tired
anxious
on edge
ill-prepared
lonely with my socialness
and content with worry.
Tension...from myself.
I want sleep, but does it want me?
I want storms, but will they ever be?
I know I am going to leave behind a present that Ive gotten use to.
Change is in the air, I look forward, but as always i confuse anxious with excitement. Twins but from different wombs.
My eyes are fluttering to the back of my head.
Better check that out.:-p
Night.
Monday, July 31, 2006
Saturday, July 29, 2006
I'm having...
one of those days where I feel frustrated and irritated and there is really no good reason for it...and then i get annoyed at the fact that Im frustrated and irritated for no reason, cuz there should be an answer to this question!
I think I just need to get out more.
Jassen and I are going to do just that!
Today, we are meeting up with some friends in central. We really dont have any plans in stone, but I found a feel things that might tickle our fancy!
There is a film short festival competition going on in the SOHO district and those events are free, so we might wander in that direction. Also there is a ben and jerry's festival with music that is, i believe near clapham common in which people can get free ice cream, etc and also there are activities near the London Eye, along the banks of the river Thames. So, I guess depending on what we are all in the mood for, will determine which direction we will take!
Hopefully the fresh(London air) will do me some good. Jassen and I will probably nip off to a Starbucks before we meet up with the pair...get a bit caffeinated!! Ive been craving a caramel frap.:-p
Lata!
x
I think I just need to get out more.
Jassen and I are going to do just that!
Today, we are meeting up with some friends in central. We really dont have any plans in stone, but I found a feel things that might tickle our fancy!
There is a film short festival competition going on in the SOHO district and those events are free, so we might wander in that direction. Also there is a ben and jerry's festival with music that is, i believe near clapham common in which people can get free ice cream, etc and also there are activities near the London Eye, along the banks of the river Thames. So, I guess depending on what we are all in the mood for, will determine which direction we will take!
Hopefully the fresh(London air) will do me some good. Jassen and I will probably nip off to a Starbucks before we meet up with the pair...get a bit caffeinated!! Ive been craving a caramel frap.:-p
Lata!
x
Friday, July 28, 2006
I had...
a really strange 2-part dream.
The first half, I was talking with Jassen and then I realized as I was sitting at the dinner table back at home, that I was pregnant. I looked down at my belly, not really seeing a bulge and rubbed it. I then felt myself outside near the neighbours house and I was thinking, I want coffee!! So, low and behold, I had a coffee in my hands. I then said outloud to whomever was around that I was going to take a few sips and it wouldnt hurt the baby(in reality, it is okay for a pregnant woman to have 1 thing of caffeine a day, like a coke or a coffee).
So,im walking around, figuring out when this little bugger was due. I also knew in my dream, that it wasnt an accident and I wanted it to happen. I wonder if my subconscious is trying to tell me something?? I do want kids someday, but I feel torn as to whether or not I would want them within a year or two of being married, or if Jassen and I should hold off and wait until my early thirties.
And then into the second dream, I was walking around looking at clothes in a department store that was uber cheap...i mean like five or six articles of clothing for like $10! I saw some pink stretchy pants and for some reason or another, I was attracted in getting them. Jassen was walking around with me when all of a sudden, I start to yell outloud at something in the big department store. I think i was complaining about something and it echoed really loud!!
I then think somehow I got in trouble for it. I knew somehow that I was going to be taken to trial for it, so i was with my folks, looking at evidence that might be held against me. I was looking over pictures of me, in which I look down right extroverted and it really didnt seem like me that much, but in my dream, i believe it to be me. So, my parents and I went into a chinese restaurant and before we got in to reserve seats and such, i stopped my dad and asked if he was paying for it with the credit card. I then told him we should go under different names and maybe pay with cash(i thought that part in my head). I didnt want a money trail.
Another thing that was bizarre is that the lawyers that were against me, all had a ritual of seeing musicals or plays prior to the trial. I didnt quite get it. I thought it a strange combination.
I then ended up waking up at 11...so, I officially had over 8.5 hours of sleep today. Something I am really not use to. And so, today is friday, there are no plans in affect, but I will see if somehow Jassen can text Raf and Robert, etc...and we could go out for some drinks.
Alrightee...Might write later.
Stay tuned!
:-p
The first half, I was talking with Jassen and then I realized as I was sitting at the dinner table back at home, that I was pregnant. I looked down at my belly, not really seeing a bulge and rubbed it. I then felt myself outside near the neighbours house and I was thinking, I want coffee!! So, low and behold, I had a coffee in my hands. I then said outloud to whomever was around that I was going to take a few sips and it wouldnt hurt the baby(in reality, it is okay for a pregnant woman to have 1 thing of caffeine a day, like a coke or a coffee).
So,im walking around, figuring out when this little bugger was due. I also knew in my dream, that it wasnt an accident and I wanted it to happen. I wonder if my subconscious is trying to tell me something?? I do want kids someday, but I feel torn as to whether or not I would want them within a year or two of being married, or if Jassen and I should hold off and wait until my early thirties.
And then into the second dream, I was walking around looking at clothes in a department store that was uber cheap...i mean like five or six articles of clothing for like $10! I saw some pink stretchy pants and for some reason or another, I was attracted in getting them. Jassen was walking around with me when all of a sudden, I start to yell outloud at something in the big department store. I think i was complaining about something and it echoed really loud!!
I then think somehow I got in trouble for it. I knew somehow that I was going to be taken to trial for it, so i was with my folks, looking at evidence that might be held against me. I was looking over pictures of me, in which I look down right extroverted and it really didnt seem like me that much, but in my dream, i believe it to be me. So, my parents and I went into a chinese restaurant and before we got in to reserve seats and such, i stopped my dad and asked if he was paying for it with the credit card. I then told him we should go under different names and maybe pay with cash(i thought that part in my head). I didnt want a money trail.
Another thing that was bizarre is that the lawyers that were against me, all had a ritual of seeing musicals or plays prior to the trial. I didnt quite get it. I thought it a strange combination.
I then ended up waking up at 11...so, I officially had over 8.5 hours of sleep today. Something I am really not use to. And so, today is friday, there are no plans in affect, but I will see if somehow Jassen can text Raf and Robert, etc...and we could go out for some drinks.
Alrightee...Might write later.
Stay tuned!
:-p
Thursday, July 27, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENSIEVE!!!!
Just a little blast from the blast, a year to be exact!
Man, things have changed and I love the fact that I have the capability of going back and reading over my thoughts and feelings. Its kinda like rememeber little things that you often forget or learning something new, even if its about yourself.
Like the saying goes, "time flies whilst having fun", I tend to agree with this. I love the internet and the person that first thought that blogging might be a new way to go about writing in a diary or a journal. It's kinda like those diaries I use to have as a kid growing up, minus the lock that never seemed to work or the key often lost.
Thanks to all my blog buddies, 1 that I actually met. And another, like Vishwa, that if Im ever in his neck of the woods, id be sure to look em up!
Thanks guys for making this a wonderful blogging year.
Cheers!
Jen
Dated from July 27th, 2005:
Do you ever wonder how long we linger between that of rest and being awake?? It is as though we hypnotize ourselves in order to break from the everyday flow of life, or own hidden sanctuary.
It is said, at least by the "experts", that dreams are like mail depots. This is where all the sorting and categorizing and understand takes place. There is so many ideas and things that we pick up while conscious, but it at night when we register and sort out all of the information that we've gathered, sometimes(at least in my case), gives us fcuked up dreams.
Take for instance, last night I dreamt of fat people, and when I say fat I mean massive like a ton(2,000 lbs), making out with one another. So, I moved on from where I was viewing this going on and skipped across a street. This is where I then found a sick Scottish terrier. He puked and I picked him up to take him home so that I could care for him to make it better. I was walking back to my house, cuz it was at that point as to which my hometown became the environment I was frolicking through, and to my surprise, the dog was able to walk on its own. So, as it did, I had the sneaky suspicion that it was talking with both my sister and I.
As we walked down on of the main roads of transport, it seemed as though the local YMCA turned into a loony farm. There was a clear shelter that was more upfront to the road, as compared to the YMCA in the background. In it, my first line of view saw the nurses and doctors all taking a break in the left corner of the complex, my eyes then followed from left to right to see a line of people, that have apparently lost at some point or another, all with placid looks as though they themselves did not exist and their shell of a life form was really a host for storing drugs.
It was soon after that I found my sister along with my self at the front door of my house. I walked in easily as I noticed that there was no longer a door on its hinges. The dog followed in but I wanted to make sure he was hidden so my folks wouldn't have a heartattack if they had seen him in the house. It was then when I realized that the dog did not want to cooperate, so I through him out the door, as it magically appeared out of nowhere. :-S
There is more to this dreamscape.
My dad then informed my sister and I that we were going to trek to the Antarctic and travel around on foot for 3 weeks. I think he was having a mid-life crisis in my dream!!
Man, things have changed and I love the fact that I have the capability of going back and reading over my thoughts and feelings. Its kinda like rememeber little things that you often forget or learning something new, even if its about yourself.
Like the saying goes, "time flies whilst having fun", I tend to agree with this. I love the internet and the person that first thought that blogging might be a new way to go about writing in a diary or a journal. It's kinda like those diaries I use to have as a kid growing up, minus the lock that never seemed to work or the key often lost.
Thanks to all my blog buddies, 1 that I actually met. And another, like Vishwa, that if Im ever in his neck of the woods, id be sure to look em up!
Thanks guys for making this a wonderful blogging year.
Cheers!
Jen
Dated from July 27th, 2005:
Do you ever wonder how long we linger between that of rest and being awake?? It is as though we hypnotize ourselves in order to break from the everyday flow of life, or own hidden sanctuary.
It is said, at least by the "experts", that dreams are like mail depots. This is where all the sorting and categorizing and understand takes place. There is so many ideas and things that we pick up while conscious, but it at night when we register and sort out all of the information that we've gathered, sometimes(at least in my case), gives us fcuked up dreams.
Take for instance, last night I dreamt of fat people, and when I say fat I mean massive like a ton(2,000 lbs), making out with one another. So, I moved on from where I was viewing this going on and skipped across a street. This is where I then found a sick Scottish terrier. He puked and I picked him up to take him home so that I could care for him to make it better. I was walking back to my house, cuz it was at that point as to which my hometown became the environment I was frolicking through, and to my surprise, the dog was able to walk on its own. So, as it did, I had the sneaky suspicion that it was talking with both my sister and I.
As we walked down on of the main roads of transport, it seemed as though the local YMCA turned into a loony farm. There was a clear shelter that was more upfront to the road, as compared to the YMCA in the background. In it, my first line of view saw the nurses and doctors all taking a break in the left corner of the complex, my eyes then followed from left to right to see a line of people, that have apparently lost at some point or another, all with placid looks as though they themselves did not exist and their shell of a life form was really a host for storing drugs.
It was soon after that I found my sister along with my self at the front door of my house. I walked in easily as I noticed that there was no longer a door on its hinges. The dog followed in but I wanted to make sure he was hidden so my folks wouldn't have a heartattack if they had seen him in the house. It was then when I realized that the dog did not want to cooperate, so I through him out the door, as it magically appeared out of nowhere. :-S
There is more to this dreamscape.
My dad then informed my sister and I that we were going to trek to the Antarctic and travel around on foot for 3 weeks. I think he was having a mid-life crisis in my dream!!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Saturday Nite's Alright!
Here are the pic I took with Jassen's camera phone, when we went out to Shoreditch, an area in London to a place called "thepool"!
I like the affect the neons had on the pics. It was a nice environment. The music was a bit loud, but I guess thats what you get for sitting near a speaker.
:-S
This is the basement area of the pub place, thepool. It was a rather nice environment for the evening with some djin music to coat the atmosphere. To the back and left, there was a small group of crazies that must have been on some sort of druggies, fo real!
Ah..I like this piccie alot. THe cushions look really delicious!
This is Jassen's cousin Jasen(yup, 1 s not 2) and he is a little more than a year younger than Jassen and I.
OH BUDDY! I love the angle and lighting of this. Makes me feel like Im at a beatnik party in the 50s/early 60s.*snaps fingers to a unheard beat* And yea, the foot at the bottom is mine.:-p
Awww...Yea, its two goobies at it again!:-S
Mmm...Hawtness!
And....a second helping...:-p
I am trying to plead Jassen to go out to the movies tonight and see The Break-Up with Jen Aniston and Mr Vaughan. I heard its good and not your typical chick flick. We may see!;-)
I like the affect the neons had on the pics. It was a nice environment. The music was a bit loud, but I guess thats what you get for sitting near a speaker.
:-S
This is the basement area of the pub place, thepool. It was a rather nice environment for the evening with some djin music to coat the atmosphere. To the back and left, there was a small group of crazies that must have been on some sort of druggies, fo real!
Ah..I like this piccie alot. THe cushions look really delicious!
This is Jassen's cousin Jasen(yup, 1 s not 2) and he is a little more than a year younger than Jassen and I.
OH BUDDY! I love the angle and lighting of this. Makes me feel like Im at a beatnik party in the 50s/early 60s.*snaps fingers to a unheard beat* And yea, the foot at the bottom is mine.:-p
Awww...Yea, its two goobies at it again!:-S
Mmm...Hawtness!
And....a second helping...:-p
I am trying to plead Jassen to go out to the movies tonight and see The Break-Up with Jen Aniston and Mr Vaughan. I heard its good and not your typical chick flick. We may see!;-)
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
DANGADANG!
Ive been slacking in the blog department!
Ill make up for it tomorrow!
;-)
GOodnigHT!
-_-zzZZzzZZZzzz
Ill make up for it tomorrow!
;-)
GOodnigHT!
-_-zzZZzzZZZzzz
Monday, July 24, 2006
Eep!
I totally havent posted today and ive been on quite the roll for a while now!
I was planning on putting some pics up from Saturday's party we attended, one of Jassen's cousins named Jasen(with one s). I got some cool affects so I think I will up them to flickr first and then here.
When i tried to link a photo that I posted on blogger, it seems like it timed out only a matter of a few hours later, which was disappointing, so I need something a bit more stable than that.
It's been somewhat of a boring day, but I managed to get a possible design for invites of any future wedding I might have next July.:-p
I think I will work on as much text as possible for the inside tomorrow and then see if I can manage to work on my self-portrait project in AI.
I hope all is well and I talk to you guys tomorrow!!
x
I was planning on putting some pics up from Saturday's party we attended, one of Jassen's cousins named Jasen(with one s). I got some cool affects so I think I will up them to flickr first and then here.
When i tried to link a photo that I posted on blogger, it seems like it timed out only a matter of a few hours later, which was disappointing, so I need something a bit more stable than that.
It's been somewhat of a boring day, but I managed to get a possible design for invites of any future wedding I might have next July.:-p
I think I will work on as much text as possible for the inside tomorrow and then see if I can manage to work on my self-portrait project in AI.
I hope all is well and I talk to you guys tomorrow!!
x
Sunday, July 23, 2006
And so,...
It rained..
Not so much but it was something, but then after the minor spit on the ground, it became hot once more.
That sucked my bottom!!
I hope that it rains hard soon....I love rain. Big fan.
It is still pretty hot at the moment and I have a bottle of water close by.
The thing that sucks about being a girl is when the time of the month nears, I crave Chocolate and Meat. Its really weird, but I do. I suppose its because I lack some sort of chemical or vitamin/mineral, so the craving is just an indication of needing to top it off.
Jassen is working on a review for a computer product at the moment. He has done probably a handful of these over the past few months and can be found at Maxconsole
Personally, I think he is an excellent writer, so if you are a geek that loves video games and modding, etc., check it out. He normally does reviews for either DS or PSP products, so yep.;-)
Today, Jassen and I watched 3-4 episodes of Star Trek:The Next Generation, Season 4, so we are thinking of getting Season 5 soon, since we will most likely finish the Season over the next few days. Until then, we will watch the second and last season of Dead Like Me...and then hopefully by that time, Season 5 will be at our doorstep.:-p
Jassen recently purchased a new Canon bubblejet printer, so I will be on a printing mission soon enough. I will probably make a small book of my blog, just so i have a copy of it on hand.;-)
Well, I am getting sleepy, so I hope everyone has a pleasant rest of the evening/afternoon/day!!
Take Care!
x
Not so much but it was something, but then after the minor spit on the ground, it became hot once more.
That sucked my bottom!!
I hope that it rains hard soon....I love rain. Big fan.
It is still pretty hot at the moment and I have a bottle of water close by.
The thing that sucks about being a girl is when the time of the month nears, I crave Chocolate and Meat. Its really weird, but I do. I suppose its because I lack some sort of chemical or vitamin/mineral, so the craving is just an indication of needing to top it off.
Jassen is working on a review for a computer product at the moment. He has done probably a handful of these over the past few months and can be found at Maxconsole
Personally, I think he is an excellent writer, so if you are a geek that loves video games and modding, etc., check it out. He normally does reviews for either DS or PSP products, so yep.;-)
Today, Jassen and I watched 3-4 episodes of Star Trek:The Next Generation, Season 4, so we are thinking of getting Season 5 soon, since we will most likely finish the Season over the next few days. Until then, we will watch the second and last season of Dead Like Me...and then hopefully by that time, Season 5 will be at our doorstep.:-p
Jassen recently purchased a new Canon bubblejet printer, so I will be on a printing mission soon enough. I will probably make a small book of my blog, just so i have a copy of it on hand.;-)
Well, I am getting sleepy, so I hope everyone has a pleasant rest of the evening/afternoon/day!!
Take Care!
x
Saturday, July 22, 2006
I can smell rain...
and almost taste it in my mouth...the wonderful humidity wrapped up in such a delight!
I feel the air cooling a bit.
I love storms...I hope its a good one tomorrow...
But then I begin to question....why is there a distinct smell to rain?
Its calming, relaxing, and seldom gets called into question...but is it just a combined smell of earth meeting the sky?
This, my friends, is google-worthy!!
Goodnight!
I feel the air cooling a bit.
I love storms...I hope its a good one tomorrow...
But then I begin to question....why is there a distinct smell to rain?
Its calming, relaxing, and seldom gets called into question...but is it just a combined smell of earth meeting the sky?
This, my friends, is google-worthy!!
Goodnight!
Friday, July 21, 2006
It's fri---day
Ive been in quite the posty mood on the coldplay message board!!
Dont know whats got into me, but I am.
OBSESSED!
I am working on a project in Adobe Illustrator and the focus is on....well, me.:-p
Hopefully ill have it completed in the next few days, but my issues is with drawing the hair. Ive got the face...im working on the neck and shoulders....but the hair...my hair is difficult!
I think I will ask advice from my friend Val, since she is good in the vector department!!
But yea...its been a humid day, but I can feel that its a bit cooler than the past days.
Newsflash: Pepper just ate a grasshopper.
She has been eyeing the fish in the fishbowl on the piano and attempted to murder it a few times, so Im going to suggest that it be moved to higher grounds, less excess for kitties with curiousity.
Ill blog more later.
Right now, Im not in the mood for it.
:-p
Dont know whats got into me, but I am.
OBSESSED!
I am working on a project in Adobe Illustrator and the focus is on....well, me.:-p
Hopefully ill have it completed in the next few days, but my issues is with drawing the hair. Ive got the face...im working on the neck and shoulders....but the hair...my hair is difficult!
I think I will ask advice from my friend Val, since she is good in the vector department!!
But yea...its been a humid day, but I can feel that its a bit cooler than the past days.
Newsflash: Pepper just ate a grasshopper.
She has been eyeing the fish in the fishbowl on the piano and attempted to murder it a few times, so Im going to suggest that it be moved to higher grounds, less excess for kitties with curiousity.
Ill blog more later.
Right now, Im not in the mood for it.
:-p
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Spidey Versus the Man of Steel...
I think Spidey wins, hands down.
Who do you think is better and why!?
Granted Spidey isnt as invinsible as Superman, personally I like his character and personality much better!
Speaking of Men of Steel, Jassen and I saw Superman Returns last night.
It was Orange Wednesday, and since it's like religion for us to attend these, we went, stuffed ourselves on sweet popcorn and downed the cooooool cold cold coke! SO GOOD!
There were a few negatives of the night.
First off, the air conditioning wasn't working in the theater.
It wasn't as bad as it may sound, but it was a bit stuffy.
Secondly, you know those stereotypically annoying and moronic members of the audience that talk, talk on their mobile/cell phones, invade your personal bubble,..those sort of people?
Well, I was the lucky one last night in regards to JUST THAT!
There was this woman and for the life of me, I hope that Karma will deal its cards accordingly....seriously!!
She was beyond rude as well as her partner.
Granted there were some people there in the auditorium, it wasn't technically a "packed house".
So, WHAT does she do?
Sit the flip next to me...and there were plenty of other free spaces...PLENTY!
She then stole my drink cup holder, in which I put Jassen and mine's stash of napkins.
She had a purse of something and of course, she slots it next to her and its poking into me(my upper leg)...I then move to the left, closer to Jassen and Im sure, as sausage at breakfast, that only made him feel a bit more hotter, since it was already humid enough.
She then proceeds to talk/laugh from beginning to end to her partner, who is also talking in a foreign language. I think he was translating for her or something. She then opened up her mobile phone, was checking her messages, etc...and AND she was taking pictures of the screen(throughout the movie).
WTF....mate?
Isnt that a bit....ILLEGAL!!!??!?!?!?! and annoying....
*sighs*
And you may alllllll be wondering, "WHy the heck did i stand for it? Why didnt i speak up and say nothing??"
Well,...
A.) I'm living in London. so I bet you close to 1/4 the population has some sort of mental disorders and there are a big handful that should be committed but their crazyfarm closed down due to lack of funding.
B.) Since this is a city environment, manners are thrown out the window.
Sure there are people that are nice about things, they exist, but the majority of people, are somewhat rude and I have no clue as to whether or not they realize this.
If I was in my hometown, I know that if I said something, it would make somewhat of a difference...there is a different mentality from that of a city and that of a town. Less people, people are a little more cognant of people around them, self-conscious, etc.
Next time, Ill just force myself to move elsewhere, but that sucks since Jassen and I like to get to our movies on time and at previews and shouldnt have to be the ones changing seats.
*sighs*
[/end rant]
But Superman Returns was an okay movie. I would rate it about a 6.3 out of 10. It could have been shorter, it was predictable, but it was similar to the original superman formula. Kevin Spacey should have had more screen time( I love him)...and the new Superman was pretty dead on to how he is suppose to be portrayed. But yea...the movie gave me a sore butt and crickity knees, so I suggest stretching beforehand.
Hope you are all keeping cool!
Who do you think is better and why!?
Granted Spidey isnt as invinsible as Superman, personally I like his character and personality much better!
Speaking of Men of Steel, Jassen and I saw Superman Returns last night.
It was Orange Wednesday, and since it's like religion for us to attend these, we went, stuffed ourselves on sweet popcorn and downed the cooooool cold cold coke! SO GOOD!
There were a few negatives of the night.
First off, the air conditioning wasn't working in the theater.
It wasn't as bad as it may sound, but it was a bit stuffy.
Secondly, you know those stereotypically annoying and moronic members of the audience that talk, talk on their mobile/cell phones, invade your personal bubble,..those sort of people?
Well, I was the lucky one last night in regards to JUST THAT!
There was this woman and for the life of me, I hope that Karma will deal its cards accordingly....seriously!!
She was beyond rude as well as her partner.
Granted there were some people there in the auditorium, it wasn't technically a "packed house".
So, WHAT does she do?
Sit the flip next to me...and there were plenty of other free spaces...PLENTY!
She then stole my drink cup holder, in which I put Jassen and mine's stash of napkins.
She had a purse of something and of course, she slots it next to her and its poking into me(my upper leg)...I then move to the left, closer to Jassen and Im sure, as sausage at breakfast, that only made him feel a bit more hotter, since it was already humid enough.
She then proceeds to talk/laugh from beginning to end to her partner, who is also talking in a foreign language. I think he was translating for her or something. She then opened up her mobile phone, was checking her messages, etc...and AND she was taking pictures of the screen(throughout the movie).
WTF....mate?
Isnt that a bit....ILLEGAL!!!??!?!?!?! and annoying....
*sighs*
And you may alllllll be wondering, "WHy the heck did i stand for it? Why didnt i speak up and say nothing??"
Well,...
A.) I'm living in London. so I bet you close to 1/4 the population has some sort of mental disorders and there are a big handful that should be committed but their crazyfarm closed down due to lack of funding.
B.) Since this is a city environment, manners are thrown out the window.
Sure there are people that are nice about things, they exist, but the majority of people, are somewhat rude and I have no clue as to whether or not they realize this.
If I was in my hometown, I know that if I said something, it would make somewhat of a difference...there is a different mentality from that of a city and that of a town. Less people, people are a little more cognant of people around them, self-conscious, etc.
Next time, Ill just force myself to move elsewhere, but that sucks since Jassen and I like to get to our movies on time and at previews and shouldnt have to be the ones changing seats.
*sighs*
[/end rant]
But Superman Returns was an okay movie. I would rate it about a 6.3 out of 10. It could have been shorter, it was predictable, but it was similar to the original superman formula. Kevin Spacey should have had more screen time( I love him)...and the new Superman was pretty dead on to how he is suppose to be portrayed. But yea...the movie gave me a sore butt and crickity knees, so I suggest stretching beforehand.
Hope you are all keeping cool!
You know...
the old saying, quality not quantity??
Well I'm mostly quality when it comes to my blog, cuz heck, i really do this for me, getting my mumbled thoughts out there, and maybe get a little feedback from it, from time to time...But yea, i sorta have a hidden agenda.
I was looking at my total blogs that I have done since being here(this one will be 340) and a big part of me wants to have 365 by the time July 27th rolls around. One for everyday of the year, even though at times, I blog more than once, it works out in my head!:-s
I guess its kinda like when your small and you are walking down a sidewalk with cracks. You say to yourself, "If I can manage to get past this rough patch of cracks, not step on any, I wont die." It's like little challenges for yourself. It's strange, but I know I'm not alone in this strange phenomena.
So, last night was another night downstairs, on the ground. It is way too hot in the bedroom, it being on the 2nd floor and all, and there is no chance in heck that anyone would sleep in that incubator!
I have yet to open the curtains in the front room/living room and I may hold off from adding 15-20 degrees more into the room. The past 2 days have been hot weather, now its a combo of both hot AND HUMID. It's really the humidity that gets to people. Really I should be drinking more water and hopefully I can motivate myself enough to do some pilates(since it makes me feel goood).
I can't believe today is July 20th. There are 19 more days until I fly back to the states. I mean, I am excited at the fact that I will get to see and be with my family again(that parts always nice) but Im sure that intial feeling will wear down to the norm(what ever the norm is) and then I will be craving London again and missing Jassen even more. I guess the good part is by the time I start to feel like that, he will be visiting in a month. And to me, a month is not that long. I think the worst part will be not seeing him until December(that will be a little bit more than 2 months).
It's always a bit strange but semi-exciting. When you are apart from a loved one. When you see each other, you see them physically in a different light. I mean, you've had separate experiences through work and play, but of course, you keep in contact via messengers,cams, emails, phone, text, etc...but when you see them again....it's like a rush of freshness. Part of me feels scared, scared that things might have changed too much, etc....my paranoia kicks in(since it's a combination of different experiences but also the realization that i have such wonderful person in my life, I challenge whether or not I am deserving)..but then after a small amount of time, you feel that comfort that you are use to, that I'm use to.
I guess I take for granted being so close to Jassen that when we are apart and come back together, my perspective on him changes(and it's like I'm falling in love again in a new light.) All good though(since i realize I have quite the hottie on my hands!:-p). It's keeps me on my toes! Change is good. Really it is.
*sighs*
Love is a many splendid thing...;-)
Well I'm mostly quality when it comes to my blog, cuz heck, i really do this for me, getting my mumbled thoughts out there, and maybe get a little feedback from it, from time to time...But yea, i sorta have a hidden agenda.
I was looking at my total blogs that I have done since being here(this one will be 340) and a big part of me wants to have 365 by the time July 27th rolls around. One for everyday of the year, even though at times, I blog more than once, it works out in my head!:-s
I guess its kinda like when your small and you are walking down a sidewalk with cracks. You say to yourself, "If I can manage to get past this rough patch of cracks, not step on any, I wont die." It's like little challenges for yourself. It's strange, but I know I'm not alone in this strange phenomena.
So, last night was another night downstairs, on the ground. It is way too hot in the bedroom, it being on the 2nd floor and all, and there is no chance in heck that anyone would sleep in that incubator!
I have yet to open the curtains in the front room/living room and I may hold off from adding 15-20 degrees more into the room. The past 2 days have been hot weather, now its a combo of both hot AND HUMID. It's really the humidity that gets to people. Really I should be drinking more water and hopefully I can motivate myself enough to do some pilates(since it makes me feel goood).
I can't believe today is July 20th. There are 19 more days until I fly back to the states. I mean, I am excited at the fact that I will get to see and be with my family again(that parts always nice) but Im sure that intial feeling will wear down to the norm(what ever the norm is) and then I will be craving London again and missing Jassen even more. I guess the good part is by the time I start to feel like that, he will be visiting in a month. And to me, a month is not that long. I think the worst part will be not seeing him until December(that will be a little bit more than 2 months).
It's always a bit strange but semi-exciting. When you are apart from a loved one. When you see each other, you see them physically in a different light. I mean, you've had separate experiences through work and play, but of course, you keep in contact via messengers,cams, emails, phone, text, etc...but when you see them again....it's like a rush of freshness. Part of me feels scared, scared that things might have changed too much, etc....my paranoia kicks in(since it's a combination of different experiences but also the realization that i have such wonderful person in my life, I challenge whether or not I am deserving)..but then after a small amount of time, you feel that comfort that you are use to, that I'm use to.
I guess I take for granted being so close to Jassen that when we are apart and come back together, my perspective on him changes(and it's like I'm falling in love again in a new light.) All good though(since i realize I have quite the hottie on my hands!:-p). It's keeps me on my toes! Change is good. Really it is.
*sighs*
Love is a many splendid thing...;-)
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Party Pics!
Here is a pic of the birthday girl, Daynah!
Here is Niamh(Pronounced Neeve) with a flower on her head. She is the step-daughter of Jassen's Older brother, Steve.
Here is moi.:-)
Here is a pic of Jassen's Dad Sam...FLOWERPOWER!!
This is Reuben. Jassen's 16 year old bro.
And last but not least, JASSEN!! LOVE the pink(i picked it out):-p
This is from Daynah's party last Saturday...
Let's see if I can get the majority of the pictures all in one fellow swoop!
Oh and 1 other thing...
Day 2 of the sweats.
Really it's unbearable.
I heard that storms might happen tonight.
I hope so.
So, far their are storms in Cornwall. Thats a few hours away.
Let's see if It can make it to London!
OH!
And here is that pic of Salt that I took with my phone the other day. The bluetooth thing is now working and Im realizing that the party pics are on Jassen's phone, so I will have to get them off and on to here soon!!
I just...
finished a yogurt and now Im eating a ham sammich.
Tastes really good, but I wish my sinuses werent an issues so that I could taste a bit more.
Today is Wednesday...Moooovie day.
I wonder if we will be heading out to see.
I mean, I know the theater has air conditioning so that might be a nice little getaway!
The choices are this:
Superman Returns
OR
The Break-up
Well, those are my choices I think, so I will have to see what Jassen wants to see, if any tonight.
I've been really good at doing Pilates 4-6 times a week. REAAALLY GOOD!
I have been religious with it for 3.5 weeks and my legs feel it as well as my abs.
I need to keep this up!
I use to do pilates back in 2003/2004 and kept at it for 11 months. I was in good shape and that's what Im aiming for...GOOD SHAPE. I like to exercise cuz in the end and through the struggle, it feels good and my body appreciates it!
When I get back to the states, Im going to be jumping back on the elliptical machine, walking, and biking as much as possible. I want to get my booty back into shape. It seems like when Im in the UK, I gain weight(too many breads and starches), but when I get back to the states I lose it(lost 20+ pounds last year).
*sighs*
I feel really bored at the moment, but having sinus issues, it makes me feel numb and paralyzed in a way. My head definitely feels it, and its a weird burning warmth. Maybe I just to down some water.
*downs water*
So, apparently, this is going to be the hottest day this year so far. It is nearly 100 degrees Fahrenheit and I totally feel it. Last night, Jassen and I slept downstairs. I slept for a solid 2 hours and then woke up at 1, then had issues for a little while trying to force sleep in me and then I managed to crawl on the sofa and knocked out for a few more hours.
And Happy Birthday to both Jassen's Dad(Sam) and Lisa!!! I believe Sam is 68 today and Lisa is 24! This weekend, I believe it is Jassen's younger cousin Jasen's birthday party so thats probably what we will be up to this weekend, among other things.
We were too tired this past weekend to have a tube adventure, so I just hope that we will be able to fit one more in before I say goodbye to London for (7+ months). Im really going to miss my kittens.....badly....theyre my family and now I understand how people can get so attached to their pets.
*big sighs*
Please, everyone be drinking alot of water...It's sooo freakin hot!!
x
Tastes really good, but I wish my sinuses werent an issues so that I could taste a bit more.
Today is Wednesday...Moooovie day.
I wonder if we will be heading out to see.
I mean, I know the theater has air conditioning so that might be a nice little getaway!
The choices are this:
Superman Returns
OR
The Break-up
Well, those are my choices I think, so I will have to see what Jassen wants to see, if any tonight.
I've been really good at doing Pilates 4-6 times a week. REAAALLY GOOD!
I have been religious with it for 3.5 weeks and my legs feel it as well as my abs.
I need to keep this up!
I use to do pilates back in 2003/2004 and kept at it for 11 months. I was in good shape and that's what Im aiming for...GOOD SHAPE. I like to exercise cuz in the end and through the struggle, it feels good and my body appreciates it!
When I get back to the states, Im going to be jumping back on the elliptical machine, walking, and biking as much as possible. I want to get my booty back into shape. It seems like when Im in the UK, I gain weight(too many breads and starches), but when I get back to the states I lose it(lost 20+ pounds last year).
*sighs*
I feel really bored at the moment, but having sinus issues, it makes me feel numb and paralyzed in a way. My head definitely feels it, and its a weird burning warmth. Maybe I just to down some water.
*downs water*
So, apparently, this is going to be the hottest day this year so far. It is nearly 100 degrees Fahrenheit and I totally feel it. Last night, Jassen and I slept downstairs. I slept for a solid 2 hours and then woke up at 1, then had issues for a little while trying to force sleep in me and then I managed to crawl on the sofa and knocked out for a few more hours.
And Happy Birthday to both Jassen's Dad(Sam) and Lisa!!! I believe Sam is 68 today and Lisa is 24! This weekend, I believe it is Jassen's younger cousin Jasen's birthday party so thats probably what we will be up to this weekend, among other things.
We were too tired this past weekend to have a tube adventure, so I just hope that we will be able to fit one more in before I say goodbye to London for (7+ months). Im really going to miss my kittens.....badly....theyre my family and now I understand how people can get so attached to their pets.
*big sighs*
Please, everyone be drinking alot of water...It's sooo freakin hot!!
x
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
This..
is me, sweating my butt off.
I have my hair off my neck so that im not sweating all over it.
Today is one HOT MOFO!
I heard that there is rain in the forecast Thursday and when it does come, I'm doing a happy dance in it!
I hope thunder and lightning are a part of the package!
I had a nice ham sammich earlier with tomato juicy stuffs and a bag of crisps.
I cut myself off from crisps/chips for a week, so i wanted to reward my self for it.
I think I will do another week or so without chips again, cuz it makes me fattttt!!
I think Salt is frustrated and hot. He keeps on clawing at his cat cube for attention.
I am going to head downstairs and get some ice cubes for them to have(Salty and Peps).
Once again, I tried to bluetooth pics over on the mac, so that I may display it on here, but its no workie!
I think I need to turn on the blue tooth or something!
Hope all is cool!
x
ARGHZ!
I think, quite possibly, I might be heading into a cold.
My nose is beginning to stuff up. It was runny yesterday, but I was hoping that was from the tablets I took to help my sinuses. Maybe it was from the sinuses and I brought something down/up more to start me off with a cold.
It's a strange sensation. Having a stuffed nose, but it not really being "technically" stuffed. Yea. Im still talking about sinuses. I mean, when you push on your face, you can feel the snot under the surface, crying out to you to set it free! So, in my case, I took a tablet to help that cause and now, it's not working out so well.
:-/
And yea, last night,....I couldn't sleep for the life of me! I kept on waking up at odd noises in the house(probably caused by my kits), and I had the strange sensation that maybe someone was in the house(which is never the case, im just paranoid), and it's waaaaay too hot.
I can't sleep when it's hot.
It's a bit different if Im in a house with central air, as compared to that of a oscillating fan.
My parents went to Boston for a week and came back, so I hope they had a good time. My dad had a gig out there so that was the incentive to be out there as well as my mom.
Jassen and I got(well, Jassen paid it was my original idea) a fish tank for Jassen's dad's birthday, which is Wednesday. The tank needs to be primed for a few days, so it will be ready for fish by that time. The only thing now is if he wants tropical fish, he will need to get a heater(£15) for it.
Alright. My eyes are watering, so I think I need more sleep.
x
My nose is beginning to stuff up. It was runny yesterday, but I was hoping that was from the tablets I took to help my sinuses. Maybe it was from the sinuses and I brought something down/up more to start me off with a cold.
It's a strange sensation. Having a stuffed nose, but it not really being "technically" stuffed. Yea. Im still talking about sinuses. I mean, when you push on your face, you can feel the snot under the surface, crying out to you to set it free! So, in my case, I took a tablet to help that cause and now, it's not working out so well.
:-/
And yea, last night,....I couldn't sleep for the life of me! I kept on waking up at odd noises in the house(probably caused by my kits), and I had the strange sensation that maybe someone was in the house(which is never the case, im just paranoid), and it's waaaaay too hot.
I can't sleep when it's hot.
It's a bit different if Im in a house with central air, as compared to that of a oscillating fan.
My parents went to Boston for a week and came back, so I hope they had a good time. My dad had a gig out there so that was the incentive to be out there as well as my mom.
Jassen and I got(well, Jassen paid it was my original idea) a fish tank for Jassen's dad's birthday, which is Wednesday. The tank needs to be primed for a few days, so it will be ready for fish by that time. The only thing now is if he wants tropical fish, he will need to get a heater(£15) for it.
Alright. My eyes are watering, so I think I need more sleep.
x
Monday, July 17, 2006
My head...
Is going to explode!!!!!!!
Ive had a headache really all day, i passed out after I took some headache medicine and then woke up just about an hour or so later....The kits have been running around, but also tagging along when I walk up the stairs, so thats a bit unusual.
I hope that everyone is keeping themselves cool, cuz its really hot today.:-S
Jassen went to the doctors today to see what his stomach issues were about, so now he has some medicine to see if it might be a bug, or whathaveya.
Awww..Salt is looking uber cute!
I took a picture but the bluetooth is being a bit iffy in sending over the pic from the phone.
I'll Figure it out sooN!
Plus I have other pics from the party on saturday...
Alright...Im out!
X
Ive had a headache really all day, i passed out after I took some headache medicine and then woke up just about an hour or so later....The kits have been running around, but also tagging along when I walk up the stairs, so thats a bit unusual.
I hope that everyone is keeping themselves cool, cuz its really hot today.:-S
Jassen went to the doctors today to see what his stomach issues were about, so now he has some medicine to see if it might be a bug, or whathaveya.
Awww..Salt is looking uber cute!
I took a picture but the bluetooth is being a bit iffy in sending over the pic from the phone.
I'll Figure it out sooN!
Plus I have other pics from the party on saturday...
Alright...Im out!
X
Sunday, July 16, 2006
I'm frustrated...
that I didnt really get the opportunity to put my moves to good use on the dancefloor last night.
It was Jassen's 2nd cousin's 21st last night and all that was played with Sega music and carribean b-shite. None that was really danceable. It made me sad, cuz I dressed for the occasion, so I felt the tension of the wanting to dance in my arms, dont know why there, but there it was.
I lOOOOVEEEEE dancing with Jassen. It's so much fun AND we draw attention from other people when we do(thats kinda strange). I just wanted to dance, but yea...the volume of the music also was at an ear bleeding decibel, so that was another reason for my frustration.
I was happy to get home to sleep, but I think I woke up too early for my taste, so now Im irritable.:-/ The thing is, I dont want to go back to sleep. Im already up, so I guess that's my deal.
The positive of yesterday is that Jassen and I purchased a deck of UNO cards, so we will be playing that later. We tried at the party to start a game, but then there was the struggle of that and birthday cake, so of course, birthday cake wins hands down.
My 4th grade science teacher died of breast cancer recently, so thats a bit sad. The thing is that I believe she got this after her husband cheated on her and she divorced, so I am starting to see the link between stresses etc...to diseases and cancers. I think I really need to stop stressing as much, cuz I dont want to have to deal with any issues like this. My thoughts go out to her, where ever she is.
I feel a bit apathetic today, so sorry about how I babble.
Hope allll is good in the hood with the rest of youz!
x
It was Jassen's 2nd cousin's 21st last night and all that was played with Sega music and carribean b-shite. None that was really danceable. It made me sad, cuz I dressed for the occasion, so I felt the tension of the wanting to dance in my arms, dont know why there, but there it was.
I lOOOOVEEEEE dancing with Jassen. It's so much fun AND we draw attention from other people when we do(thats kinda strange). I just wanted to dance, but yea...the volume of the music also was at an ear bleeding decibel, so that was another reason for my frustration.
I was happy to get home to sleep, but I think I woke up too early for my taste, so now Im irritable.:-/ The thing is, I dont want to go back to sleep. Im already up, so I guess that's my deal.
The positive of yesterday is that Jassen and I purchased a deck of UNO cards, so we will be playing that later. We tried at the party to start a game, but then there was the struggle of that and birthday cake, so of course, birthday cake wins hands down.
My 4th grade science teacher died of breast cancer recently, so thats a bit sad. The thing is that I believe she got this after her husband cheated on her and she divorced, so I am starting to see the link between stresses etc...to diseases and cancers. I think I really need to stop stressing as much, cuz I dont want to have to deal with any issues like this. My thoughts go out to her, where ever she is.
I feel a bit apathetic today, so sorry about how I babble.
Hope allll is good in the hood with the rest of youz!
x
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Songs and Suggestions,plz
*Just for Now-Imogen Heap
*Over My Head- The Fray
*Let Go-Frou Frou
*Sparks-Coldplay
*Everyday-Dave Matthews Band
*Everything In Its Right Place- Radiohead
*Isn't She Lovely-Stevie Wonder(Dance with Dad)
*Happy Together-The Turtles(Parent's Song)
*Satellite-Guster
*Switching Off-Elbow
*I’d Rather Dance-Kings Of Convenience
*Celebration
*Friends in Low Places
*New York New York
*YMCA
*Electric Slide
*Macarena
*We are Family
*Love Shack
*Grease
*Twist and Shout
*Let’s Twist Again
*Old Time Rock and Roll
*Brown Eyed Girl
*Take On Me
*I Will Survive
*Jailhouse Rock
*Crazy for you-Madonna
*Locomotion
*Wonderful Tonight-Eric Clapton
*Chicken Dance-Original
-Blue Man Group Mix
*Never Too Much-Luther Vandross
*Thong Song
*How Deep is Your Love(Dru Hill and Bee Gees)
*Eternal Flame-Bangles
*Can’t Help Falling in Love with you-UB40
*2pac feat. Dr. Dre-California Love
*Karma Cameleon
*God Only Knows
*Bridge to Your Heart
*I Will Always Love You
*Like A Prayer
*Ice Ice Baby
*Can’t fight the Moonlight
*For You-Coldplay
*Hokey Pokey
*We Never Change
*Careless Whisper
*My Boo-Alicia Keys/Usher
-Ghost town DJs
*I’ll be watching you
*Life is a Rollercoaster
*Seven Days-Craig David
*Let’s Stay Together
*It Ain’t Over til It’s Over
*As Long As You Love Me
*Mony Mony
*If there is any Justice
*Walk Like An Egyptian
*You and Me Forever
*Crazy(Seal and Alanis)
*Don’t Go Breaking My Heart
*As
Any suggestions, plz list!
THANKS!
*Over My Head- The Fray
*Let Go-Frou Frou
*Sparks-Coldplay
*Everyday-Dave Matthews Band
*Everything In Its Right Place- Radiohead
*Isn't She Lovely-Stevie Wonder(Dance with Dad)
*Happy Together-The Turtles(Parent's Song)
*Satellite-Guster
*Switching Off-Elbow
*I’d Rather Dance-Kings Of Convenience
*Celebration
*Friends in Low Places
*New York New York
*YMCA
*Electric Slide
*Macarena
*We are Family
*Love Shack
*Grease
*Twist and Shout
*Let’s Twist Again
*Old Time Rock and Roll
*Brown Eyed Girl
*Take On Me
*I Will Survive
*Jailhouse Rock
*Crazy for you-Madonna
*Locomotion
*Wonderful Tonight-Eric Clapton
*Chicken Dance-Original
-Blue Man Group Mix
*Never Too Much-Luther Vandross
*Thong Song
*How Deep is Your Love(Dru Hill and Bee Gees)
*Eternal Flame-Bangles
*Can’t Help Falling in Love with you-UB40
*2pac feat. Dr. Dre-California Love
*Karma Cameleon
*God Only Knows
*Bridge to Your Heart
*I Will Always Love You
*Like A Prayer
*Ice Ice Baby
*Can’t fight the Moonlight
*For You-Coldplay
*Hokey Pokey
*We Never Change
*Careless Whisper
*My Boo-Alicia Keys/Usher
-Ghost town DJs
*I’ll be watching you
*Life is a Rollercoaster
*Seven Days-Craig David
*Let’s Stay Together
*It Ain’t Over til It’s Over
*As Long As You Love Me
*Mony Mony
*If there is any Justice
*Walk Like An Egyptian
*You and Me Forever
*Crazy(Seal and Alanis)
*Don’t Go Breaking My Heart
*As
Any suggestions, plz list!
THANKS!
Is this burning, an
eternal flame(aka do i have acid reflex?)...
haha GO BANGLES!!
I'm more of a walk like an egyptian gal, really...:-p
So, yea,....dreams, I was walking around a building again and the main thing that I do recall was the fact that I found 2 lost boys, about the ages of 7 and maybe 11 or 12. I found them in the London Underground although it felt like outside and it was my mission to find their folks. When I did, it was like whatever to the parents, which was sad. Ah well. And then there was another part of my dream that felt a bit cult like. I dont remember what took place but that was the overall feeling of it.
I guess when you think about it, most dreams are based off emotions anyway, cuz people that are suppose to look like certain people you know, dont always look it, or you dont see them properly, but really you know who it is suppose to be.
I am coming up with a list of songs that I would play at my potential wedding, when that does happen but I would love any suggestions of songs that don't really hit me right away.
Here is the criteria. It has to be either an 80s/90s/00s that most people can relate to, or something comical/funny, or R&B. I think I have alot of classic songs already that are the norm for weddings but like I said, ANY other suggestions would be great!!
I'll get my list off the mac, since I am blogging from the pc.
Be back sooN!!
x
haha GO BANGLES!!
I'm more of a walk like an egyptian gal, really...:-p
So, yea,....dreams, I was walking around a building again and the main thing that I do recall was the fact that I found 2 lost boys, about the ages of 7 and maybe 11 or 12. I found them in the London Underground although it felt like outside and it was my mission to find their folks. When I did, it was like whatever to the parents, which was sad. Ah well. And then there was another part of my dream that felt a bit cult like. I dont remember what took place but that was the overall feeling of it.
I guess when you think about it, most dreams are based off emotions anyway, cuz people that are suppose to look like certain people you know, dont always look it, or you dont see them properly, but really you know who it is suppose to be.
I am coming up with a list of songs that I would play at my potential wedding, when that does happen but I would love any suggestions of songs that don't really hit me right away.
Here is the criteria. It has to be either an 80s/90s/00s that most people can relate to, or something comical/funny, or R&B. I think I have alot of classic songs already that are the norm for weddings but like I said, ANY other suggestions would be great!!
I'll get my list off the mac, since I am blogging from the pc.
Be back sooN!!
x
Friday, July 14, 2006
Dead Like Me
So, yea...this was my favourite show back in 2003/2004....It was about grim reapers and taking of souls, but in a very witty and tasteful way of intermingling life and death.
It was cancelled due to management having inflated egos....
SCI-FI is going to be re-running the old episodes.
I hope that it brings in newer fans, maybe help in possible future shows.
deadlikemeonline.com
Visit.
Watch.
Love.
It was cancelled due to management having inflated egos....
SCI-FI is going to be re-running the old episodes.
I hope that it brings in newer fans, maybe help in possible future shows.
deadlikemeonline.com
Visit.
Watch.
Love.
Your Love..
It gets me high,
high above myself
and the materialistic shackles
that I bind and find myself in
We are dirt
dirt on the ground
for others to walk on
and from time to time
that is alright
we are all in it together
arent we?
But you
You make me see
that other part of me
Im already free
but you serve as a memory
both you and me
we are already free
But our tests of moral flesh
and our struggles to find ourselves
me and you
we put ourselves through
and through
and through it all
the beauty is there
still
peaceful
and unmoved
But you move my soul
you invoke a spark of momentum,
a reaction
its your love,
you know
what you are
to me
beautiful
so beautiful.
high above myself
and the materialistic shackles
that I bind and find myself in
We are dirt
dirt on the ground
for others to walk on
and from time to time
that is alright
we are all in it together
arent we?
But you
You make me see
that other part of me
Im already free
but you serve as a memory
both you and me
we are already free
But our tests of moral flesh
and our struggles to find ourselves
me and you
we put ourselves through
and through
and through it all
the beauty is there
still
peaceful
and unmoved
But you move my soul
you invoke a spark of momentum,
a reaction
its your love,
you know
what you are
to me
beautiful
so beautiful.
Strange Phenomena...
well, not really...but my dreams have been crazy-weird as of late.
Two nights ago, I had a dream that I was flying around this neighbourhood that was similar to mine. I would run on the ground, jump and be up and away, but not like miles above the ground. More like just a matter of a few hundred yards....It was a strange feeling nonetheless!
Then last night, oh my gosh, I dreamt about PIRATES!! Maybe its because all of the publicity of Johnny Depp and Pirates of the Caribbean, or something but its got my attention!!
In my dream, I was on a beach. I noticed that soon pirate ships were going to dock and try to either A.) Take me captive or B.)Kill moi!
So, there was a little lean-to that was kinda dug in the ground on the beach and I proceeded to climb inside to hide. While in there, I started to think to myself that this was a stupid and rather illogical place to hide. I wondered who's idea it was to hide in this dingy piece of poo, but really it's my dream, so the blame falls in my lap.
ANYWHO...I noticed the texture of the place, it was slanted and in front of me was a metal slab with a metal conveyor belt look. Strange Strange, so as I was about to climb out, that's when I noticed 10 ships coming to the island. At this point, I felt as though I was looking at model ships, but then again, I didnt want to risk my life, so the scene changed and I moved on to the next part of my dream.
Here is where I found myself walking around, confused in a darkly lit building. It somewhat reminded me of my high school but it seemed to old and decrepite. I felt as though something bad was going to take place and that the people around me werent quite normal, so when I got the sensation that the worst was about to occur, that's when I ran up a flight of stairs(well as much as you can run while in a dream), and pulled a fire alarm. I looked at it curiously, cuz I was unsure how the device worked, but somehow I figured it out and it helped warn people of the danger ahead.
Once again, my dream switched and I was walking around the sidewalks that were inside of a bus garage. There were about 3 buses for sure and they all had drivers that were moving the buses all over the place. People were waiting to get on and leave cuz something spooked them as I felt the same emotion. So, the natives were getting restless an someone managed to get under a bus. Now, Im sure you ALL know what would happen next. The bus backed over a girl/lady and she turned out flat as a pancake. I heard someone say that, "Oh, she's dead and flat!" And I agreed. I heard other people mentioning that her eyeballs popped out.
Well, that's all that I remember about my dream from last night/this morning. I slept alright, I just wish that I had more pleasant dreams is all. I guess thats what I get for watching Dead Like Me as of recent. I loved this show and it's sad that it only lasted 2 seasons and then was booted. The funny thing though is that when it came to DVD sets, people were ripping them from off the shelves and the makers of the program where a bit in shock, wondering where all of these fans came from. I am still not quite sure why it was cancelled. Maybe Ill wikipedia it and see if I can come up with something.
So, as for the weather now, it is nice and cool out. Thank god that winds can come out of the N/NW, etc...It has been way to hot the past week or so, so I am really appreciating these temperatures of 75 degrees!!! Its a bit springy, and since spring is my favourite season, keep it coming!!
Last night when I was in the bath, I figured out that I only have 4 weekends left here and then Im back to the states for at least the rest of the year. I need to use these 4 weekends wisely, fo sure.
Time has wings
and I'm still running on the ground after it...
Talk lata!
x
Two nights ago, I had a dream that I was flying around this neighbourhood that was similar to mine. I would run on the ground, jump and be up and away, but not like miles above the ground. More like just a matter of a few hundred yards....It was a strange feeling nonetheless!
Then last night, oh my gosh, I dreamt about PIRATES!! Maybe its because all of the publicity of Johnny Depp and Pirates of the Caribbean, or something but its got my attention!!
In my dream, I was on a beach. I noticed that soon pirate ships were going to dock and try to either A.) Take me captive or B.)Kill moi!
So, there was a little lean-to that was kinda dug in the ground on the beach and I proceeded to climb inside to hide. While in there, I started to think to myself that this was a stupid and rather illogical place to hide. I wondered who's idea it was to hide in this dingy piece of poo, but really it's my dream, so the blame falls in my lap.
ANYWHO...I noticed the texture of the place, it was slanted and in front of me was a metal slab with a metal conveyor belt look. Strange Strange, so as I was about to climb out, that's when I noticed 10 ships coming to the island. At this point, I felt as though I was looking at model ships, but then again, I didnt want to risk my life, so the scene changed and I moved on to the next part of my dream.
Here is where I found myself walking around, confused in a darkly lit building. It somewhat reminded me of my high school but it seemed to old and decrepite. I felt as though something bad was going to take place and that the people around me werent quite normal, so when I got the sensation that the worst was about to occur, that's when I ran up a flight of stairs(well as much as you can run while in a dream), and pulled a fire alarm. I looked at it curiously, cuz I was unsure how the device worked, but somehow I figured it out and it helped warn people of the danger ahead.
Once again, my dream switched and I was walking around the sidewalks that were inside of a bus garage. There were about 3 buses for sure and they all had drivers that were moving the buses all over the place. People were waiting to get on and leave cuz something spooked them as I felt the same emotion. So, the natives were getting restless an someone managed to get under a bus. Now, Im sure you ALL know what would happen next. The bus backed over a girl/lady and she turned out flat as a pancake. I heard someone say that, "Oh, she's dead and flat!" And I agreed. I heard other people mentioning that her eyeballs popped out.
Well, that's all that I remember about my dream from last night/this morning. I slept alright, I just wish that I had more pleasant dreams is all. I guess thats what I get for watching Dead Like Me as of recent. I loved this show and it's sad that it only lasted 2 seasons and then was booted. The funny thing though is that when it came to DVD sets, people were ripping them from off the shelves and the makers of the program where a bit in shock, wondering where all of these fans came from. I am still not quite sure why it was cancelled. Maybe Ill wikipedia it and see if I can come up with something.
So, as for the weather now, it is nice and cool out. Thank god that winds can come out of the N/NW, etc...It has been way to hot the past week or so, so I am really appreciating these temperatures of 75 degrees!!! Its a bit springy, and since spring is my favourite season, keep it coming!!
Last night when I was in the bath, I figured out that I only have 4 weekends left here and then Im back to the states for at least the rest of the year. I need to use these 4 weekends wisely, fo sure.
Time has wings
and I'm still running on the ground after it...
Talk lata!
x
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Crumpled up pieces of memory...
is that all that is left of me?
hehe
Anywhoz, I was taking a trip to the past and decided that I wanted to look through some old blog entries. MAN, my attitude has changed since about a year ago,.....seriously....so, I wanted to update Jassen and mine's movie list, etc. since its been some time!!
Here goes!
IN the theatre:
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Garden State(2x)
Star Wars III
Skeleton Key
Wedding Crashers
The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
Constantine
Unleashed(Danny the Dog)
War of the Worlds
Finding Neverland
Napolean Dynamite
Madagascar
The Perfect Catch
The 40 year-old Virgin
The Longest Yard
The Man
Must Love Dogs
Howl's Moving Castle
History of Violence
Serenity
Wallace and Grommit:Curse of the WereRabbit
Date Movie
The Pink Panther
Glastonbury:The Movie
Chicken Little
American Dreamz
X-Men 3
DaVinci Code
Hard Candy
The Lake House
Over the Hedge
RV
Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest
Fearless...
At home:
K-Pax
Sliding Doors
Life of Brian
Clash of the Titans
DragonBall: The series
Meet the Fockers
I <3 Huckabees
Donnie Darko
Vanilla Sky
Big Fish
The Mask
Boat trip
Hitched
Life As a House
A Hard Days Night
Help!
Short Circuit
Beatles Anthology 1-3
Signs
Sponge Bob Square Pants Movie
Elf
Edward Scissorhands
Ed Wood
BeetleJuice
Pee Wee’s Big Adventure
Sleepy Hollow
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Harry Potter 1-3(2x)
Star Wars: Episode 4- A New Hope
Kung Fu Hustle
Team America
Sin City
City of God(Most of it on my part)
Unico
DragonBall Z: 100 episodes together
Me, Myself, and Irene
Lord of the Rings:1-3
Aladdin
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Kronks New Groove
Virgin Suicides
The Emperor's New Groove
The Island
The Truman Show
Being John Malkovich
The Majestic
Fantastic Four
The Notebook
House of Flying Daggers
Run Lola Run
Robin Hood:Men in tights(J hated it)
Hellboy
The Prophesy
Family Guy(Episodes 1-7)
The Ghost and Mrs Muir
American Beauty
Hook
To Kill a Mockingbird
The Life Aquatic starring Steve Zissou
Amelie
A Walk to Remember
Bowling for Columbine
BraveHeart
Brewster's Millions
Charlie's Angels:Full Throttle
Cooler(Half of it, then we turned it off)
Down with Love
Meet Joe Black
DragonHeart
Drop Dead Fred
Flatliners
Forces of Nature
Practical Magic
Indiana Jones:Raiders of the Lost Arc
Inside I'm dancing
O'Brother Where Art Thou
Overboard
Outbreak
Return to Oz
Wizard of Oz
Secret Window
Spirited Away
Star Trek:Generations
Star Trek:First Contact
Star Trek:Insurrection
Star Trek: Nemesis
Star Trek: The Next Generation:Seasons 1-3+
Ace Ventura:Pet Detective
The Cell
The Wedding Singer
Grave of the Fireflies(depressing)
Whisper of the Heart
The Cat Returns
Only Yesterday
13 going on 30
Peanuts-Snoopy Come Home
Hook
The World According to Garp(f-ed up)
Family Guy Movie:Stewie Untold Story
Young Frankenstein
Robin Hood:Men in Tights
History of the World:Part 1
Monty Python:The Meaning of Life
Magnolia
Patch Adams
Toy Story
Toy Story 2
March of the Penguins
The Upside of Anger
Mission Impossible:2?
The Devil's Advocate
Blade Runner
Earth Girls are Easy
Runaway Jury
Mean Girls
Evolution(Pile of poo)
The Jerk
Homeless to Harvard
Freaky Friday
To Kill a Mockingbird(Half, then it got boring)
Pinocchio
Mulan
Scary Movie 4
Chronicles of Narnia
Akira
Biodome
Run Lola Run
Final Fantasy:Advent Children
Battle Royale(Really GOOD!)
Corpses Bride
Jumanji
Mirrormask
Neverending Story
Memoirs of A Geisha
Love Actually
Alice in Wonderland
Fantasia(fast forward thru some parts)
Everything is Illuminated(really good)
Polar Express
Mononoke-Hime(Princess Mononoke)
Dancer in the Dark
Naked Gun
Zoolander
Theatre(as in play):
-A life in the Theatre(with Patrick Stewart and Joshua Jackson)
-The Producers
Museums:
-Science and Industry
Public Attractions:
-Places all over London
-London Eye
-Stonehenge(kinda twice)
-Chicago
-Navy PiER
-Water Tower Place
-Magnificant Mile
-South Shore Train
-Marshall Fields
-Hershey Kiss Store :-P
-Indianapolis
-Music Mill
-Tower of London
-Tower Bridge
-London Aquarium
-Enfield(1st ATM in the world, ever.)
-The Brit Oval- For Cricket
-Walthamstow Dog Track
Festivals:
-Glastonbury 2004
-V Festival 2004
-Glastonbury 2005
-Mauritian Day Chingford 2005
Concerts:
-Guster
-Coldplay(At Glastonbury and Crystal Palace)
-Stereophonics(Indianapolis)
-Elbow(Leaders of the Freeworld dvd premiere)
-Doves with I am Kloot
-Sigur Ros with Amina
-Elbow at Astoria with Larkin Love, Thin White Duke,...
-Imogen Heap at Shepherds Bush Empire
-Radiohead at Hammersmith Apollo
hehe
Anywhoz, I was taking a trip to the past and decided that I wanted to look through some old blog entries. MAN, my attitude has changed since about a year ago,.....seriously....so, I wanted to update Jassen and mine's movie list, etc. since its been some time!!
Here goes!
IN the theatre:
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Garden State(2x)
Star Wars III
Skeleton Key
Wedding Crashers
The Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy
Constantine
Unleashed(Danny the Dog)
War of the Worlds
Finding Neverland
Napolean Dynamite
Madagascar
The Perfect Catch
The 40 year-old Virgin
The Longest Yard
The Man
Must Love Dogs
Howl's Moving Castle
History of Violence
Serenity
Wallace and Grommit:Curse of the WereRabbit
Date Movie
The Pink Panther
Glastonbury:The Movie
Chicken Little
American Dreamz
X-Men 3
DaVinci Code
Hard Candy
The Lake House
Over the Hedge
RV
Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man's Chest
Fearless...
At home:
K-Pax
Sliding Doors
Life of Brian
Clash of the Titans
DragonBall: The series
Meet the Fockers
I <3 Huckabees
Donnie Darko
Vanilla Sky
Big Fish
The Mask
Boat trip
Hitched
Life As a House
A Hard Days Night
Help!
Short Circuit
Beatles Anthology 1-3
Signs
Sponge Bob Square Pants Movie
Elf
Edward Scissorhands
Ed Wood
BeetleJuice
Pee Wee’s Big Adventure
Sleepy Hollow
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Harry Potter 1-3(2x)
Star Wars: Episode 4- A New Hope
Kung Fu Hustle
Team America
Sin City
City of God(Most of it on my part)
Unico
DragonBall Z: 100 episodes together
Me, Myself, and Irene
Lord of the Rings:1-3
Aladdin
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Kronks New Groove
Virgin Suicides
The Emperor's New Groove
The Island
The Truman Show
Being John Malkovich
The Majestic
Fantastic Four
The Notebook
House of Flying Daggers
Run Lola Run
Robin Hood:Men in tights(J hated it)
Hellboy
The Prophesy
Family Guy(Episodes 1-7)
The Ghost and Mrs Muir
American Beauty
Hook
To Kill a Mockingbird
The Life Aquatic starring Steve Zissou
Amelie
A Walk to Remember
Bowling for Columbine
BraveHeart
Brewster's Millions
Charlie's Angels:Full Throttle
Cooler(Half of it, then we turned it off)
Down with Love
Meet Joe Black
DragonHeart
Drop Dead Fred
Flatliners
Forces of Nature
Practical Magic
Indiana Jones:Raiders of the Lost Arc
Inside I'm dancing
O'Brother Where Art Thou
Overboard
Outbreak
Return to Oz
Wizard of Oz
Secret Window
Spirited Away
Star Trek:Generations
Star Trek:First Contact
Star Trek:Insurrection
Star Trek: Nemesis
Star Trek: The Next Generation:Seasons 1-3+
Ace Ventura:Pet Detective
The Cell
The Wedding Singer
Grave of the Fireflies(depressing)
Whisper of the Heart
The Cat Returns
Only Yesterday
13 going on 30
Peanuts-Snoopy Come Home
Hook
The World According to Garp(f-ed up)
Family Guy Movie:Stewie Untold Story
Young Frankenstein
Robin Hood:Men in Tights
History of the World:Part 1
Monty Python:The Meaning of Life
Magnolia
Patch Adams
Toy Story
Toy Story 2
March of the Penguins
The Upside of Anger
Mission Impossible:2?
The Devil's Advocate
Blade Runner
Earth Girls are Easy
Runaway Jury
Mean Girls
Evolution(Pile of poo)
The Jerk
Homeless to Harvard
Freaky Friday
To Kill a Mockingbird(Half, then it got boring)
Pinocchio
Mulan
Scary Movie 4
Chronicles of Narnia
Akira
Biodome
Run Lola Run
Final Fantasy:Advent Children
Battle Royale(Really GOOD!)
Corpses Bride
Jumanji
Mirrormask
Neverending Story
Memoirs of A Geisha
Love Actually
Alice in Wonderland
Fantasia(fast forward thru some parts)
Everything is Illuminated(really good)
Polar Express
Mononoke-Hime(Princess Mononoke)
Dancer in the Dark
Naked Gun
Zoolander
Theatre(as in play):
-A life in the Theatre(with Patrick Stewart and Joshua Jackson)
-The Producers
Museums:
-Science and Industry
Public Attractions:
-Places all over London
-London Eye
-Stonehenge(kinda twice)
-Chicago
-Navy PiER
-Water Tower Place
-Magnificant Mile
-South Shore Train
-Marshall Fields
-Hershey Kiss Store :-P
-Indianapolis
-Music Mill
-Tower of London
-Tower Bridge
-London Aquarium
-Enfield(1st ATM in the world, ever.)
-The Brit Oval- For Cricket
-Walthamstow Dog Track
Festivals:
-Glastonbury 2004
-V Festival 2004
-Glastonbury 2005
-Mauritian Day Chingford 2005
Concerts:
-Guster
-Coldplay(At Glastonbury and Crystal Palace)
-Stereophonics(Indianapolis)
-Elbow(Leaders of the Freeworld dvd premiere)
-Doves with I am Kloot
-Sigur Ros with Amina
-Elbow at Astoria with Larkin Love, Thin White Duke,...
-Imogen Heap at Shepherds Bush Empire
-Radiohead at Hammersmith Apollo
The time is now...
1:11am
I am awake.
I thought I was sleepy, but then I guess I got over it.
My honey is fast asleep, lucky him, and my kits have found places outside the room to sleep, cuz the light of my computer interferes with their sleeping....same goes for Jassen, so that's why I am sitting on the floor next to the bed.
Ooops...I sneezed...and my boo stirs. I hope I didnt wake him up.:-S
He has to get up in a matter of 5.5 hours, so I really don't want him dragging tail tomorrow.
He was complaining today about the unnatural state he often finds himself in(I can relate). Its the state where you have no motivation or will to move and you just want to stay where you are and relax. Like I said, I can relate....totally!!
My eyes are growing heavy and Im started up the case of the yawns.*YAWNS*
I think that I fear that if i close my eyes, when I wake up, my life might pass right under my feet.
Okay...okay, sleep is talking...im going to read this tomorrow and think, "whats up with her?(me)"
It's kinda uncomfortably hot in here, so its hard to sleep, plus the bugs have been attacking today...
Hope it rains tomorrow....please oh please, Zeus let it rain!
Night.
I am awake.
I thought I was sleepy, but then I guess I got over it.
My honey is fast asleep, lucky him, and my kits have found places outside the room to sleep, cuz the light of my computer interferes with their sleeping....same goes for Jassen, so that's why I am sitting on the floor next to the bed.
Ooops...I sneezed...and my boo stirs. I hope I didnt wake him up.:-S
He has to get up in a matter of 5.5 hours, so I really don't want him dragging tail tomorrow.
He was complaining today about the unnatural state he often finds himself in(I can relate). Its the state where you have no motivation or will to move and you just want to stay where you are and relax. Like I said, I can relate....totally!!
My eyes are growing heavy and Im started up the case of the yawns.*YAWNS*
I think that I fear that if i close my eyes, when I wake up, my life might pass right under my feet.
Okay...okay, sleep is talking...im going to read this tomorrow and think, "whats up with her?(me)"
It's kinda uncomfortably hot in here, so its hard to sleep, plus the bugs have been attacking today...
Hope it rains tomorrow....please oh please, Zeus let it rain!
Night.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Piccadilly Tube Adventure #1
I really should put this in order, but the order is this:
Bottom up!
There are still 5 stops on the piccadilly that we need to attend to, but all in good time. Sunday, we are probably going to do a tube adventure on the Victoria line and possibly Jubilee. We shall see!
OH! But yea...the pt of this is to take pictures at ALL tube stops and then I will make a map collage of it to be made in poster form. Yea...Im a goon. Ah well.
Bottom up!
There are still 5 stops on the piccadilly that we need to attend to, but all in good time. Sunday, we are probably going to do a tube adventure on the Victoria line and possibly Jubilee. We shall see!
OH! But yea...the pt of this is to take pictures at ALL tube stops and then I will make a map collage of it to be made in poster form. Yea...Im a goon. Ah well.
I'm not gonna lie...
I like it when people comment in my blog.
It's a sense of recognition and I crave that.
But I find it odd that when I actually start blogging regularly, thats when most comments cease, at least for a while.
Maybe it's something along the lines of, "DANCE MONKEY, DANCE!!"
Ah well. I'll still write regardless, but I guess that's just my take on things. I'll probably be writing more often when I return to the states next month, since I'll be without Jassen for a little more than a month, but he'll be visiting in September, so Im pumped that he'll be in my neck of the woods.
I will be making contact with my last job, Noble of the Barnes, and hopefully be written into the schedule a week or so after I return(to give me time to recover from jet lag cuz I suffer MAJOR!). My dad is going to Norway, I believe, so when I return home I wont be seeing him for a few more weeks. Crazy that it will be nearly 7 months by the time I see my dad in person again, 6 for my mom, sister, and friends.
I'll write more in a little bit. Just now, Im contemplating Pilates, whether or not I should do the usual, orrrrr....just stretch a bit in preparation for the 3 miles of walking ahead of me later on.
The reward of the walk: Well, stronger legs, more endurance, AND a movie.
Jassen and I are going to see Fearless(which is a Jet Li movie I think), so I will let you know how that goes.
Superman Returns will be released on friday here, so that might be something to see either during matinee OR orange wednesday next week. Gosh, Ill miss orange wednesdays(2-for-1 tickets). They really do save some cash, which is always a nice thing. I wish they had something like this in the states. I mean, they might, but maybe only in larger cities.
Little does my mom realize, but we will be going to the movies more often when I get back. Oh yes.
Alright. Ill be back a bit later.
Take Care.
x
It's a sense of recognition and I crave that.
But I find it odd that when I actually start blogging regularly, thats when most comments cease, at least for a while.
Maybe it's something along the lines of, "DANCE MONKEY, DANCE!!"
Ah well. I'll still write regardless, but I guess that's just my take on things. I'll probably be writing more often when I return to the states next month, since I'll be without Jassen for a little more than a month, but he'll be visiting in September, so Im pumped that he'll be in my neck of the woods.
I will be making contact with my last job, Noble of the Barnes, and hopefully be written into the schedule a week or so after I return(to give me time to recover from jet lag cuz I suffer MAJOR!). My dad is going to Norway, I believe, so when I return home I wont be seeing him for a few more weeks. Crazy that it will be nearly 7 months by the time I see my dad in person again, 6 for my mom, sister, and friends.
I'll write more in a little bit. Just now, Im contemplating Pilates, whether or not I should do the usual, orrrrr....just stretch a bit in preparation for the 3 miles of walking ahead of me later on.
The reward of the walk: Well, stronger legs, more endurance, AND a movie.
Jassen and I are going to see Fearless(which is a Jet Li movie I think), so I will let you know how that goes.
Superman Returns will be released on friday here, so that might be something to see either during matinee OR orange wednesday next week. Gosh, Ill miss orange wednesdays(2-for-1 tickets). They really do save some cash, which is always a nice thing. I wish they had something like this in the states. I mean, they might, but maybe only in larger cities.
Little does my mom realize, but we will be going to the movies more often when I get back. Oh yes.
Alright. Ill be back a bit later.
Take Care.
x
Monday, July 10, 2006
Oh Jensieve, Oh Jensieve
(The Brit Oval-Where the Ashes Were Won)Where have you been
Oh Jensieve Oh Jensieve
You arent my ONLY friend.
CRrrrrack!
Well, All I can say is that I had a rather good weekend!
With minor bumps in the road, overall the journey was a smoooth and positive one!
(Jassen posing at the game)On friday, Jassen had a do that I was to attend with some of his fellow co-workers. Other halfs and friends came as well, so i wasn't a loner in that aspect. We went and saw cricket Middlesex versus Surrey. Surrey totally kicked ass but I was silently rooting for them near the beginning.
This was the first time that I saw a cricket match and it was actually kinda fun plus I started learning to rules of the game.:-)
Now, Im curious whether cricket is older than baseball cuz I can see the basis of it in there somewhere!
(THE TICKET!)It kinda looked like rain at times but it never did, which was a good thing! Brought the umbrella just in case.
(The sky is falling! The sky is falling!!)Afterwards, Jassen and I shared a pint and then headed with the group to a Spanish Restaurant called the Rueda! We had cocktails(I had Baileys on the rocks! and Jassen a beer.) We settled in and order all of the appetizers on the list and tried all sorts of things! Like there was this weird bacon stuff that not too many people touched, potato cakes, I think squid(which was a bit tough), shrimps, meatballs and rice(which was AWESOME), bread and butter, chicken and garlic, grilled sardines, King prawns with sauces, water, and a few glasses of 12% white wine...so, needless to say, I got a bit tipsy!;-)
All in all, it was a lovely night, I met Richard and Claire, Andy's Gerry, Sue and her husband, Thalia's son, as well as Anna and her boyfriend, had met Angie and her sister before, and David Roberts. I hope they enjoyed the time as much as I did!
Jassen and I then headed back a little after 11 to catch the bus before 1230, since we didnt want to walk for an hour if we missed it! So, we got home, reallllly tired and had some drunken sleep.
We then woke up in the morning and got ourselves ready to go see Pirates of the Carribbean:Dead Man's Chest. Stay until the end, if you have yet to see it. It was a good movie and definitely a transitioner movie for the 3rd one, but good nonetheless. Not as slapstick as before but it has its moments. Jassen and I also saw Over the Hedge(on Wednesday) and that was really good as well. I recommend!
SOooo....after the movies, we walked around for a small bit, went to WHSmiths and then realizing we didnt want to get ripped off with the prices on books, then walked down the street to another bookstore and got prices much cheaper. We ended up getting the 6th harry potter book in paperback, since we have the others in paper in our collection and I got the book Blink by Malcolm Gladwell. I let you know how that goes, but its based on the ideas of "thinking without thinking" and going with your first thought with things in life.;-p
That was pretty much our day when we came back home and then watched some Star Trek:Season 3(nearing the end of the season episodes) and then Braveheart(since Jassen had never seen it and I recommended).
Sunday, we didnt do much, although I wanted to do another tube adventure, but Jassen was a bit tired so we decided against it. Maybe next weekend(Although Jassen's cousin is having a 21st birthday party so we shall see)...we watched the rest of Season 3 of Star Trek and started on the 4th season(yea, we are nerds and <3 Star Trek). Now we are starting to realize that we are in dire need of getting the 5th season at the rate we are watching them.(OBSESSION)
We headed to KFC to burn our butts with the Zinger meals(which I felt this morning and it hurt like Indian food!) and then to McDonalds to see about the new Rolo Milkshakes. Alas, they were out of the Rolo stuffz so we headed back to KFC where Jassen and I overindulged in a Lemon Icecream and Flake Ice cream...The lady made it a bit weird by putting the ice cream in first then adding the bits on top(instead of mixing) but it was alright.
We then walked back home(walked for 40 mins=around 2 miles) and watched more Star Trek!! Maybe tonight we will take a break from it just to clear our heads a bit. Or maybe not!:-p
So, I have less than a month before I head back to the states and I have been trying to get in contact with some of my coworkers at Barnes and Noble so that I may notify the heads that I will be returning soon(since I love money and it helps me pay off my student loans). It is going to be strange. I wont be back in the UK until at least next year sometime(so for at least 7 months or so). It is going to suck not being with my kittens, but the good thing is that Jassen has already booked time off to see me in late September/October and will book time off later, at the end of the year for Christmas time(since he likes Christmases in the States with my family):-)
By the time I come back, Pepper and Salt will be nearing the 2 year mark( I cant believe they are 1 already!)*sighs*
I have a feeling that this time, when I go back to the States, work, etc...it will go by fast. It seems like my life is doing just that already. So fast....so fast. I am already making plans for "future occasions". I love making lists and creating things, so I think I will be busy busy for a while really, especially with work being back in the picture.
Life isnt that difficult. I mean, strange and worrying stuff does roll your way sometimes, but overall....it isnt difficult....kinda fun actually...
As you can see, I had a really good weekend, I am in higher spirits, and Im starting to see glimpses of myself, in the way that I want to be seen.
I hope all is well with you guys!
Take Care.
x
Friday, July 07, 2006
P.S.
I think I'm on a roll!!
I've blogged everyday since tuesday!
It is refreshing to get the shit out of your ears and head(figuratively speaking that is!)
Oh! So, there was suppose to be a meetup with Jassen's cousins this weekend, but I don't know if that is going to work out. It would have been nice, since it would take place at Ally Pally(Phoenix Bar) and if the weather was kind to us, we could sit out on the picnic benches. Alexandria Palace is one of the highest pts in London, so its nice to see the skyline and you realize that London isnt THAT big...it's big alright, but not THAT big, as in oceansize.
Also this weekend, I might suggest Jassen and I to go see Pirates of the Carribbean..ARRRR!!!!!!MATEY!!! It would definitely be an early show cuz those are the less crowded cheaper ones! Superman is coming out soon as well, but I don't mind when we see that really....though I love Kevin Spacey(see K-pax if you havent already)...
This sunday, I think we will do another tube adventure on the shorter lines, one being Victoria and the other one might be Jubilee. We shall see!
Alright...thats enough from me..Im awfully blabby today!
:-S
I've blogged everyday since tuesday!
It is refreshing to get the shit out of your ears and head(figuratively speaking that is!)
Oh! So, there was suppose to be a meetup with Jassen's cousins this weekend, but I don't know if that is going to work out. It would have been nice, since it would take place at Ally Pally(Phoenix Bar) and if the weather was kind to us, we could sit out on the picnic benches. Alexandria Palace is one of the highest pts in London, so its nice to see the skyline and you realize that London isnt THAT big...it's big alright, but not THAT big, as in oceansize.
Also this weekend, I might suggest Jassen and I to go see Pirates of the Carribbean..ARRRR!!!!!!MATEY!!! It would definitely be an early show cuz those are the less crowded cheaper ones! Superman is coming out soon as well, but I don't mind when we see that really....though I love Kevin Spacey(see K-pax if you havent already)...
This sunday, I think we will do another tube adventure on the shorter lines, one being Victoria and the other one might be Jubilee. We shall see!
Alright...thats enough from me..Im awfully blabby today!
:-S
FRIIiiiiiDAY!
It is.
I love the weekends.
It makes me feel freeeee!
Not the fact that I don't have to work weekends(since im not working at all)
but the fact that Jassen doesnt have to work weekends and that I can spend time with him without feeling "too" rushed.
Gosh....dryyyyy...*drinks some water*
Milk definitely dries me out. I don't know about you guys!:-S
But yea, today should be a fun day. Jassen's work is having a cricket outing, so since I am invited, I will be traveling to his work a little after 2 to arrive at 3, and the train will be leaving at around 330 or so! We will then travel down to near Surrey(Oval Station) and watch a match there. I believe the match is at 530, so we will be there probably around a little hour before(probably to find our seats and snacks and get comfy!) I've never been to a cricket match and I dont think that Jassen has either but I will ask him....*awaits reply on msn*
Jassen: "never...I hear the atmosphere is supposed to be pretty cool"
:-)
Anyway...yes, so we will watch cricket and then afterward we are going to a nice Spanish Restaurant(probably nearby). I'm pretty sure Jassen has talked about me to his work peeps, so more of them will be able to put the face to what has been said...That's always fun!
I somewhat feel like I don't have much going on these days, but I know damn well that when Im back in the states, I will be working my butt off(literally, by losing this weight that ive gained over the months as well!) either at the bookstore or elsewhere.
As for the insomnia bit..I had issues trying to get to sleep last night and I awoke a few times during the night, once or twice to Salt meooowing for attention(strange cat)....but overall, I slept O.K. In total, broken sleep-wise, I got about 9ish hours? So, that's something. There was at one pt, 4 in the morning, I took one calcium tablet and that helped me to sleep from 4 on to about 10ish(i woke up once when Jassen was leaving for work, i gave him a hug and was half asleep)...
Okay...this is directed to anyone...when it comes to YOUR own personal wedding soundtrack, what songs would be on it?
I need suggestions...just because.
Hope everyone is well!!
x
I love the weekends.
It makes me feel freeeee!
Not the fact that I don't have to work weekends(since im not working at all)
but the fact that Jassen doesnt have to work weekends and that I can spend time with him without feeling "too" rushed.
Gosh....dryyyyy...*drinks some water*
Milk definitely dries me out. I don't know about you guys!:-S
But yea, today should be a fun day. Jassen's work is having a cricket outing, so since I am invited, I will be traveling to his work a little after 2 to arrive at 3, and the train will be leaving at around 330 or so! We will then travel down to near Surrey(Oval Station) and watch a match there. I believe the match is at 530, so we will be there probably around a little hour before(probably to find our seats and snacks and get comfy!) I've never been to a cricket match and I dont think that Jassen has either but I will ask him....*awaits reply on msn*
Jassen: "never...I hear the atmosphere is supposed to be pretty cool"
:-)
Anyway...yes, so we will watch cricket and then afterward we are going to a nice Spanish Restaurant(probably nearby). I'm pretty sure Jassen has talked about me to his work peeps, so more of them will be able to put the face to what has been said...That's always fun!
I somewhat feel like I don't have much going on these days, but I know damn well that when Im back in the states, I will be working my butt off(literally, by losing this weight that ive gained over the months as well!) either at the bookstore or elsewhere.
As for the insomnia bit..I had issues trying to get to sleep last night and I awoke a few times during the night, once or twice to Salt meooowing for attention(strange cat)....but overall, I slept O.K. In total, broken sleep-wise, I got about 9ish hours? So, that's something. There was at one pt, 4 in the morning, I took one calcium tablet and that helped me to sleep from 4 on to about 10ish(i woke up once when Jassen was leaving for work, i gave him a hug and was half asleep)...
Okay...this is directed to anyone...when it comes to YOUR own personal wedding soundtrack, what songs would be on it?
I need suggestions...just because.
Hope everyone is well!!
x
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Contemplative State:
Yes.
Here I am.
Again.
What's around me at the moment is a fan blowing cold in my ear, goose bumps arising to the occasion, my kits lazily passing the day;one on the window ledge and the other on top of his favourite box which sits on the top of the wardrobe.
It is a nice relaxing feeling. I'm a bit dry and I am starting to eye the pouch of capri-sun(sonne) that Jassen was going to drink last night, but never got around to it. Yes. I'll take it!;-)
So much is going through my head. So much that maybe that might be one of the leading factors to my recent bout of insomnia. For the life of me, my body clock seems out of time. I wake up anywhere between 3 and 5 in the morning and Im wide awake and find it hard to sleep. It doesnt matter if Ive sleeped 2 hours or even 6! There is always something about the 3 o'clock hour. I use to do this when I was younger...much younger as in 13 or 14. I would wake up at precisely 3:03 or 3:20. I wonder what that means.
I also have a strange talent of knowing what time it is, alot of the times.
My sinuses have not been the kindest to me during this minor heat wave earlier this week. I have felt really out of it, as though my vision and concentration has narrowed or as though I am lost in caverns of my mind. It's the strangest sensation.
It's kinda like this. Imagine yourself walking down the street to a destination. You start to think to yourself, 'wow, I exist, I am moving towards pt B from A, I am in a body'....as I think this, I feel the detachment I have with my body(as though I am a visitor with an outside perspective. It kinda creeps me out and I then have to re-adjust myself in my skin, assuring myself that I am here, etc etc. At those times, I feel like my soul can take off in a completely different direction, but a fear as well as a knowing that this time wouldnt call for that to happen.
Pepper goes an investigates the outside world, which is beyond the bedroom door that separates me from the rest of Jassen's family. I know I am welcome here and I have the right to move about in which ever way, and that I am not confinded(sp) to this house, but there is something that keeps me here.
I dont like the idea of wandering the streets with no real destination, plus the neighbour doesnt make me feel all that safe, unless I am walking with Jassen. I know Jassen is really worried about my mental wellbeing. Really it is my "fault" on how my wellbeing is, what state it has transitioned into.
Maybe I am just waiting for things to start going "our way". I have so many fantasies on when Jassen and I have our own place, more responsibilities, I have a source of income and we are working together for it! Now, I am just a wanderer, trying to make house in a place that isnt a home. Jassen is my home, sometimes I feel terrible when I disregard that. Im only human, is my only excuse.
I am afraid of losing sight of the real purpose to things, the struggle, why I try as hard as I do with things, and then worry myself into a rut I know I will have to eventually dig out from...with my own willpower.
When did I become so cynical to life? Was it a joke gone wrong for too long? I like being sarcastic, but this is a new sort of level.
There is so much I need to learn about myself. Who would have thought that we are our greatest teachers.
I focus too much on the future possibilities that I forget that now is the time to make the memories that will be cherished in the future. I need to make some more positive memories, or it will be the death of me...placing all of my energies into a future that wont have it.
I am positive. I am. It's there in all of us. I dont expect to be happy all the time. That would be boring, but still, I need to work on recalibrating my scales here!
x
Here I am.
Again.
What's around me at the moment is a fan blowing cold in my ear, goose bumps arising to the occasion, my kits lazily passing the day;one on the window ledge and the other on top of his favourite box which sits on the top of the wardrobe.
It is a nice relaxing feeling. I'm a bit dry and I am starting to eye the pouch of capri-sun(sonne) that Jassen was going to drink last night, but never got around to it. Yes. I'll take it!;-)
So much is going through my head. So much that maybe that might be one of the leading factors to my recent bout of insomnia. For the life of me, my body clock seems out of time. I wake up anywhere between 3 and 5 in the morning and Im wide awake and find it hard to sleep. It doesnt matter if Ive sleeped 2 hours or even 6! There is always something about the 3 o'clock hour. I use to do this when I was younger...much younger as in 13 or 14. I would wake up at precisely 3:03 or 3:20. I wonder what that means.
I also have a strange talent of knowing what time it is, alot of the times.
My sinuses have not been the kindest to me during this minor heat wave earlier this week. I have felt really out of it, as though my vision and concentration has narrowed or as though I am lost in caverns of my mind. It's the strangest sensation.
It's kinda like this. Imagine yourself walking down the street to a destination. You start to think to yourself, 'wow, I exist, I am moving towards pt B from A, I am in a body'....as I think this, I feel the detachment I have with my body(as though I am a visitor with an outside perspective. It kinda creeps me out and I then have to re-adjust myself in my skin, assuring myself that I am here, etc etc. At those times, I feel like my soul can take off in a completely different direction, but a fear as well as a knowing that this time wouldnt call for that to happen.
Pepper goes an investigates the outside world, which is beyond the bedroom door that separates me from the rest of Jassen's family. I know I am welcome here and I have the right to move about in which ever way, and that I am not confinded(sp) to this house, but there is something that keeps me here.
I dont like the idea of wandering the streets with no real destination, plus the neighbour doesnt make me feel all that safe, unless I am walking with Jassen. I know Jassen is really worried about my mental wellbeing. Really it is my "fault" on how my wellbeing is, what state it has transitioned into.
Maybe I am just waiting for things to start going "our way". I have so many fantasies on when Jassen and I have our own place, more responsibilities, I have a source of income and we are working together for it! Now, I am just a wanderer, trying to make house in a place that isnt a home. Jassen is my home, sometimes I feel terrible when I disregard that. Im only human, is my only excuse.
I am afraid of losing sight of the real purpose to things, the struggle, why I try as hard as I do with things, and then worry myself into a rut I know I will have to eventually dig out from...with my own willpower.
When did I become so cynical to life? Was it a joke gone wrong for too long? I like being sarcastic, but this is a new sort of level.
There is so much I need to learn about myself. Who would have thought that we are our greatest teachers.
I focus too much on the future possibilities that I forget that now is the time to make the memories that will be cherished in the future. I need to make some more positive memories, or it will be the death of me...placing all of my energies into a future that wont have it.
I am positive. I am. It's there in all of us. I dont expect to be happy all the time. That would be boring, but still, I need to work on recalibrating my scales here!
x
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
What is beauty?
This is a current question posed on a message board I frequent quite often, so I thought I would share my take on the matter.
beauty is a desire within us all
whether we realize we possess it or not
it is in our existance, our breath, and our
everyday goings
some place face value on beauty
while others lace it with all the mysteries of the world
both place it in a package, but for it to be never opened
to me
beauty is in the knowing that we are all loved
in some way
somehow
by something greater than ourselves
and letting that wash over us
So, what do you think beauty is?
Let me know!;-)
beauty is a desire within us all
whether we realize we possess it or not
it is in our existance, our breath, and our
everyday goings
some place face value on beauty
while others lace it with all the mysteries of the world
both place it in a package, but for it to be never opened
to me
beauty is in the knowing that we are all loved
in some way
somehow
by something greater than ourselves
and letting that wash over us
So, what do you think beauty is?
Let me know!;-)
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
I was planning...
on recording a video blog yesterday and had all my little duckies in a row, but when it came to pressing play, I had issues with it recording, so yea...
instead, i began to read The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold and Im more than half way done!
I think I will finish the rest later today and JUST this second, I looked up the book online and to my discovery, it is being made into a movie!
I hope it is as good as the book so far.
In case you have no idea what its about...really you should get yourself a copy.
It is about a little girl of 14 that gets raped and murdered and ends up seeing how life happens after her death around her. She is up in her "heaven" for the time being and goes through memories, family members feelings, thoughts, their memories, and life...as well as the murderer's(whom is a neighbour that hasnt been caught).
It is WELL written and I would suggest it to anyone that has the time. I have yet to read the entire thing, but I look forward to the outcome of it all!
Really I should get back to bed, but sleeping isnt so much fun when its too hot to do so.
RAIN COME RESCUE ME!!!
:-S
instead, i began to read The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold and Im more than half way done!
I think I will finish the rest later today and JUST this second, I looked up the book online and to my discovery, it is being made into a movie!
I hope it is as good as the book so far.
In case you have no idea what its about...really you should get yourself a copy.
It is about a little girl of 14 that gets raped and murdered and ends up seeing how life happens after her death around her. She is up in her "heaven" for the time being and goes through memories, family members feelings, thoughts, their memories, and life...as well as the murderer's(whom is a neighbour that hasnt been caught).
It is WELL written and I would suggest it to anyone that has the time. I have yet to read the entire thing, but I look forward to the outcome of it all!
Really I should get back to bed, but sleeping isnt so much fun when its too hot to do so.
RAIN COME RESCUE ME!!!
:-S
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