really bad, especially the pressure that happens not only in my head,but sometimes get to the point where i feel it everywhere in my body. I know its not a case of being sick, so that's one thing to worry about less.

So, today, Jassen and I had intentions of going to the carnival thing but then we back out last minute. This was due to the fact that the many people that supposedly we were planning on meeting up with this year, all back out and had better things to do.

Another thing to note,...it is a bit ironic that with Hurricane Katrina hitting New Orleans and the issues with it being below sea level that it can be non-existant(might be right now), that there was the annual Carnival in London, which is a bit like Mardi Gras today. London also faces the same issues, being as the River Thames is also being held back, with manpower, and if some massive storm came through, London would have underwater problems as well.

I thought it ironic, so yeah.

Today or rather this evening, Jassen and I sat down to watch Fantastic Four. It was decent. Kinda had a spiderman appeal.:-p

Oh yeah..

You are Napoleon Dyanamite and a buttload of gangs
are trying to recruit you.


Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Irritated....

yep.

That is the state im in..

I hate when there are bouts of just numbness in my life....like im hanging on the sides of a whirlpool that will inevitably suck me dry. Maybe I stink and the fumes are getting to me?

Well, I watched the Majestic with Jim Carrey and it was a good old movie, kinda like one back in the 1940s/50s. I would recommend it if you ever have the time to watch a movie. Basically, it is about a screenwriter that ends up being blacklisted back in the day as being communist and ends up losing his memory after a car incident. He then is found on a beach and found by a dog and a man that then mistaken him to be a MIA soldier and takes him back to the town of Lawson.

It is a good movie and a different feel of a movie starring Jim Carrey. I am guessing that there was not much publicity on the movie because it was a much different genre of movie for Carrey to be in, but some of the crowd from the Truman show probably managed to watch it or any hard-core fan of Jimmy Boy.

So, here is when the point of irritation walked into the room....literally.

Reuben walks into the room, starts chatting away with Jassen about getting some kind of table from the garden. I wasnt really thinking too much on the fact that he was asking for the lawn furniture table that has a umbrella sticking out of it. I was thinking that it was a table that use to be in the living room since moved. So, Reuben is going on and on how he needs Jassen's help to move the table in the living room. Now, first off, that aint gonna happen.

Here is the reason why i got so irritated at this. I first like to let people know that Ive spent alot of time and effort straightening up the house, feng shui-in it up, and making it more visitor friendly. I am very particular about how things are arrange, etc. In other words, im a bit of a neat freak, plus i like a clean environment cuz it makes me feel more at peace and I can think less about the state of it and more on what matters. If that makes sense.

All in all, Ive majorly cleaned up Jassen's bedroom, cleaned up the loft(attic) to make it more of a cozy bedroom, ive straightened downstairs into a more spacious living area and better vibes can be felt in this. Put together a tv stand that took a few hours to do to make the tv and 4 games systems look very nice. Ive straightened up the kitchen a wee bit as well as put together LAWN furniture that was not being used cuz of it taking time and effort to put together(i did this on my own accord).

So, needless to say, i get a bit bitchy and frustrated when people dont clean up after themselves when ive put so much effort into things being nice on the eyes.

What does R do? He thinks that he is going to put and mixing console and 2 sets of turntables in the living room next to the tv...I.....DONT....THINK.....SO!! What an eye sore that is and terrible spot if that. What if people are wanting to watch the tv, a movie, or wanting to play video games??

It makes no sense...GAWD!! I hate teenagers...i hated being one myself.

Then he has the audacity to say that he was going to use the lawntable as his music area and im like...HELL NO! It's for the garden, for the enjoyment of guest, and where the hell am I to go when i just want to escape the clutches of the house?? It just wouldnt be comfortable outside plus i am not getting the respect of putting it together and make the garden rather nice.

So, maybe...just maybe you would see my frustrations....i wasnt just mean about it...i offered other ideas, rather than the table.

I know its not my house, but im staying here and the only one that appreciates my efforts really is my boo and maybe J's dad, besides that, nobody gives a flying leap, except me. :-S

here lies frustation....*grumbles*

Being Jennifer Abbott

Last night, Jassen and I had some friends over, Iain and Ada. They are a lovely bubbly couple and fun to chill with.

For the evening, we met up with the two at Wood Green tube station, then headed back to the house to order a dominos pizza and watch a movie.

For the pizza, there was a vegetarian one as well as a bbq chicken pizza, potato wedges, and some garlic bread. All this was then washed down with coca-cola classic. Yummmmy.

For the movie, we had rented two options. Either it was going to be The Majestic with Jim Carrey or Being John Malkovich. Since all four of us had not seen the entire movie before, we decided on Malkovich. What a messed up sort of movie, but it was funny cuz it was soooo freakin weird.

Another thing about the movie and the actors, the main character, who was John Cusack, looks alot like my first bf, so needless to say, i had a weird dream last night because of it.

In the dream, there was the former bf and i was showing off the fact that I was dating Jassen and semi-rubbed it in his face. The odd part of the dream was in it, i was suggesting that we had been dating for 2 years, when in all actuality it has been over a year and a few months.

But yea, back to the night-in. While we were eating pizza, Salt and Pepper were hanging out downstairs. Salt then JUMPS, head first, into the bbq pizza. No sooner did he attempt the flight, i then SWOOOP his butt up and rushed him up stairs to put him in the room. I let him stay up there for about 20 mins so that he would calm down and maybe learn his lesson.

It was kinda funny that he did that, but at the same time, there was quite the shock value about the whole thing.

As soon as Jassen and I get up to greet the day, we are going to watch The Majestic to see what that was all about.

Peas.

Update to Krispy Kremes Complaint

Here is the letter we recieved:

Dear Jassen,

Thank you for your letter--it was very descriptive and very helpful.

I absolutely agree that there is confusion about the expiry on the free dozen offer and on the competition entry, and the expiry of the competition entry is much more prominent that the expiry of the actual Krispy Kreme voucher which is in the small print at the bottom.

I designed the form and am sincerely appreciative of your comment which will ensue I do a better job next time. I'm sorry I didn't get it right the first time.

You are entered for the competition which will be drawn on Wednesday. And I enclose a voucher for a free dozen doughnuts which i hope will compenstate for your disappointment.


_____

WOO HOO!!! :-)

Let me tell ya a little story...

it's a true story and a bit creepy, at that.

Okay. I don't know how many of you believe in ghosts and spirits, but let me share an experience with you.

Where i live, Enfield is the american equivalent of a county, I live in the district of Edmonton, which is in the city of London.

Enfield is known as one of the most haunted areas in the world. Back in war times, Enfield was the maker and suppler of many war weapons, so that in its self is a bit creepy.

Anywho, one day, Jassen and I were moving around furniture in his room, to get a better since of feng shui *sp.

We were just standing near the wardrobe when all of a sudden we felt a draft. Thing was, no doors or windows were open in the room. First, it was Jassen in line that felt the draft. I was right behind him and then I got goosepimples.

We both looked at each other in a puzzled manner and thought the same thing. Ghosts, if they cross through you, sometimes have a chill about them. Not only did this happen once, but a few times.

There was another time when Jassen experienced the same on his own as well.

One night, Jassen looked over to where the computer was and he heard a noise which sounded like some kind of really old woman or a creature. And this creature was half weeping and half cackling.

The figure then floated around the bed, past me, and over to his side. It then bent closer towards him and it felt as though he had to gasp for air that he was lacking.

After about 3 minutes or so, the figure then backed up and left out of the door. The way the figure moved was as if it was floating and it was a bit like the character Ringraith/Nazgul in LORD OF THE RINGS one of the nine kings.

Funny thing was that Jassen didnt tell me about this until after something similar happened to me....

I was sleeping but i had a feeling that my eyes were a bit open. I could see the door from where i was laying, so either it was a very lucid dream, or like i said, i had my eyes a bit open while i was dreaming. I was watching the door in the anticipation that something was going to come through it. All of a sudden the door slowly opened and a hooded character, not quite sure if it was a man or a woman, it floated towards my side of the bed. I couldnt quite see its face and it was the scariest and most paralyzing feeling that ive ever had. Kind of like when you have a dream and you try to run but you cant.

The figure then came to my right hand side and bent down and i felt like it had a knife and was going to stab me. I closed my eyes and could still feel its presence. It was just about ready to attack me, i classically woke up.

I felt like i couldnt breathe so i woke up Jassen and told him what i had experienced. He then looked at me wide-eyed and a bit in shock and told me what he had experienced about a month prior.

More than likely, it was a ghost or spirit or evil entity that was in the room and wanted both of us to take notice. Havent heard or saw of it since *knocks on wood*

Similarities were that we were both on the left hand side of the bed when this happened to both of us, we both had issues with breathing, as well as when we felt that strange draft near the wardrobe, so maybe there is some type of negative source of porthole in that area.

Scary.

Cold bananas

I had given Jassen a banana for work but he didnt end up eating it and had it in his snacky bag upon coming home.
So, i put it in the fridge.

This morning, i got the nana out and ate it.
It was sooo good. Don't get me wrong. I've eaten cold bananas before, but this tasted really good first thing in the morning.

Last night, I had a bit of a scare, but let me set up the story first.

Jassen and I decided that we wanted to have friends over this weekend. So, what we plan on doing is going into the thicker part of London, grab take out and all come back home to watch a movie.

Last night, we decided to go to Blockbastards and pick up a selection of 2-3. We walked there and walked back and in total, it took us probably an hour.

We get home and we notice that Reuben's window was open. I went on and on about the fact that I hope that the door isnt open so that the kittens wouldnt get the wrong idea.

We walk into the house.

It's all quiet.

:-S

I turn on the light in the dining room to scope out a view of the kits. Not there.

I go upstairs after Jassen, he checks the bedroom. No kittens.

I daSH upstairs to see if they were hanging about in the loft. Not a sausage.

Jassen runs downstairs to check again. Jassen's dad opens his bedroom door and starts looking for them in the kitchen.

I run back upstairs to look in reuben's room. Nothing

At this time, i am panicking quietly. I was a bit tired and didnt want to accept the fact they might have gotten out somehow.

I run into Jassen's dad's room and look about when FINALLY i look behind the sofa chair.

PEPPER!! I shouted, "I FOUND ONE!"

I here the scrurrying of feet upstairs, pick up pepper and hold her tight, then asked where he brother was. He was underneath the arm of the chair. He looked a bit depressed and i had to grab him from underneath.

Jassen's dad had no clue that Salt and Pepper were in the room with him. I am guessing that the kits were thirsty cuz i put them in front of a water bowl and they went to town.

It kinda eerks me that J's dad had no clue that they were in there and id wish he would be a little more cognant of that fact. I know the kits dont belong to him, but he should at least check or not close the door.

*shrugs*

All is well now, and the two plates of love are just chillin like villians.

mmm...apples

I am eating one of the most delicious apples in quite a small patch of time.

It's nummy!!

I think I am having one of those weeks when I get little to nothing done besides playing catch up with sleep.

I mean, the kits did tire me out big time the first week I had them, but
now they are sweetly adjusting to our sleeping patterns.

It's cute, when they are ready for bed, they get soooo sleepy, but they stay awake until we
are ready for bed. Kinda the same way my friend Val's kit waits for her, but they don't meow at the fact that
they are being kept awake.

I should make a little list of things to accomplish today.

1.) Nap

Well, i got that one out of the way!!:-p

2.)Exercise and stretch

15 minutes of stairstepping love and 10 of strength training/stretching
I'm actually going to do this one in about 20 mins cuz then i reward myself with...

3.)Take a shower and get the stanky bo banky smell off and become SQUEAKY clean

4.)Straighten up the bedroom

a.)make bed

b.)clear dishes

c.)wipe up any messes

d.)sweep floor

5.) I am really wanting to read more of Potter(Half-Blood Prince), cuz I been severely lacking a good read
and want to know what will happen next.

6.)Make a list of things to purchase for friends coming over later this weekend

7.)Work on a song and hope that logic express doesnt produce another one of those
"spinning balls of death"

Don't know why the program is being all buggy on me.

*cue sad face*

---------------

I am going to set myself up with a goal to finish a song, cuz when im not in the mood or dont
feel inspired or in the right frame of mind, i get all lazy and relaxed but then I cant really
enjoy my relaxation period because i feel like i need to accomplish something.

Sometimes I believe that its more of my dad's voice and will inside me that wants to accomplish and sometimes I
wonder what my world would be like if i didnt aspire to be something greater than myself...
when really i should appreciate myself and who i am now...

Do you ever wonder why you find yourself at particular points in your life?

One day, you think the world is great
but then the next second,
the second you let some negative thought or worry in the door,
that it seems to ruin the whole essence of "the world is wonderful" feeling...
and it's HARD for you to compare the bad feeling and to see it as a way to
make the good feeling higher on the pedestal cuz YOU KNOW you are worth
better thoughts, but you fight that?

Hope you all followed that.

This is often my state of mind.

Questioning when something good happens
and then setting itself up to fail with backward negative thinking?

:-S I guess its like one of those things you realize after many many years that
other people seemed to have picked up earlier on in life.

Going back to the happiest moments in my life....

Honestly, i know it sounds sappy, but when Jassen and I realized our feelings for one another
was sincerely one of the happiest days and times of my life.

There was electricity in the air or something on that day.

I had been wanting to go to Stonehenge and what better day than the summer solstice.

It look a car ride to get there and Jassen's dad was nice enough to drive us there. Reuben also came along,
although he was suppose to go to school. So, here we were driving to some ancient rocks, but not before we could stop at this temple that Jassen's dad wanted us to go to.

It was beautifully structured and made of marble that was made in India and then shipped over by the tons. We were walking around without shoes and had men and women sections to store them. I was sooo afraid that someone was going to take off with my shoes, but that wasnt the case.

We were then separated, so sexist, the men up front and the women and children behind. I talked with a girl who was 20 years old but I forgot where from. I was wearing some jeans that im sure were giving people a show of my crack o'delight, so i hope that was enjoyed. :-p

We then went up front to walk near these statues that were guarded and then walked about the gardens outside after. I have a cheesy picture somewhere of me vanna white-ing some flowers. Jassen and I posed for pictures in front of the temple and also at some gate looking areas.

***I will provide pictures so that it can be more visually interpretated***

So, then we might have had McD at this point, but im not too certain. Jassen will have to intervene cuz im sure he'll know.:-)

During either car ride there or back or both...my memory is shite!!:-p....i decided to tickle him, cuz i felt like being touchy.

When i did, Jassen grabbed my hand and tried to push me away, in a playful manner of course, cuz he is uber ticklish! He then attempted doing the same and this went on for quite sometime. Playful brushing and touching of the hands and tickling.

What i found strangely arousing was the fact that I could feel his energy radiating off of him, so i started playing with his hands by making circles with my fingers in the palm of his hands.

I know this is a sensitive spot cuz this is where a minor chakra is on the body. I then softly touched his wrists and made a to and fro movement up and down his arm and he did the same to me. SENSITIVE!!! And when it came to the eye contact, it had me blushing. Our faces were slowly edging closer and closer to one another in the anticipation of a kiss, but that would have been a bit weird to kiss while in the car with not only his father but his little brother that kept on saying...J! J! J! Trying to get his attention, but not looking in the backseat at all,but Jassen's focus happened to be on something or rather on someone else.:-p

But the warmth that I felt in my heart and how so much i longed to be in that moment for as long as possible, it was a wonderful realization of both of us being sensitive to each other's energies and actually feel the channeling of it.

You may all now think im talking crazies, but im sure if you are in a relationship, you feel that closeness, kinship, and love of the other person in some form of energy and thoughts. It's a really special thing. And when you have that, it makes a relationship that much better, cuz its like having a secret power of the universe and you allow that love to flow into it.

Anywho...i need to exercise the demons and, well...EXERCISE!!

Ta.

Movies, etc. with my boo

Here is a list that i am in the process of composing of Movies, etc. that ive seen with my boo. Of course, I have seen and done others, but thats an entirely different list.

IN the theatre:

Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Garden State(2x)
Star Wars III
Skeleton Key
Wedding Crashers
The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
Constantine
Unleashed
War of the Worlds
Finding Neverland
Napolean Dynamite
Madagascar
The Perfect Catch
The 40 year-old Virgin
The Longest Yard
The Man
Must Love Dogs

At home:

K-Pax
Sliding Doors
Life of Brian
Clash of the Titans
DragonBall: The series
Meet the Fockers
I <3 Huckabees
Donnie Darko
Vanilla Sky
Big Fish
The Mask
Boat trip
Hitched
Life As a House
A Hard Days Night
Help!
Short Circuit
Beatles Anthology 1-3
Signs
Sponge Bob Square Pants Movie
Elf
Edward Scissorhands
Ed Wood
BeetleJuice
Pee Wee’s Big Adventure
Sleepy Hollow
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Harry Potter 1-3(2x)
Star Wars: Episode 4- A New Hope
Kung Fu Hustle
Team America
Sin City
City of God(Most of it on my part)
Unico
DragonBall Z: 100 episodes together
Me, Myself, and Irene
Lord of the Rings:1-3
Aladdin
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Emperor's New Groove
The Island
The Truman Show
Being John Malkovich
The Majestic
Fantastic Four
The Notebook
House of Flying Daggers
Run Lola Run
Robin Hood:Men in tights(J hated it)
Hellboy
The Prophesy
Family Guy(Episodes 1-7)
The Ghost and Mrs Muir
American Beauty
Hook
To Kill a Mockingbird
The Life Aquatic starring Steve Zissou

Theatre(as in play)
A life in the Theatre(with Patrick Stewart and Joshua Jackson)

Museums:
Science and Industry

Public Attractions:
Places all over London
London Eye
Stonehenge(kinda twice)
Navy PiER
Water Tower Place
Marshall Fields
Hershey Kiss Store :-P
Indianapolis
Music Mill


Festivals:
Glastonbury 2004
V Festival 2004
Glastonbury 2005
Mauritian Day Chingford 2005

Concerts:
Guster
Coldplay
Stereophonics
Elbow(Leaders of the Freeworld dvd premiere)
Doves
Sigur Ros

I will add on to this, no doubt, when i think of more.:-)

Question of the Day

What is your life's motto?

And yes, you CAN have more than one.

I guess for me it's:

Trying to make a difference with everyone I meet.

Holy POO!!

I totally did not post yesterday, which is a first for me considering i have been posting on it for a few weeks now, nearing a month.

It was just one of those days yesterday...so uninspired and all that I did for the majority of the day was chill, relax in bed, play with the kits, sleep and surf around for free stuff.

I really think that it had something to do with the weather and it was affecting the kits as well.

To make up for it, Jassen and I headed off to the movies to watch The Perfect Catch, which was a cute and funny movies. Definitely a bit different, fo sure.

The sucky part was that the popcorn was stale. So we went back to exchange, and that one was stale as well, so there was a bit of a mess on the floor from fishing to the bottom to see if there was anything fresher to munch on.

Im glad that we got m&ms to eat as well.

We then hiked over to Krispy Kremes for their wonderful doughnuts but had an issue, so here is the complaint letter.


----------------------
To James Morgan or Other:

It was a bit upsetting the last time I visited the Krispy Kremes based in Enfield(receipt enclosed as proof of last visit).

A few weeks prior, I picked up one of your Wedding Crashers leaflets (which is also enclosed for usage) that suggested that upon purchasing one set of dozen of your tasty doughnuts, that another dozen would be received, free of charge. This is all good and plenty and a rather nice deal, but then there was a catch.

After the movies, it is tradition for my girlfriend and I to trek over to Krispy Kremes and enjoy some of your doughnuts. So, as you can see, I am a regular customer. With the Wedding Crashers leaflet in hand and a smile upon my face, I proceeded to use the offer, since it was good until 26/08/2005.

Not only did my so-thought permanent smile vacate from my face, but also a frown took residence upon my girlfriend’s.

We were told by one of your male employees that they were no longer accepting the offer. With a bit of shock pulsating through my veins, I asked to talk to someone else about it to make for certain, because that didn’t seem fair. A female worker then came up to us to repeat the same bad news verbatim.

With disappointed looks upon our faces, we then asked why they weren’t accepting the offers any longer, and it was suggested to us that the offer was taken out of the stores some weeks back. We then asked for a contact number, but the only thing that was suggested was for us to send off the offer via post, so this should be postmarked for either 25th or 26th of August.

If I had known about this sooner, I would have sent out for the offer a dog’s age ago. Now, I feel that I have strapped Hermes wings (Messenger of the Greek Gods who had wings upon his feet) to this offer in the form of a complaint letter.

One note of suggestion; please let customers know that the offer no longer is being accepted by posting a sign when ordering doughnuts or better yet, don’t make an offer that you can’t keep. Needless to say, this whole occurrence put a damper on my spirits.

I hope with an understanding mind, you will see from my perspective on the issue and rectify it appropriately. I am sure that I was not the only one that had to deal with this issue, so please do what is right and make the Krispy Kreme experience a much better thing to enjoy.

----------

Ill let you know the outcome.

Question No. 138

What was the most perfect that youve experienced in your life?

Like, when everything went right and there were no qualms?

Mine was 21-06-04, when Jassen and I fell for each other when going to Stonehenge.
Senior Prom
Graduating from High School and College
25-08-04 cuz....:-p
When I turned 5.....30-05-86
When I turned 10.. 30-05-91 and had my first sleepover
Playing on tires at my pre-school with my friend Daniel
Going to England 18-06-04


Im sure ive had more, but those just stick out for me.

Hazzzzzy Days!

Yesterday was SUCH a blur. I guess sometimes I feel like its a karma thing or a weather thing. A Karma thing in the respect that maybe I did something wrong and thus my day has to be a bit pantsies and weather-wise cuz we are dealing with different pressure systems. I mean, even the kittens had a bit of poo-ish attitudes, so that might be the case.

It was bad.

There was a point in the evening when I came upstairs to check on the kits and i smelt something so awwwwful. I looked at Pepper and then at Salt and then the bed as well as the ground the closet. POOO!!!! It totally made my stomach into a pair of flip flops at the beach.

Yea..it loooked a bit like Salt had diarhea or something. I think he was just stating the fact that maybe the litter was a bit tooo shallow or needed to be changed. At least I am hoping that was the case. So, like i said POOOO everywhere including Salt. So, we haaad to get it off him..Took him in the bath, didnt put the shower nozzle directly on him...scooped the water, etc. and he was freeaaaking out. He ended up giving Jassen a scratch the length of the back of his hand that bled. We then towel dried him and let him shake and lick himself off while in the bathroom away from drafts. We then, mostly Jassen, did major clean up and now have moved the litter box to the stairwell going up to the loft. There is less traffic there and more or less, the kittens are the ones that run up and down the stairs.

Now, the room is cleeean, new sheets, and a nice coconut smell. I can breathe!!!!
I guess in a way, a bad thing turned good, as now the room is in better condition. I think from now on, its only going to be dry food and water and treats in the form of snacks and wet food. Wet food as the main course sucks has the same smell both before the meal and after the meal, if you can smell what im whiffin.

I had a better night sleep, even though i got up around 4 am probably a result of the caffeine intake i had hours before.

I know that I had a rather strange dream, cuz i woke up only about at 930am, which is a bit late for me. It will come back to me and I will share the drandomness.

:-)

go wild!!!

I lost my flow!!

Come back....

Please?

It suckles when that happens. I am in the process of going over a song that was not consolidated together(its tracks put together in one file) and then it corrupted, so now i am piecing the puzzle back together at the moment and adding new tracks as well.

It's doing my head in a bit, cuz i lost the initial flow, so its hard to get back into it. I wonder if its just mental blockage on my part or if there really is a sense of initial flow with something.

I mean, another example could be, if you are in the mood to get down and dirty, then one of youz had to pee instead, the flow kinda breaks, no?

It's kinda the same thing or another example of what im trying to get at.

The catch about all of this moaning and commotion is that whilst i got frustrated with myself, i then started on a different flow and began a new song. So now, i have that idea down. It's just a matter of completing the idea into something feasible.

I wish that there was more time in the day, a longer life to get things that are needed done, and so on.

Frustration....:-/

arghee la la!!

I have a bit of a slight cramp in my foot.

It's more of a dulling roar of pain but nonetheless its there, it exists, and it has my attention.

I guess thats the pain in having feet that go flat to the ground below me.

Did you know that babies are flat footed when they are born?

Random factoid, yo.

Jassen and I went out to Central London yesterday, which included going to Leicester Square and Piccadilly Circus Areas. I have visit central so many times that i more or less have a map in my head of the area. It's crazy how close some things are to one another. I guess London seems bigger since there is an underground train, so it takes up space in a vertical kind of way as well.

We went to McDonalds for a bite to eat since they had a buy one get one quarter pounder/big mac(I always confuse the two, cuz they seem the same to me)....We then headed towards the Apple Mac Store and got a screen cleaner, which is a godsend and now there are no signs of dust and crap on it....yay!

Starbucks was then in order, so i had a caramel frap, Jassen a mint mocha, and we shared a chocolate cake that was quite yummy. Here is when Jassen was giving me a pep talk about worrying less about things, cuz it just ages you...and not forgetting to mention, take the life out of you! I did feel better afterwards, so that was a good pepping!

We then went to a store called GAME and got a 4th nintendo cube pad, so that there can be 4 people playing mario kart at a time, now.:-p Fun times....Fun times..:-)


And then we headed to Virgin Megastore on Oxford Street to go play with Pianos and Logic Pro 7, but they didnt have apple loops available, so that erked me a bit.:-/ Jassen was teaching me a bit of a ragtime song and we had an audience of a woman and her child in a stroller/push cart.

We then made our way back home, taking Tottenham Court tube on the central, crossed over at Holborn to the Piccadilly line and then got back that way...

It seemed like the streets in London were NOT so busy. I guess the bauuuming does put a bit of a damper on things. It was nice to have more elbow room so i guess more London for me!!

I guess recently, ive been beginning to think more and more about the prospect of going back to the states, without Jassen. It's just really a drag, but I've asked a good friend named Valerie to ask her boss if i could have the opportunity to work shipping at an old navy. I think I would only have myself available on weekdays, and with that attempt to get a job for the weekends. All in a days work. Im at the point where I am needing to save up money, if i want to get back to England, or whatever i pursue months down the road, i just need the cash, for student loans and insurance. Im blessed with the fact that I dont have to pay rent when living at my folks or at Jassen's so that makes me quite the happy camper. So save save save, i shall. The cool bit is that since i might be getting the chance to work at old navy, that i would just have to carpool with Val and cut costs on the price of gas, so thats a nice thing.

My sister has been in the process of selling my car for like over 6 months now. It's a little irritating that she isnt pushing for it to be sold, but my mom is under the impression that she is wanting to buy it for herself. If thats the case, it would be nice to have 100$ payments per month for a year to cover the cost of the car, cuz it is really a nice, non-gas guzzler of a car, my little 91 nissan sentra...Ive had it for 5 years already and it served me well on getting to work and going to school. Eventually, i will get another car when i have the money and can afford the insurance, but until then, more than likely i will be using my dad's set of wheels while he is out of the country. After that, i havent the faintest idea as to what ill do. :-P

Life is greeaat!!

Ta!

Realization No. 512

C A T
F A R T S
S T I I I I INK!!

And Tonight's award goes to..

for most fcuked up dream ever...

ME!!!

Yea....Okay, it started like this...I was walking about when i was approached by a black man about having to put a tube from my butt to my mouth in order to give birth.

I really don't think that I was going to be giving birth to humans and the whole thing was just a bit off. There was going to be people around me that were going to help, but I was a bit confused as to what. Hold me down as I unearthed a monster?

It felt like i was only the surigate mother and that I wasnt going to be keeping these newborns to myself. I was persuaded to lie down and when i felt that it was coming near to the time, i would call in the troops to stick the tube up my booty and out my mouth.

I then dreamt that i was a soldier of sometype, going through rooms of the ex-presidents, but the thing was it only got up to about a little past Lincoln, who was the 16th president. I would pop into rooms and see younger people working on saying speeches that the presidents said and there were big crowds. Megan McLeod, school mate that was also big into the Beatles, was the one acting in this one as well as wearing a suit. I half thought that I could do the same.

There was this oversized fellow that was frozen in fight position as I neared a place that looked like my house at home and he has a battle ax/shears and was attacking people. It was a bit like a battle field but i couldnt be too sure. I felt an overwhelming sense that the world was going to be coming to an end.

There was an atomic explosion or so i thought and there was a girl that i was chatting with and an overhead voice describing what was going on. It was a bit weird, but i remember the colour of the cloud being orange.

I was running about when all of a sudden I was sitting in my living room, with a few people i didnt know, a girl AND a guy on the couch and my mom walking about. I was going to be paid 15,000 for my time in the army and i was planning in my head to pay off my loan and i just fucked up in real life...

*some time later*

I forgot to schedule a payment for one of my loans...the stupid ass thing to do was that its scheduled to be paid on a sunday, so i dont understand as to why that should be the case...The bank isnt going to authorize the payment until the next working business day....so, now...i have to pay about 20 more dollars a month, cuz of my fuck up.

*dies*

Just one of those days..

It's Saturday. It's 953 in the am...and here I am.

It's been a while since i properly wrote an entry. Most of the recent ones have been cat oriented, but that's what im obsessed with at the moment. They really do demand alot of attention and its hard to resist the cute-ness factor. :-S

Jassen is being a sweetheart and making some toast and tea. Im a bit hungry so i look forward to it!

Today is Reuben's 16th bday. It's weird to think that ive been through two incarnations of his birthday already. Time sure flies.

I don't know if ive ever shared my theory on here but this is my concept of time, in a visual sort of perspective.

I believe that life and time is a bit like the shape of a tornado, the funnel kind, so id like to call this my funnel theory by Jennifer Abbott. Think of it as sliding down a tornado slide.

In the beginning, when we are born,we start sliding down the slide.... time seems to move slowly, we absorb more things as well as its thicker at the top. As time progresses, and we move down the tornado slide, it begins to thin, and things expotentially move faster, until the end, we collapse on the ground and cease to exist, at least in this form.

Kinda weird but that's how i see it in my noggin.

----------------------------

Jassen and I went to go see Unleashed last night, with Jet Li and Morgan Freeman. It was a decent flick, so if you want some action with a plot, id suggest ya'all go and see it!

I was impartial to see Bewitched, but I heard the reviews of it arent so great, so we opted for an action movie.

Well, it's almost breakfast time. Lata!

Cat-Pak

They are so gosh darn cute. Pepper coming atcha!!!



And a dash of Salt!

Separation Anxiety

This is from a thread i made on the Coldplay Message board and I didnt feel like retyping it out, so here goes..

Jassen and I felt the need to separate the rascals upon going to bed. We left Salt in Jassen's dad's room and we took Pepper.

At first, she cried a little but was over it in like 10 minutes and we went to get an update in J's dad's room and Salt was cryyyying...

I think the boy kitten is much more sensitive than Pepper. Pepper is sooo much more adorable with her brother not around and much more affectionate, so tonight, J and I will take on Salt to see how he reacts in a room with us, without Pepper.

I love them but they take up sooo much of your time..

Im a bit of a worrier, so im making sure that they dont get into too much of a sticky situation.
_________________

I am already noticing a change with Pepper. I think she thinks that Salt is a little too rough with her and since putting them both back in the room together, she seems semi-standoff-ish with him. I mean, they still run and chase and jump all over each other, but you can smell the difference one night alone made. I think they are starting to become a slight more independent, but hey....its hard to say, this is only day 4.

:-p

OY!!!

My little kitties are being right boogers today!

This morning, at 415 in the morning, they were running all over the joint. They are not as timid as they first were and I swear they have grown some since Tuesday night.:-S

Today, the claws came out, at least for Salt's case. He has long and sharp claws and they hurt a bit. I was attempting to keep them awake all day, so that at night, they could be on our schedule, but at about 130, i gave up. I am sooo plum tuckered out and I want some alone time with my Jassen that doesnt involve kits nibbling at your toes like they are mice wearing a catnip lay.

:-S

OH my LOVELIES!

*nuff said*

High Paw!!

I've given birth...

to two wonderful kittens...Jassen and I adopted them from an animal shelter and had to go through a few steps to get them. First, we had to visit the place, then pick out the kittens(they came in pairs and are bro and sis). Then a person from the shelter had to come visit the house to make sure it was fit for the cats. We had to sign adoption papers on Tuesday and we brought them home last night.:-)

This here is Salt. He's the boy and he was a white nose, hence Salt.




And
Here is Pepper and she has a white patch on her back that looks a bit like pepper.






They are ADORABLE and its soooo freakin hard to take pictures of them, since they are moving in every which direction 24/7.

Didn't really sleep that much, but they are too cute not to watch.

I've never had a pet before like this, so Im ecstatic!!!

Oh,...this was my Top Secret Mission, btw.

:-p

Oh my...

"You might be feeling a little on edge today, though you're not be quite sure why. You may start at unexpected noises, or think you see or hear things that aren't there. No, Jennifer, you're not going crazy - this is caused by the current planetary constellation. The best way to exorcise this jumpiness is to get out and get some exercise, or at least take a walk. In the evening: Read a book that engrosses you."

well,folks...this is my horoscope for today and id say its been right on target...

:-S

10th planet found!

I recall hearing about this a few years ago, but i guess now there is enough evidence to actually say.

*feels even smaller in the universe*

Now, it's coming to the time of naming the planet respectively. Awesomely enough, they are thinking of naming it Persephone, who is the daughter of Demeter(Goddess of the Harvest). Persephone's Dad was Zeus(go fig/ the gigalo.)

She was suppose to be one of the most beautiful woman and had the magnet of everyone loving her. Hades(Pluto in roman), which is also the name of our "9th planet" wanted her big time. So, one spring day, Persephone was picking flowers when all of a sudden the earth cracked open like a can of pop and Hades(Pluto) tapped that as....err grabbed her and took him down to the underworld.

The only ones to see this happen was Zeus and Helios(god of the sun, likes to ride chariots in the sky), being as they had the vantage point of Mt. Olympus, which was said to be a day an a half fall, Just ask Hephaistos.:-p I guess the other gods and goddesses were out and about meddling in people's lives.

Now, Demeter was sooooo depressed about her daughter and in dire need of some prozac. Helios then chose this opportune time to come down to gossip. When she heard this, spring was no longer and things refused to grow. It became winter.(seasonal depression me thinks)

Zeus didnt like the looks of things so he then sent Hermes(messenger of the gods) down to Hades to check out the scene. Hermes the lackey then told Hades(Pluto) that Persephone was to be set free,cuz things are a bit out of balance on the surface. Hades agreed but not before he could make Persephone eat a pomegranate, which would assure her to be down there with him to be his queen for 1/3 the year. The funny thing is that her mama told her not to eat anything down in the underworld ever, but silly girl dont listen.

According to the Greeks, this was the reason for seasons.

In addition to...

I just found out that in accordance to Old Norse legend...a mare is not a horse in a bad dream but known as a mara.....picture this...it is a demon that has the tendency to sit its butt on the person sleeping chest and force them to have bad dreams..

I remember seeing a picture of this, so ill hunt it down.


alright, found it!



Here is a painting done by the famous Henry Fuseli and the title is "The Nightmare". It was painted around 1781 and I believe that would have been during the romantism era. I remember seeing this in my Art History course and thought it uber creepy, but it logged itself in my brain. The demon looking thing that is sitting on her chest is an Incubus(sound familar?) and in the shadows you can also see a mare. I think its a clash of all sorts of things.

Origin of Nightmares

Hmm....something tells me this concept is based off of greek myth.

Let us see if I can find the derivative of it..

*whistles and gets her google on*

Hmm...one of the things i found was that nightmares are derived from that of a female horse..

*hears crickets and stares*

The Celtic folks thought that a horse goddess, Epona or Mare, brought her horses and they appeared to be black and white.

I'll look into it more.

I just had one of those overwhelming paranoid dream, where everything thats bad, happens. First it was my mom and i. I felt like we had some distance between one another and she seemed like a tourist coming to visit. I was with a friend and she was sitting down, like it was a convention. Her and I then walked together when the mountain we were on was starting to have lava and you could sense that it was going to collapse from beneath us.

As we were walking about the stalls, my mom stopped and told a gent to include info on bladder infections in a book that he was writing, but she believed that he wouldnt mention it.

We walked on and then there was a darker section, where I was walking about and saw old teachers such as my 5th grade teacher. There was snow on the ground and it was dark outside. Slight tinges of colour. I then was chucked out of my house, or what i thought to be my house and my dad was coming after me. I tried hiding in the snow, but he found me like a flopping white fish on black sand.

I then felt like i was near a mountain top, but in a room at the same time and Steve, Jassen's older brother was trying to break into my bedroom and yell at me about something. I then said to Jassen that I really didnt care for his brother and that he was a bit scary and barged in when it wasnt his place. It was weiiiiird.

I think it was about this time that i decided to wake up and man, was i paranoid!!

Man, i neeed rest. :-S

Good Morning People!!

*waves and blows kisses*

So, I had an interesting start of the morning. I had an awful realization dream and it made me wake up crying.

It was one of those dreams where you realize that time will be up for things in life and then you need to figure out another path to start walking on.

My dream consisted of me going back to the states, without Jassen and not having him there to hug or kiss whenever. The truth is, in October, I WILL be going back to the states without Jassen and will not have him there to hug or kiss whenever. So, the truth of the matter is there. It's a bit shocking and sucky when you start thinking along these lines, especially in dreams...it seems like your senses are heightened and a bit trapped in a thought youd rather not think about. It got to the point in my dream when i was just standing in front of an empty convienence store, just thinking and feeling like I was back overseas without my honey.:-( So much sadness and rush of emotions were flying everywhich way.

When I woke up, i was dwelling still in that thought, trying to come awake and free myself and the way i did it was with tears. I then turned to Jassen and said to him, 'I had a bad dream..." and then told him the same. I could tell that he knew right away I was upset, but it was good to get those thoughts off my chest.

See, the relationship with Jassen is really not so much based on an internet long distance. I came over here last June/July(as friends), we fell for one another, i came back in mid-august, he then came in October, and then i went on the BUNAC scheme in December, we both then came back to the states to visit family in May/June and Ive been living here since. I mean, there have been times apart, but its not really considered a long distance relationship when we are spending so much time together. At least, thats my definition of the whole ordeal.

Jassen's intent is to get a working visa in some form, so that eventually he can make his way over to the states. I am really not the biggest fan of London, probably cuz im more of a small town girl, so i feel like a small fish in these parts, but the learning experience of the people and places and Jassen has been worth the ride.

I question myself, as to whether or not I could see myself living here as a norm. I would say that I would have to have multiple homes or places that I could rest my feet, ex. House in UK, family house in US/Apartment, etc.

I think its a sense of freedom that i still have to have establish, if that makes sense.
The flexibility and the capability to be in places that i would like to be.
Not forgetting to mention, my goal to work on music and get myself out there.

So many things to balance in life. I guess thats the whole point. Maintaining balance and every once in a while, tipping the scales for fun.

More to come...

Interesting Factoid!!

Did you know....

female mute swans helped to name the modern day pen?

Apparently, back in the day of ink and quills, female mute swan feathers were used as writing materials...A female swan is known as a pen and a male a cob. Anywho, at first, the quills were called pen quills and then after quill pens....

cool fact!

Part 3

Excellent results of Plan 2...will procede to part 4 on tuesday and will notify all results..

(will provide pictorial PROOF)

*is really excited*

;-)

First Post of the Day

Part 1 was stating that I have a secret mission

and

Part 2 now involves Jassen and I using transport to get to a place.

I will let all know if good results are made possible.

Man, the dreams ive been having..

issues issues issues...

One of the parts I remember was getting on one of those escalator's that are flat that can be found in airports. I went on one of those and was going at lightning speed..

I think i was on a quest to find Jassen's dad a seat at some convention, but his dad had a different name.

I then get to these seats that are for the head people of the convention and I was sitting up there along side the lot of them. Jassen was then found at my left and there was a dude adjacent from me that was commenting, as I ate, on how my nose was leaking.

It was gross and snotty leakage for sure and the dude was like...aww...how cute...and im like, uhhh..no?

THEN He was picking at the food I was eating at the same time I was trying to get Jassen's attention, so the freak would go away.

Eventually, the scene changed and Jassen and I were walking along this country-ish area, with other random people walking about. It felt like it was some sort of festival and then all of a sudden, lightning struck!!

Now, the weird bit about this lightning was the fact that it seemed to be frozen in place. Jassen and I then went to the lightning and examined it. Jassen then was the brave one and touched it to see what would happen.

It was like sand and it crumbled to the ground. It was really cool.

There was colour in my dream...lots of light blues and such...it felt like i was in Super Mario world...:-S

That's all i got now..

in neeeeeed of a shower..

*holds nose*

:-P

*Makes an entry*

hahahahahaha...

get it?
entry??

ahahahahasha

yea.....anywho, I havent written today and its weiiiiiird.

I am on a top secret mission in search of something wonderful.

If i stumble and fall upon this remarkable feat, i will disclose the details to all.

Until then, ponder away my children...PONDER a....way.

My boo is looking over my shoulder now, and its a bit intimidating.

Like, he is a performance checker or something.

Quit smiling.

Seriously...that smirk....

Uh huh...I see yur casual glances.

Trying to make me think you arent looking.

Hey!! Get that pen out of your nose.

I think you just did that so that i would write it down.

*he yawns*

Uh huh... I know how your mind works.

*He gets frustrated and twirls pen*

Anywho.....more later.

To the game cube!!!

An ode to my boo

to my boo
i love you
and you love me too
poo poo pee doo

I think about you night and day
i love you so much
sometimes its hard to say

boo boo you mean the world
if i was a guy
heck, youd be my girl

boo be doo
i belong to you
heart and soul
BELIEVE it to be true

peace, hommies.

im outtie.

*adjusts cap*

I love lists!!

So here is one:

Things I want in life


I want to make differences in every one I meet in life
I want to love as much as I can
I want to not fear life
Not hurt people along the way
I want to be as healthy as can be each day
Also, drink enough water
I would like to be even more technologically inclined
I want to create songs for a living
I would like to write a book/script
I would like to travel to India/Himalayas
I would love to travel to central/south america
I would like to travel in Europe:Belgium, France, Germany, Spain, Portugal, Poland
I would like to have a pet: cat or dog
I would like to have my own Powerbook G4 or beyond
I would like Logic Pro 7
I would like a really nice looking journal to write in
I would like more Bath-n-body sprays
I would like the entire Harry Potter collection 1-7
I would like to meet more people that I talk with online
I would like more clothes that scream ME!
I would like fluffy pillows
I would like another pair of glasses
I would like my own fancy camera
I would like to complete my Boxcar Children set
I would like to have a more extensive DVD collection
I would like my own designed house
I would like a forest green coloured VW Beetle

So funny: Try this!!

1. Go on the google search engine

2. Type in "Failure"


HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

Someone posted this on the coldplay mb so thats where I got the idea from.

Conspiracy Theory: London Bombz

Click Here to see a message board that is discussing the subject on whether or not the photo of the bombers was a fake and tampered with. Interesting read. I mean, from reading other sites, maybe this hoax has been created by the same people that did the pentagon years back.

Look at guy in white hat. Now, look at rails going through guy in white hat. ?????

What do you think?



*shurgs*

Take 37

Oy oy oy!!

So, here in london town, it has been predicted that today is suppose to be the hottest day of the summer. Well, the thing that gets me a bit tiffy is the fact that they predicted the EXACT day of the year as to which this would happen. Now, here is the thing, they had this "predicted" for months and let me tell you something about predictions that far in advance.....

YOU CAN"T PREDICT MORE THAN 5-7 days in ADVANCE DUE TO TOOO MANY VARIABLES THAT CAN HAPPEN BETWEEN NOW AND THEN!!!!

There,...i said it...it's a bit OFF of my chest, but a bit irritating that meteorologists around these parts are making themselves look dumb....does the UK have a version of the farmer's almanac? :-S

+ Well, ive been having strange dreams again. It's hard to remember all of it, but the one section that stood out was me passing by a convienence store and backtracking to go inside and drool down all the boxes of little debbie snacks..It was baaaaad.

There was also a section where I was walking around in a bit of a deserted street trying to get to a destination(that i never reached, go fig...:-p)

I remember parts when i was dressed up as something gothic and was trying to go down to the subway to get to some sort of field trip presentation. I went into a store with this black dude and we were just chilling towards the back of the store, he was on his back talking and i was sitting native indian(american) style. I think we were trying to escape from some sort of baddy that liked to strike people down with lightning, so we were being very caustic.

I think he ended up striking someone down(the baddy that is) and it was sad. *raises eyebrow and coughs*

That's all i can really detail at the moment, since my dream was a bit hazy. There might have been robbers in my dream as well *shurgs*

+It was funny though...there was a point in the early morning that i started to wake up and was a little shocked to feel arms around me. And then i stirred a bit more awake and realized it was Jassen being a clobber monster.:-P After that initial
shock, i curled deeper into his arms and zonked out again.

+I have a love of extra mature chedder. It's awesome. The end.

+I ended up finishing the Change Your Life in 7 Days book by Paul McKenna and it was rather good.

Here are my values in life(just to share) that i created.

1. I am wanting to make a difference in the lives of others
2. I try not fear life
3. I love and enjoy myself
4. I love others around me
5. I try my darndest not to hurt people along the way

There is also a section where you create your big dreams and a timeline to achieve them.

So here are my 7 goals to my dream:

1. Have Logic undersood(music program)<4 months>
2. Create songs(works in progress)<6-12 months>
3. Showcase Myself<1-1.5yrs>
4. Record/Produce with more definition as seen by a producer<1-2 yrs>
5. Advertize self(which is different from showcase, cuz this is after the fact of being produced, etc.)<1-3 yrs>
6. Release the hounds( Get my music to the masses)<1-3 yrs>
7. Tour <1-4 yrs>

So, yep....dreams told.:-)

There was alot of visualizing involved and i will continue to apply that knowledge throughout.


+Hugs to my boo and family-n-friends too!!!

+ AhHH!! I just went on AIM to realize my friend Darren was in my dream as well. He and I were also running from the baddies and he was scared. And that's all i can recall.

The end.

Twisted Nursery Songs

I got this little number from Japhlaum and thought it HILARIOUS!!

JACK AND JILL WENT UP THE HILL
TO HAVE A LITTLE FUN
JILL FORGOT TO TAKE HER PILL
AND NOW THEY HAVE A SON

Hahahahahaha!

Yea, cheap thrills.....cheap thrills....

+Now, moving right along*coughs and sits up straighter*

Seriously, I've been having messed up dreams. I am not going to go in great detail of it, but one of the main issues in it was a weird occurence between that of an old man and his wife.

I was in a bedroom and was more of an outsider looking in.

Apparently, the old woman had bit the curb and kicked the bucket.

All of a sudden, there was this dude, whom I proposed to be death and he was explaining to the old man that he had to take her, in public to a certain place in order for her to move on. So, whilst this is happening, somehow the man learns a life lesson, and with that his wife comes back to life and they time travel back 10 years. Now, they have 10 more years to live with one another, knowing what had just happened.

I think the only drawback was that they had switched bodies in the process of traveling back 10 years and had to live with that for the rest of their time.

Another weird bit was that continuing from that, i felt like a spirit wandering around. I walked into Jassen's bedroom, but it was sunny out and no body else was in the room. I was fixing up the bed for me to climb back into, yet the whole while, it just felt so damn lucid. It was like I was excepting the fact that I will die someday and when it happens, full speed ahead.

+I think now is a big time of change for alot of people, especially if they are dreaming of the concepts of death.

I think for me, i have been cocooned for a while and now, the death of my time in the cocoon is coming or is drawing to a close and its a matter of excepting that. I have been more productive than i have been for quite some time, so its nice that Im getting my butt in gear in that respects.

+ I like how my friend V uses "+" to separate her thoughts, so im stealing it from her cuz its looks so nice and neat, yo.

+Anywho, yesterday was a slow day and I wasn't sooo productive being as I wanted to relax.
I wanted to do some work in logic, because I have a small handful of songs in the mix, one entitled "biobeat". It is a working title, but we shall see what the future brings with name changes, if any. I just need a bit of spit and shine on the baby, a better sense of an intro, change the levels on the vocals, and add a few other tracks, and I will figure out how to link up the tune for youz all to hear and comment, etc.

50 nifty united...

states.

I saw this on WhitneyC123 about which states one has been to
in the states, so i decided to try it out as well.

bold the states you've been to, underline the states you've lived in and italicize the state you're in now...

Alabama / Alaska / Arizona / Arkansas/ California / Colorado / Connecticut / Delaware / Florida / Georgia / Hawaii / Idaho / Illinois / Indiana / Iowa / Kansas / Kentucky / Louisiana / Maine / Maryland / Massachusetts / Michigan / Minnesota / Mississippi / Missouri / Montana / Nebraska / Nevada / New Hampshire / New Jersey / New Mexico / New York / North Carolina / North Dakota / Ohio / Oklahoma / Oregon / Pennsylvania / Rhode Island / South Carolina / South Dakota / Tennessee / Texas / Utah / Vermont / Virginia / Washington / West Virginia / Wisconsin / Wyoming / Washington D.C. /

Go HERE to have a form generate the HTML for you.


I've also been to the Caribbean twice and the Scotland once, and UK(on a whole) four times and have lived here for a total of 9.5 months since last June.

Live has been interesting.:-)

Yes, Dudes...

It's official....im on the google search engine under....you've guessed it!! JENSIEVE!!

Thanks Crystal and Liza for linkaging me on your sites!!

Cheers!!

*one happy camper*

A really cool quote!!

This is from a speech that Steve Jobs(creator of macintosh computers) did at a university graduation.

"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."

I like that approach to things. I believe that things happen for a reason, but so often i focus so hard on reaching from one dot to the next. You are the product of your past and connecting of the dots. I like this quote very much.

And another test

just so that i can get ireland's flag off of my profile.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

hahaha...I always find tests interesting....This test is rather stiff considering I would be classified with high histor-something or another and sczh-pally-doo-hickey.

People love to put things down to a science, bite-sized, and boring.

A dreaded quiz

yea....couldnt resist out of curiousity.

You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soak>ed, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing.  You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice.  You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
 You really don't like snakes.
Take the Country Quiz at
the Blue Pyramid

:-p

Dependency on Foreign Oils

It's so seemingly complicated.

Gas prices are going up and up in the states and an argument is going on in the coldplay forum.

here ----> http://forums.coldplay.com/viewtopic.php?t=33556

Im StarlitePrism, btw ;-)

There are so many things that run through my head.

I guess right now, the argument is going towards the direction that with higher efficient vehicles on the road, in the us, will prove reduction in foreign dependency on oil.

I believe that we have too much of a dependency of foreign oils and should rely on our own natural resources as well as technologies to free ourselves from the ties that bind, especially from the middle east.

Please feel free to peruse the Coldplay Message board on the above topic. It is an interesting discussion with many sides, as well as dumbasses that hate the world, but kinda funny in a way.

Here are some stats:

Crude Oil Imports (Top 15 Countries)
(Thousand Barrels per Day)
Country May-05 Apr-05 YTD 2005 May-04 Jan - May 2004
MEXICO 1,748 1,541 1,559 1,666 1,583
CANADA 1,722 1,676 1,586 1,646 1,601
SAUDI ARABIA 1,430 1,449 1,512 1,493 1,374
VENEZUELA 1,273 1,391 1,336 1,371 1,336
NIGERIA 1,111 1,130 1,046 1,189 1,087
IRAQ 588 542 536 674 661
ANGOLA 341 365 436 384 319
ECUADOR 238 240 289 271 200
KUWAIT 213 164 186 273 226
UNITED KINGDOM 194 256 219 250 254
RUSSIA 185 464 280 142 86
ALGERIA 152 232 175 234 195
NORWAY 117 137 128 206 174
COLOMBIA 116 183 126 173 152
BRAZIL 115 36 54 16 50

Total Imports of Petroleum (Top 15 Countries)
(Thousand Barrels per Day)
Country May-05 Apr-05 YTD 2005 May-04 Jan - May 2004
CANADA 2,188 2,190 2,123 2,087 2,121
MEXICO 1,826 1,632 1,640 1,751 1,654
VENEZUELA 1,574 1,567 1,582 1,603 1,588
SAUDI ARABIA 1,526 1,494 1,573 1,519 1,417
NIGERIA 1,214 1,243 1,134 1,270 1,167
IRAQ 588 542 536 674 664
ALGERIA 449 467 431 495 445
VIRGIN ISLANDS 367 358 327 328 303
ANGOLA 353 365 446 405 329
UNITED KINGDOM 345 394 361 439 397
RUSSIA 325 645 445 194 209
ECUADOR 238 261 294 271 213
NORWAY 229 250 226 298 260
KUWAIT 219 164 196 278 234
NETHERLANDS 178 113 109 95 109
Note: The data in the tables above exclude oil imports into the U.S. territories.


http://www.eia.doe.gov/pub/oil_gas/petroleum/data_publication
s/company_level_imports/current/import.html

Picture Page!

This first picture is of me chilling to the sounds of saga music that was being performed on stage at an annual Mauritians Day in Chingsford.



This next photograph is me pouting, sitting near Jassen's dad's car cuz I really didnt want to be there.



And this is me....lookin oriental.



This pic is my shoes to the left and sasha(the dog) to the right. Strange thing is that earlier I was thinking about cat's named Sasha and how common THAT is.

Horo-time

"Try to stay disciplined and focused today, Jennifer. This may be easier said than done, but it is crucial for preserving your sanity. There is a restrictive, weighty air to the day that may put a damper on your usual jovial nature. Instead of getting down on yourself and your emotions, use this energy to your advantage and make order out of the chaos in your life. Eat a healthy meal and share your thoughts with others.''

YUP! Been feeling awfully apathetic as of late, but i have the motivation and drive to get things done....it's weird.:-S

Death is overrated

Seriously. I think it is. So many people worry their lives away on its approach.

Think about it this way, if you can.

When you die, you don't suffer death for all eternity, it is just a mere passing moment, a transition from one state of being into the next. I think we fear the change into something unknown, at least we think to be unknown.

I am one to believe that when we die, we arent gone. Reason being, there were points after family members deaths that i felt I had a close encounter with.

When I was younger, every once in a while, I would see my grandma strolling down the hallway near the bedroom area. Sometimes I can feel presences of things around me that left to be unseen, and there was one time that helped to affirm my belief in the life here after.

One evening, i was sitting in my bed, feeling miserable about something that had happened during my day...i really cant remember what cuz this was aaaages ago. So, there I was, looking towards the window in my room, the sun was nearly, if not already set and I started to get the feeling that I wasnt alone in the room. About a year prior, my dad's dad had passed on. Now, my grandpa lived with us until my early teens and then he had a stroke and that knocked quite alot of wind out of him, as well as his sight, et cetera. For such a wonderful and funny human being, he was suffering a great deal more than he deserved. Then the first of December either about 5 or 6 years ago now, he was in the hospice due to his internal organs shutting down. It's crazy to think, as I was looking at a phamplet*sp* that went through the process of what happens when the organs start turning off in ones body as their live pear shapes to a means of an end.

My sister and I had decided not to go to the hospice, cuz the time was drawing near and I really didnt want to see him go or have that lasting impression of my grandfather drifting into a unknown and not seeing him again.

My mom and my dad were at my grandfather's side, when he(his name was Frank, fyi) became so wide eyed as though he were looking at something and smiling. My dad being privey to understanding more of the unknown, if you get my drift, saw/knew that what he was staring at was none other than those that had passed before him and guides and angels that have been there for him during his life time. Now, for those that are a bit skeptic by the info prior, this might change your tune with what i say next. Now, sometimes when people suffer strokes, body parts et cetera are left paralyzed from the shock of it. In this case, my grandpa's left arm had been paralyzed for close to 2 months at that point.

Now, after the point in which my grandpa started to become awfully alert of his surroundings, he looked at my dad that was at his bedside, he then lifted his arm that had been paralyzed for 2 MONTHS and put it on my dad's hand.

My parents then came home, and for some reason, i felt the need to be strong and not cry about my grandfather's death. My sister, dad, and I were all in a group hug, but I was the only one not crying, cuz i wanted to be there for my family.

At the wake, my sister had come up with the idea, that in tribute to my grandpa's life that she would play, 'you are the sunshine of my life' on her saxophone, accompanied by my father, so we set up gear next to the coffin. It was more of a celebration of his life, and we expect he would have wanted nothing less. So, when it came to the point for me to go up, I had decided to sing 'Angel' by Sarah Mclachlan, cuz it was the tune I always sang at gigs with my dad and was use to, and thought appropriate.

I got up to the front, which was more of a left of front, where the piano was set up and stood by my dad. I started to sing Angel, but then it got to the second verse. Now, you recall how I said i didnt cry when my grandpa died and felt the need to be strong for the family? Well, this was my official breaking point, in front of 100 or so people.

As i was singing, i was choking on my tears that bursted out of nowhere and the words became more of a struggle as I was ppushing them out of me, along with gurglings of my sobs, all the while trying to breath. And what didnt help the cause, was that when i was looking out for some comfort in the people before me, there was not a dry eye or face that I could cling on to, which propeled me deeper into heaves of sobs and snotted bliss.

I then got a hug from my dad, who was maintaining his composer rather badly and gave me the tightiest squeeze of my life, but it didnt matter cuz i had no breath in me to push out. I went to my mom and sister and got hugs as well and maybe just as tight. It was a happy-sad moment, but I had finally released inside of me what i had been holding on, the emotion that wanted to escape out of me, so as to not hurt me any longer.

Just before though, one thing that i noticed when my dad was getting up to do my grandpa's eulogy, out of more than the corner of my eye, plain daylight if it must be said, i noticed something moving along the sides of the funeral hall room. It was clear, but i still noticed it and it moved towards the front. As I was watching it trail up to the front, it then got behind my dad. Now, how my dad was standing in front, there was a white wall. With this white wall, i could already see his aura, which is the hazy bits around any living object that can be noticed if you relax your eyes just above someone. Now, my dad's aura at that time was a bit tall, but once this figure went behind my dad, this aura shot up about 3-4 feet about his head. No joke. From my own eyes.

After the ceremony, I asked my mom and sister. "Did you guys happen to notice something..." and before I could complete my thought, my mom and sister said, "yes!" My sister, my mom, and Nora(a family friend and fellow clairvoyant) all quoted the same events happening, so it just wasnt for my eyes.

So that was one definite proof of something after this life. OOPS!! I forgot to finish the first story but jumped into this one...

Okay, so back to me being in my room, miserable and its evening by this time. I was just chilling in my room when all of a sudden I felt a presence. I looked near the window and i saw a strange hazy bit of light that wasnt quite in form and when i asked my self,something answered right away....what i started to ask my self was, who was this? and before i could complete, i KNEW that it was my grandpa visiting, letting himself be known that he was still around looking over the family.

I believe that its not us that should worry so much about loved ones passed, it is more of the fact that passed loved ones worry about us and what we do with our lives, cuz they are already on the otherside and know what its like.

So, this is one of my entries for the day...talk later.

Straight up!

So, it was Dhaya's birthday today, Jassen's cousin, and Daynah, who is Jassen's second cousin had a hot iron and was doing rounds of hair straightening, so I had a bit of a daring streak in me and got it done.

Quite the contrast from my usual curly locks.

Alright. Bed time awaits.

Goodnight all!

*cues moon*

Great scotttt!!

Just to update you guys, i have created a sister station, kinda like when MTV peeps came out with VH1, so if you feel the need for more sieving of the Jen, Jensieve II can be found here.

It's a bit rough, i need to learn the ropes, but it should pose an interesting and hopefully fun challenge.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/starliteprism/

Waking up is the hardest thing to do

Waking up in the morning, i can't help but think about how I go about compressing the days that trail behind.

It's as though dreams main purpose is to wash over past events, to sort, and to polish, and only the events that shine after the wash, are the ones that remain rolling around in our minds.

It's a bit frustrating, not maintaining a lasting photographic image of the histories in our lives. If we did have the option of remembering everything in crystal clear presentation, would you take it?

If I had an on/off switch for it, I would be game, fo sure, but I guess that's just not how the human body processes things.

I've been having the oddest of dreams as of late and I lay blame on the weather for acting so gosh darn bipolar. It's been so chilly lately, a bit like early spring.

There is suppose to be a drought coming up, so that will definitely be a change of place here. I wish that there was a way to just have a nice balance to the weather; not too hot, not too cold, about 76-80 degrees F would be ideal. Maybe that's why old folks move closer to the equator. :-S

Yes, Folks...

it's that time A-gain!

"Your heart is going pitter-patter, Jennifer, and you are tempted to escape into a romance-fantasy-land in which you play the starring princess role. The bad news is that something may be trying to hold you back today. It could be that evil is coming on the scene and reminding you that work needs to be done here on Earth before you can go off into your own little fairy tale world."

BUT i waaaant to the princess!! *throws down crown and wand*

Today while be an interesting one. I am going to a Mauritian funfair with Jassen and crew, so im gonna get a bit "cultured up" on things!

Well, Im off to listen to (DAY 6) of the hypnosis thang.

I managed to do the same thing again yesterday. During the cd, I fell asleep, and woke up right after the countup by Mckenna to wake up, restful and full of inner-g

*flies away* hehehe

Strange Dreams

Oh yea...strange funk KAY dreams. That is fooooo sure.

My dream this morning/last night consisted of tidal waves and tornadoes, the big TTs.:-p

It was so flippin livid. I was walking about as if I was in a camp. I believe that I was walking around with a few people both family and friends, alike.

When all of a sudden, as we approach the tent/house area where my family, etc had set up camp, I looked to the left and a shelf of water was heading our way. Now, this thing was about 75 stories high from the ground and I somewhat felt as though we were near a ahighway, the openess of it all.

The odd part about thisi tidal wave is that it was taking forever to come and wash over us. I was on the run to higher grounds along with Jassen's mom Devi, but then I soon found myself alone, running my little heart out.

Finally, and I really don't know how, cuz only in a dreams does Physics fling itself out a window, I reached the higher ground, and what i had been fearing to be the worst, happened. All of the tents and families had been drowned. Im not quite sure if everyone died, but there was lots water everywhere.

I then ran into a farmer that was up on the hill that I heroically managed to climb and in my mind, i realized that he took me in as an orphan and raised me for a wee while. Then for a short minute, I felt as though I was in a Little Caesar's pizza place wanting to get pizza, dont ask me why, answers have all went on vacation here.

So, it was soon after that I told the farmer dude, as I stood near some 2 feet high picket fences, that it was time to face the music and see how much damage there was from the floods, to see if anyone survived and if there were any source of belongings left. I looked on the horizon down towards the destruction and I was then distracted towards the east.

To my shock, i saw a twist of tornadoes dancing happily on the ground. The weird part about this is that they were summoned by the locals and people were dancing around them...YAY for destruction!! I guess..

So, of course, I wanted to go over there. The tornadoes kinda looked like pieces of string getting ready to be made into one of those funky bracelets that I was into making when I was like 12 years old. What a fad. Anywho, as I approached, I felt as though the people that had conjured up the tornadoes were under a spell or possessed to some degree. As they danced manically amongst the storms, none where picked up from the winds and continued their dance of appreciation on the surface. I then felt as though I was walking the backs of a marching band perform at a contest and that it was my band from years and years ago. It looked like so much fun! Strangeness...:-S

Then there came a point in the story that i was back in my neighbourhood, back in the states, when all of a sudden I saw my sister and Jordan, a neighbour boy from down the street. He had always had a crush and fascination with my sister growing, even though he is much younger, but here, she was playing in the yard with his family. The yard was a bit of a mess and I was trying to think who was missing. I believe it was the older sister Jodie, who i thought was so cool and nice until I heard stories about her from her younger brother Jordan, well...not directly from him, more from what my sister was told by Jordan.

So, there they were playing in the yard, chasing each other with younger family member's of Jordan, joining in the fun.

I started to think to myself and looked down in my hands. I started to get greeting cards and gifts from people, as though I had been injuried or in the hospital. I then looked up and I noticed that I was in a bit of a driveway that had walls like an alleyway, leading to a hospital. I had been injuryed somehow in London and I believe Jassen had as well, but somehow he had regressed in age and was like a 12 year old.

I then continued to look down at my cards and gifts and for a bday present Val had got me a purple looking purse that was medium sized and reallly nice looking as well as a gift card for $34 towards sundaes at Baskin Robbins, which equalled about 11-14 sundaes. The card that it said this on, there was an amount that said for $25 but that was crossed out and $34 written out. It was very nice of Val to give me that much when she mentioned she was low on funds.

There was another scene where I saw my dad and for some reason, he was jumping on the greeting card bandwagon and promoting the crap out of em by having balloons and wearing one on his head. :-S

He was sitting in his studio near the computer and was talking with me,but I could not really hear or understand what he was talking about...

All very strange....Strange dreams indeed!!

Jen in Motion

Upside-down girl in a mixed up world

the blood....
is rushing
tomyhead

*giggle fit*

Post Script(aka P.S.)

So, I did away with the video thing, cuz it was causing issues on, at least, my side of the spectrum. Everytime that I would preview the page, et cetera, an an "error in creating tmp file" would arise, so i got all my "permissions" up to speed and then took the bugger out.

I really didnt care for the fact that it gave little(rather no) options for people to turn the sound down. What also pushed me to rid my blog of the video was the simple fact that I was attempting to load a unky, which is some form of expression on how my day is going. Like a happy face that has happy written underneath it. But, ill just leave that to my blogging to describe those feelings, and have less clutter and mess on the site in front of you.

I am eating this divine candy bar which is called an orange truffle. Oh...i could die right now.....but i won't cuz its not worth it, and i dont know in death that I would be able to fuel my chocolate obsession and risk is not a factor in this game of fate and the unknown.

Alright....It's time to chill out to the voice of Mr. McKenna. I think after that, Ill read the Day 5 and then head for some Potter. Im still only about 16 pages into the 6th book, Half-blood prince, so I need to shake a leg and get a move on, eh?:-p

Alright Peeps. Hope all is well!

Adieu.....